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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
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"He is your comfort zone." in In My World
Have you ever had someone put into words exactly what you were feeling in a way you couldn’t articulate? On one hand they know what you’re trying to say and are truly listening. On the other you ...
A dream after a dream in In My World
I woke up into another dream only I didn’t know I was dreaming. We were talking but I’m not sure what about. I moved to put my head and arm on your stomach. I wiggled and you asked why so I told ...
Ultrasound in In My World
My appointment today went by so quickly and it made the ache… the grief so much worse. I shouldn’t have talked about it. I’d have been better off if I just buried it as far as I could. My cowork...
Grumpy in In My World
I’m so exhausted and restless that I can’t even fall asleep for a before work car nap. Now I have 40 minutes to waste whatever other way
Early Mornings. P.S. I got up 10 minutes early anyway in In My World
I went to bed at midnight last night despite knowing my alarm would be going off at 4:30. I tried everything to get to sleep but by 1:30 I was still awake. I wasn’t even can’t-stay-still restless...
Hinder in In My World
Lets go home and get stoned. We can end up making love instead of misery. Let’s go home and get stoned ‘cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me There’s just something about that ...
Liar, Liar, You'll pay for your sins. in In My World
Why do you have to come back here and shake things up again? I was doing just fine without you. I am doing just fine without you. I loved the way you made me feel but you hurt me when I was my m...
. in In My World
“I really hope you don’t hate me before I can finally find clarity.”
I'm sick of crying in In My World
Depressed means panic mode comes out a lot more. Panic mode means a lot more angry “attitude” moments. Everyone is going to start hating me but I swear I’m doing my best. I cried for over two ho...
Who would want to celebrate anyway? in In My World
I know it’s just the depression talking but I feel like no one gives a shit that I’ll be 25 in a week. I thought 25 was supposed to be important. A quarter of a century. I wanted someone besides...
Up before the sun in In My World
I finally fell asleep some time after 1 this morning and then I woke up some time before my alarm at 4:45. I’m so tired but your sleepy whimper and adjustment to pull me closer make it a little l...
Ugh. Fuck you, prosebox. I trusted you. in In My World
I wrote out a good long entry tonight. It took me almost an hour to write and then the page refreshed itself before I could do anything and the entry was gone. What happened to autosave? This ha...
Nesting in In My World
I want to just skip ahead to the part of my life where I’m happy with someone that wants to spend their time with me and start a family. I want to own a little house that’s not perfect but it wor...
JCH in In My World
Today is your birthday and I miss you. I’ve thought about you a ton today and it hurts. I almost hope you reach out. You shouldn’t and I shouldn’t miss you. If you read this, Happy birthday. I ...
Warrior in In My World
I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror tonight and for a fleeting second I saw her… She was younger then, naive, with galaxies in her eyes and an inferno in her soul. And once she faded all ...
Untitled in In My World
I haven’t felt this alone in a long time. I’m sorry, you deserved better. I broke my promises. I’m sorry.
Let go. in In My World
I’m pretty damned good at compartmentalizing. I really am. That said this shit hurts. I’ve tried and tried to get past it and I just land here every time. I’m sorry I’m not stronger. I wish I wer...
Zzz in In My World
“I can’t sleep” I made him roll over and lay his head on me. About 5 minutes later he rolled over but kept my arm around him and he was asleep almost immediately after. He doesn’t believe he’s r...
Okay but he's great in In My World
I’m a little bit in love with YungBlud. What have I become? Also… HELLO EMOPHASE THAT NEVER LEFT
Grumpy in In My World
I’m allergic to fleas and I’m also a magnet for all biting bugs. About 20 bites later (in 2 or 3 days. Not bad except 13 are from last night) and I’m just grumpy.
Tried hard to correct it, but nothing was effective. in In My World
I need to know what really happened to you. The spiral won’t leave me alone.
Running at 75%, maybe. in In My World
They say that if you can’t sleep at night it’s because you’re awake in someone else’s dream… Well I slept from around midnight until around 2:30 and then I was just awake until after 6. So like. ...
Friday the 13th in In My World
I curled myself into a ball and had your arm between my legs. My head was above your shoulder but my cheek was against it. My legs were cold but your arm was warm. We were watching Friday the 13t...
It's only a matter of time in In My World
I keep seeing a car crash over and over again. In my dreams, while I’m awake, and everywhere in between. Not I’m just waiting for it to actually happen. Fuck this. Maybe talking about it will k...
Stop. in In My World
Stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it. Let go. It isn’t fucking worth it anymore.