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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."

Rose Kennedy

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December 31, 2018

Maybe I'll see you again. in In My World

Your song is becoming mine and it is really bad for both of us.

December 31, 2018

Little Things in In My World

I had a rough day and I was having a rough night until I woke up and your arm was over me. Just resting on my side. Comfortable. I sleep better with you at my side and you hold me in your sleep. ...

5.) Black nails, fur and dust covered sketchbook, mirror on its side, leash, sink 4.) Legs asleep, cold linoleum, an intense sense of need, back pain 3.) Kittens eating, space heater, phone keyb...

December 17, 2018

Small Steps in In My World

I brushed the knots out of my very greasy hair. Improvements. Its small but it’s something. I talked to my advisor for almost an hour today about school next semester. I don’t mind the low so ...

December 16, 2018

Tension in In My World

My friends mom is effectively forcing tension between her and I and its seriously pissing me off. We live together and we are about to be working together as well and her mom put the thought in ...

December 15, 2018

Maintenance in In My World

“Treat yourself like one of the things that needs to get done.” “As long as it has nutritional value it counts as food.” Your voice is the one in my head when I catch myself not taking care of m...

December 15, 2018

Low in In My World

Sometimes it doesn’t hit me when I first wake up. Sometimes it waits and then creeps up on my once the conversation goes quiet or the first time I’m alone in a room. Sometimes it comes mid laugh,...

December 13, 2018

I didn't die. in In My World

I’m leaving this disclaimer for my sister because I know she reads these. My house had the stomach flu, do not read this entry. Its TMI anyway. - - - - I have been off and on trying to write an e...

December 03, 2018

Last stretch home in In My World

Out of nowhere I got this dizzy, foggy feeling and I’m breathing fine but it makes the air feel heavy. It’s hard to focus on anything other than my phone or the pain in my back. Signs are blurry....

I have a chance at real, new, and happy… …so why am I so afraid? Why do I want to fall back into old habits? Why isnt this simple? Everything is so goddamned complicated.

November 23, 2018

November 23 in In My World

I’m so glad my best friend has found her happy but my God is it hard to watch. I feel so goddamned selfish all the time but fuck am I trying.

November 23, 2018

Thanksgiving in In My World

This year I am grateful that despite all odds, I’m still here. Happy Thanksgiving

November 20, 2018

Life in In My World

I’ve been trying to write and I have no words. Things are.... weird. I’m still here.

November 07, 2018

Done in In My World

My 5 year boyfriend broke up with me 4 days before our 5th anniversary and the day before my dead best friends birthday. Fuck this week.

November 06, 2018

"I get it." in In My World

I ate two chewy bars for dinner because Protector said as long as it has nutritional value it counts as food. I’m too low to cook and I guess I needed a gentle reminder that as long as I ate som...

November 05, 2018

Day 3 in In My World

Today is the 3rd day in a row that all I can think about is you and I don’t really have anyone else to talk to about it anymore so I’ll just scream into the void… Your birthday is in 3 days and t...

November 02, 2018

No. in In My World

I’m fucking heart broken and livid and just fucking defeated.

October 30, 2018

Halloween Asks in In My World

Favorite Halloween movie? -Scooby-Doo and the Witch’s Ghost Halloween costume this year? -Fox Favorite Horror movie? -Case 39. There’s a lot of memory attached to it Best Halloween/Fall themed ...

October 30, 2018

Five things in In My World

I don’t know what to write about but I want to write anyway so I’m going to use my anxiety grounding technique… Find Five things you can see, four things you can feel, three things you can hear,...

October 29, 2018

Music in In My World

I started listening to music I haven’t since I was probably 13 to 16ish and let me just be the first to say…BAD idea. My heart hurts.

October 23, 2018

Bleh. in In My World

Mini update: Day 2 of this head cold. I’m really foggy right now with all the pressure but none of the pain of a headache. I took cold medicine around noon so It’s almost time to take it again. I...

October 22, 2018

Fuck you. in In My World

The motherfucker who killed my best friend plead not guilty today. His trial is coming in a few months and there’s more than enough evidence to bury him… but I’m afraid. Everyone keeps telling me...

October 18, 2018

Work in Progress in In My World

I got 5 or 6 assignments done today. I’m still about 6 assignments behind in that class but I actually got something done which is a major improvement. I’m proud of me.

I have so much that I need to do this week and instead I keep getting so stressed out that I completely shut down and can’t deal with any of it. I keep trying and then it turns into me reading th...

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