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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
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Sleepy in In My World
I haven’t been sleeping, mostly just listening to forensic files and reading some things on my phone. I got up to go up stairs and while I was putting my glasses on you rolled over and growled in...
I only want to cry a lot. in In My World
I typed out a whole fucking huge entry and it never saved to my drafts when I told it to… its just gone.
Coughing, still and again. in In My World
I coughed that kind that takes your breath away but you cant feel in your throat and I couldn’t breathe for almost a whole 20 seconds. So much for prompt care helping. Apparently my airways soun...
We are okay in In My World
I am getting through this dumb move because you are here with me through it. We hold each other through everything and I am so grateful for you. You keep waking up and mumbling at me to ask if ...
Safe in In My World
I wanted to run away to the 4 walls I felt safest in. The 4 walls I felt closest to you in. You’re gone and my walls are being taken from me again. I’m terrified.
Pissed off in In My World
I am completely irrationally pissed off at you right now and I cant talk about it or deal with it so I’m just posting this here. You could at least pretend to care. Oh wait, you’re too “busy”.
Darling, sweet lover, won't you help me to recover? in In My World
We will work things out because as long as we stay together we will always figure it out. Breathe, It’ll be okay. We have 30 days to find a new place to live and I don’t know how the actual fuc...
The static still cracks in my veins. in In My World
I’m not okay. I likely won’t be okay for a long time. I need to breathe. Fuck.
Protip: Don't mess with my Protector. in In My World
(Context: someone direct messaged me on kik and has been making me uncomfortable. Will post screenshots later.) “Yep. That’s it. If things go too far, I’m going off on him. I havent gotten to do ...
Fuck this sickness. in In My World
Its 2:35 in the morning, I’m completely exhausted. Still sick, going on day 5. Lost count of how many times I’ve run to the bathroom now. And I’m just generally in a bad mood. I want to be so fr...
"...and it felt like a bullet in her heart." in In My World
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Turn me up when you feel low. in In My World
You know I’m missing you today. Playing the one song that hurts every time while I’m in Walmart and have to remain composed is just not fucking fair. I miss you.
Stronger forces in In My World
In a combination between a very vivid dream and total darkness I forgot where I was for a few seconds when I woke up. It was.... nice. It was terrifying. I like being here because I feel safe wit...
"I am strong. I am wolf." in In My World
I took the necessary steps to help a suicidal friend yesterday and then got chewed out by another for “hiding shit” today. I did my fucking best, man.
Late-night Confessions in In My World
I keep two articles of clothing on my bed all the time: Ali’s hoodie, Protector’s shirt. Well in all my years of borrowing things that smelled like people nothing has ever retained its scent for...
Why am I awake? in In My World
The reason I keep this prosebox is for the same reason I used opendiary before the fallout. I write so that I can look back at who I was and how I was feeling. I write so I remember what was goin...
Too much to ask in In My World
I’m sure I’ve heard this song a million times but today it reminds me of you.
Maybe I'll see you again. in In My World
Your song is becoming mine and it is really bad for both of us.
Little Things in In My World
I had a rough day and I was having a rough night until I woke up and your arm was over me. Just resting on my side. Comfortable. I sleep better with you at my side and you hold me in your sleep. ...
Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars in In My World
5.) Black nails, fur and dust covered sketchbook, mirror on its side, leash, sink 4.) Legs asleep, cold linoleum, an intense sense of need, back pain 3.) Kittens eating, space heater, phone keyb...
Small Steps in In My World
I brushed the knots out of my very greasy hair. Improvements. Its small but it’s something. I talked to my advisor for almost an hour today about school next semester. I don’t mind the low so ...
Tension in In My World
My friends mom is effectively forcing tension between her and I and its seriously pissing me off. We live together and we are about to be working together as well and her mom put the thought in ...
Maintenance in In My World
“Treat yourself like one of the things that needs to get done.” “As long as it has nutritional value it counts as food.” Your voice is the one in my head when I catch myself not taking care of m...
Low in In My World
Sometimes it doesn’t hit me when I first wake up. Sometimes it waits and then creeps up on my once the conversation goes quiet or the first time I’m alone in a room. Sometimes it comes mid laugh,...
I didn't die. in In My World
I’m leaving this disclaimer for my sister because I know she reads these. My house had the stomach flu, do not read this entry. Its TMI anyway. - - - - I have been off and on trying to write an e...
