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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
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Last stretch home in In My World
Out of nowhere I got this dizzy, foggy feeling and I’m breathing fine but it makes the air feel heavy. It’s hard to focus on anything other than my phone or the pain in my back. Signs are blurry....
I should write but I'm afraid. in In My World
I have a chance at real, new, and happy… …so why am I so afraid? Why do I want to fall back into old habits? Why isnt this simple? Everything is so goddamned complicated.
November 23 in In My World
I’m so glad my best friend has found her happy but my God is it hard to watch. I feel so goddamned selfish all the time but fuck am I trying.
Thanksgiving in In My World
This year I am grateful that despite all odds, I’m still here. Happy Thanksgiving
Life in In My World
I’ve been trying to write and I have no words. Things are.... weird. I’m still here.
Done in In My World
My 5 year boyfriend broke up with me 4 days before our 5th anniversary and the day before my dead best friends birthday. Fuck this week.
"I get it." in In My World
I ate two chewy bars for dinner because Protector said as long as it has nutritional value it counts as food. I’m too low to cook and I guess I needed a gentle reminder that as long as I ate som...
Day 3 in In My World
Today is the 3rd day in a row that all I can think about is you and I don’t really have anyone else to talk to about it anymore so I’ll just scream into the void… Your birthday is in 3 days and t...
No. in In My World
I’m fucking heart broken and livid and just fucking defeated.
Halloween Asks in In My World
Favorite Halloween movie? -Scooby-Doo and the Witch’s Ghost Halloween costume this year? -Fox Favorite Horror movie? -Case 39. There’s a lot of memory attached to it Best Halloween/Fall themed ...
Five things in In My World
I don’t know what to write about but I want to write anyway so I’m going to use my anxiety grounding technique… Find Five things you can see, four things you can feel, three things you can hear,...
Music in In My World
I started listening to music I haven’t since I was probably 13 to 16ish and let me just be the first to say…BAD idea. My heart hurts.
Bleh. in In My World
Mini update: Day 2 of this head cold. I’m really foggy right now with all the pressure but none of the pain of a headache. I took cold medicine around noon so It’s almost time to take it again. I...
Week of October 21 in Songs of the Week
Fuck you. in In My World
The motherfucker who killed my best friend plead not guilty today. His trial is coming in a few months and there’s more than enough evidence to bury him… but I’m afraid. Everyone keeps telling me...
Work in Progress in In My World
I got 5 or 6 assignments done today. I’m still about 6 assignments behind in that class but I actually got something done which is a major improvement. I’m proud of me.
It won't be like this for long in In My World
I have so much that I need to do this week and instead I keep getting so stressed out that I completely shut down and can’t deal with any of it. I keep trying and then it turns into me reading th...
When everything's meant to be broken, I just want you to know who I am. in In My World
Things were ours. Things were ours for such a long time and I got comfortable with that. Now everything’s gone back to being yours or mine and I have to learn how to be me without you all over a...
Random Survey Bullshit number 5. (6?) in In My World
A) What does the last text you sent say? And to whom? -Regular text? “Drunk words are sober thoughts” to Krista, Messenger? “I’m gonna come up with another halloween costume. There’s no way I’ll ...
Desensitization is a goddamned nightmare. in In My World
I don’t ever put trigger warnings on my journal because it’s mine and I don’t write for anyone else but If anyone reads this I talk about suicide. Things have been rough around here for most of ...
Grinning with the lost stare in In My World
It always comes back to this fucking song. Why does it always come back to this? At least young, emo me is content with it.
I think this is survey thingy number 4? possibly 5. Here we go: A. Why did your last relationship end? -Emotional abuse, manipulation, and a bunch of other bullshit. B. Favourite band? -I don’t ...
"This has to MEAN something." in In My World
I’ve always been someone who believed in “signs”. On the flipside I dont believe in coincidences (most times anyway). Well, I was in the basement last night clipping Squirt’s fur and getting inc...
I have some down time and I don’t want to get into the rant from the past few days so I’m just going to do a few more dumb survey thingies. Does anyone actually read these? Probably not. tell me...
Survey Thingies Round Two in In My World
I can’t focus enough to write a real entry today so prepare for survey hell. Do you have any regrets? -One but I don’t consider it a regret because it was never my choice Do you have a deep, da...
