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I did something monumentally important to me today. Something I’ve worked really hard for and something I’ve wanted for such a long time. Something I failed at once but kept working because I kne...

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I am overwhelmed. I was doing great and keeping up with everything and I faltered. Full-time work, full-time college, full-time caretaker of several animals, among other various stressful things ...

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I really need to start writing again. So much has changed and the person (besides myself) that I used to write for probably doesn’t even go to this website anymore let alone read my entries. I w...

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You’re a rock. A stone. A boulder. Will you roll down a mountain and crumble, or get tossed through the ocean waves until you’re smooth and shiny?

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Breathe. Take a deep breath. One more. One more. 5 things you can see: 1.) Homework list 2.) Snapchat notification 3.) 6 cats 4.) paper towels 5.) my bookbag 4 things you can feel: 1.) Should...

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I would be the only person in the house who’s having wifi issues. And just with my laptop. And just when I’m trying to turn in homework. I had all the focus and motivation I needed to get a bunch...

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I’m on vacation right now with some friends of mine. It is now 12:07 and I’ve been rushing to turn in assignments that were due by 11:59 or technically due last week but I have until tomorrow nig...

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I was talking to one of my work kid’s parent this afternoon and it reminded me of a conversation from a couple years ago. I was reminded of the same conversation a few days ago in completely diff...

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TW: Trauma, talk of inner child healing, mention of suicide, I had a really heavy ptsd-fueled realization today. You know those moments in movies when the character can see and hear everything ha...

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People keep telling me that working my two jobs (MWF and TTH) and taking 5 classes is impressive but to be completely honest…it doesn’t feel impressive to me. It’s just what I’m doing with my tim...

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Sixteen seconds. Sixteen motherfucking seconds. Just 16.

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The way you feel right now is valiid and it is okay to feel. I know you’re overwhelmed and burnt out but you have to just push through. I know you want to cry and hope and scream and quit. I kno...

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I wanted to take the mirror down.

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Staying caught up on my entries clearly didn’t happen. UGH. At least they’re all written. Regardless of how long they took to put up. I woke up around 10 today. Protector and I were playing Mane...

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I woke up at 4:45 after not falling asleep until, like, 1:30 something. The ride to work wasn’t all that bad. I hung out a little while and then started finishing the entry from the 5th that I ha...

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I couldn’t find my pill bottle last night and it spiked my anxiety so bad. I take the same empty pill bottle and put my morning pills in it every night and take it downstairs with me so I always...

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I barely slept, again. I honestly think the stress is getting to me. I really hope I can fix my sleep schedule before it becomes a major issue. I was in I1 again today. It wasn’t bad at all, real...

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I ended up falling asleep around 11 something last night. I woke up at like 6:25, gave all the animals dry food, took my nighttime pill, and drank an entire yoohoo in like 10 seconds. I curled ba...

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Before I went to sleep, Protector rolled over and put his arms around me which helped me fall asleep pretty quick. I slept like absolute shit last night. I woke up at like 3:20 after not falling ...

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To absolutely no ones surprise, I slept until noon again today. I tried to wake myself up before then but I honestly just needed the sleep. I woke up to a text from my boss saying that I had to ...

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I’m going to write tonight’s entry in the morning because I’ll have 2 hours to kill and because I have to get up at 4:45…its 1:25.

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It took me for-fucking-ever to fall asleep last night. I think I was awake when Protector left for work. I woke up at 7:30 and could have stayed up but I let myself go back to sleep. I woke up a...

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I woke Protector up last night to watch the ball drop with my mom and brother. We were all playing Animal Crossing. There wasn’t much celebration. Just quiet conversation, as it should have been....

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In 2017 I posted: “Fuck you 2017. You tried to kill me but I only made it through stronger. There were some of the best times and some of the worst times of my life and I am so ready for you to b...

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There’ll be peace when you are done. Lay your weary head to rest, don’t you cry no more. This show saved my life more than once and I’m having a really hard time with it ending. I wasn’t expectin...

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