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How long will I love you in Dear John
I can't express in words how much I love John. Or the reasons why. It's never been a 'perfect' relationship, but he's perfect for me, and makes me ridiculously happy and giddy. There is nothing...
Troubled waters in Dear John
I don't know what to do. I can't stop crying. You feel so far away and distant, not my john at all. I want to make this better, for you and for us. I'm a nurse, it's what I do, I fix things, fix ...
Worms, everywhere in A new era
There is an open can of worms dancing around in my head, mocking me. I can't wrestle them into any sort of logical order. I feel nauseous. Whether it's the nights or just my life, I can't tell....
Last night, he said..... in Dear John
I don't even know where to begin. John is off work, with stress. He can't take the constant abuse from customers when there are no cars available, because when you've booked a car online you ex...
A little bit beautiful in A new era
I'm in the airport, Spain bound, but needed to get this down before I went. My grandad came home from hospital yesterday, for therapy at home. He's mobile, still with no speech but his cognitio...
it never rains but it pours in A new era
i should be writing my uni assignment. inevitaably it is now i've decided to update! i don't even know where to start. george passed away last sunday, eight days ago. peacefully, at home, wit...
Bittersweet in A new era
We went to see George today, myself, Jen and the kids. By coincidence, we arrived just as the oncologist was leaving. He'd just told George that he was looking at weeks rather than months, which ...
Worked all day yesterday, and honestly, I was in no mood for it. Physically and emotionally drained, it's been an arduous few weeks. Popped across to see George, and he looks absolutely shockin...
Brave face in A new era
I am emotionally drained. Work has been relentless and exhausting. Just one sad case after another, breaking my heart, when it's already breaking over George. He was so hopeful when I went to s...
i realise i haven't written in a long while. i have been reading, admittedly i haven't noted either. i've been a lurker. funny how it's always bad news that brings me back. i don't know if i'...
Time slips away in A new era
Three years ago today my mum was diagnosed with acute leukaemia. Actually, strictly speaking, it was yesterday, but three years ago today is the day my dad told us, via Skype. That day is forever...
An even keel in Dear John
It's fair to say things have been up the wall this last couple of weeks. John has decided to go part time in his job to pursue setting up his own company doing leather repairs and restoration. ...
How long will I love you in Dear John
I love that when we met for our first date, nine months ago, I had no idea how important you'd become to me. I don't know if I ever wrote about mine and john's first date, but I giggle to mysel...
The verdict in A new era
I'm not knocked up. The cramps completely subsided, then all of a sudden, once all my symptoms had disappeared, my period showed up. I am so ready for this whole episode to be done. I spent the...
what have you done today, to make you feel proud in A new era
i woke today to a ridiculous report on the news that patients who are looked after by nurses with a diploma are more likely to die than those looked after by nurses with a degree. what a complet...
So the pregnancy test was negative. As I thought it would be. Still no period though. Not unusual, they're crazy irregular with this implant, maybe one every three months or so, with no warning u...
Always the auntie in A new era
I've just spent another lovely afternoon with my little goddaughter grace, and her baby brother Alfie. Grace is three soon, and she's growing up so fast. She's already independent, not wanting he...
Hypocritical andy in A new era
When I went to Laura's on Wednesday, she told me a story about andy, my ex, who I was with for six months, all the while he was secretly in love with his ex girlfriend. When we were together we...
Oh man, this might be the birthday that breaks me. I won't have to worry about turning 30 next year because I might have been done in long before then! Lunch on Thursday with Jenna and the munch...
I love that you've spent a fortune helping your mum out this month and told me that you felt bad because you couldn't spoil me more for my birthday, you then turned up with massive flowers, a spa...
I love that you are so close to your mum. I love that for 30 years, it's been just the two of you since your dad died, and you want to take care of your mum. I love that you've paid half your w...
when i downloaded my diary from OD it downloaded in some weird format, and to wordpad because i didn't have office on my new laptop. now i have office, and have opened the document in word, it's...
perfection in A new era
I hated sundays for a long time. I don't even know why, I work shifts, I can't even say I have that back to work blues thing going on. sundays now are usually waking up with john, hanging out a...
fulfilment in A new era
it's well documented that women need to feel emotionally connected to their partner in order to have a fulfilling sexual relationship. but who knew that actually, sometimes you need sex to feel ...
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger in A new era
My job makes me wonder why some people are made to suffer and others are not. There's no rhyme or reason, no logic to any of it. Some people have painless, comfortable deaths, and some people h...
