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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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I'm Around in Hello
But I’m taking a break from things for a while. Peace y’all.
The Fires Of Mordor in Hello
Burn in my gut right now. Nachos for dinner and now the jalapenos are not agreeing with me. I messed up again. With all that I’ve gone through lately I got very clingy to my FWB. I REALLY didn’t...
Sunday Funerals in Hello
Today is the funerals for both cousins. It’s going to be a difficult day. Thank you everyone whom offered their condokences and asking me if I’m okay. I am, really. This happens every few month...
When It Rains It Pours... in Hello
My cousin who killed himself yesterday…his mom gave up. She died in the hospital a little while ago. Can this week be over already? My mom is taking it very hard right now. They grew up together....
And Now I Feel Selfish in Hello
My cousin Stevie called my mom’s phone a little before six AM this morning. He went on about getting his mother into an assisted living facility. She’s in her late sixties and in bad health. S...
That Moment in Hello
When you’re bored as hell but don’t feel like doing anything. I’d like to take a moment and thank everyone for their kind words while I’ve been on this rollercoaster from hell of emotions. I’m n...
My Dark Lord And Master Satan in Hello
Please watch over me…
Why Is My Life in Dreams And Nightmares
Csrved my left wrist. I’m done with life.
Join Me In The March Of The Disillusioned! in Hello
Had another interview today. Not quite sure how it went. 😝
And Now For Something Completely Different in Hello
I also managed to pull a muscle in my left shoulder blade rearranging furniture over the last two days. I hurt…
Damnit Quit Itching!!! in Hello
Saw my regular physician yesterday and got the staples removed. He even told me if I’m feeling down like that come see him. Real cool guy. But now that it’s healing I wanna naw my arm off. Als...
Welp in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Saw Michelle AND Dr. Gilbert both today. They wanted me to enter an in-patient facility but I refused. I know I know! But money, I’m almost broke. No job. No insurance. I just used the last...
I Love Her in Hello
Had a mania episode last night. Mom stayed up and held me till I finally calmed down enough to sleep. Then I discover this song tonight. I’m so thankful I have her.
Cuts Deep in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
After a morning in the hospital I’ve got five staples in my right wrist. I’m in a dark place.
Enquiring Minds Want To Know in Hello
A few notes from last entry wanted to know why I was let go. A rumor got started that I slept on the job and that I’m a pedophile. The sleeping one made me laugh but being called a pedo? No, ju...
Back To The Drawing Board in Hello
Fired Friday. Drunk since then.. Carved up both wrist tonight. Fuck ‘Em.
Good Things Come To Those Who Wait in Hello
Man, what a Saturday. Woke up feeling stuffy at 12:30 but still went out for lunch. Made it to the park but the friend I was going to meet up with still wasn’t done with her errands. I came h...
Surprise Surprise in Hello
I’m sober on a Friday night/Saturday morning. Normally by now I’d be four Guinness and half a liter of bourbon in cussing the PS4 or watching 90’s rock videos YouTube. Not tonight. Made plans ...
Not Tonight, Boo Boo in Hello
I woke up on the cynical side of the bed this afternoon. Got a full two hours of sleep, go me! Been a shit show since I got to work. Super tired, I was greeted with the first shift guy bitchin...
Mirror, Mirror On The Ceiling in Hello
All In The Family is on. Today, Tuesday, I finally saw my counselor. Pushed back once because I had the flu and once again but she had new baby issues. Well, Dr. Gilbert didn’t tell her about...
Went to see Captain Marvel Sunday night. I find Brie Lawson adorable but also a hardcore badass in the flick. Really liked it. Two things that tickles me: 1. Stan Lee’s last cameo is of himsel...
It's Bad Tonight in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Got the shakes hadcore right now. Can’t keep my hands still. I’m not drinking this weekend no matter how much my brain protests. I’ve been up for almost 28 hours as the sleeping pills don’t real...
My Throats' On Fire in Hello
Mom and I went out to celebrate getting the charge dropped. Went to Po Boy Factory and had the combo platter. Lightly breaded shrimp, oysters and one filet of catfish with cajun seasoned fries. ...
Cost Me 4 Grand But Worth It! in Hello
My lawyer called me this afternoon and left me a voicemail. When I called him back I got great news. No court tomorrow. His exact words, “It’s over and done with.” FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!! I FOUGHT TH...
Fuck You I'm Drunk in Hello
I’m shaved. Susit washing. Intoxicated Court Thursday. Lwave me be.
