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It's June 1 again. For the twelfth time since the morning I woke up to discover that the life of the man I loved had abruptly ended while I slept. This year was probably the best lead-up to the...

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"Oh, I'm so happy...." My text to Annette half a minute ago. So very true. I just got home a few minutes ago, exactly three hours after the last show ended in Bristol. We had to dash a mile a...

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Okay, it's getting ridiculous now. I know I originally planned this year to be about travel, but then I cancelled my big trips! Except I still seem fated to never be home. Tomorrow Annette and...

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Life just keeps getting better and better. I imagine it's all going to crash down around me at some stage, but I really hope not. Ever since I officially quit my job a month ago, my life has be...

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It was. Thursday was one of the best days of my life. Friday and Saturday were pretty perfect, too. After a long conversation with Simon on Thursday between shows, my 'love' for him is now cem...

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That pretty much sums up my week so far.... Annette and I have been having so much fun. I'm actually getting to hang out with her three times this week, which is more times than I'd seen her th...

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This week in Scotland has been the highlight of my year so far. It's been absolutely incredible. I could hardly have asked for more. It started in London with me going in to the office of the ...

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Right now I love Jon and Simon and Chris and I love that I get to spend the next five weeks with them. They are inspiring my transformation and I’m so very grateful to have them: life and peace ...

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I think I just ended my marriage. I've known for a long time it's been coming, probably for a couple of years, but I've been trying everything I can to save it. Tonight I accepted that it's not...

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Newcastle is being absolutely amazing. I'm not going to go into detail, but I just wanted to say that. Especially compared to bloody Southampton. I'm writing again. Not much, but the words ha...

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I've quit my job. Finally and completely. It happened on Wednesday, and Thursday was my last ever day. It's over. I'm free. Afterwards I went out to celebrate with four good friends who happ...

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Can't really write. Too busy having a meltdown. Can't go. Can't do this. Have no choice. No choice at all. Even when I'm trapped in a middle seat on the plane which I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT DO, ...

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Southampton was bad. I really hated the place and the people seemed very odd. And their theatre has the worst sight lines of any theatre I've ever been in. A couple next to me on Friday night ...

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I'm looking forward to getting away. I'm not sure why. Suddenly I want out of my house, the home where I've been so happily hiding from the world for the past few months. It's not that I want ...

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Woking owed me, that's all I can say. One of the worst days of my life happened there, and now one of the best has. I needed to replace those memories. Those ghosts. I had a good week. The p...

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Having a tooth extracted is a lot more traumatic than I ever suspected. I hope I never have to go through that again. That said, I've probably got off rather lightly given that my dentist phobi...

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It's 2am. My train leaves at 9.30, so I need to check out in about six hours. I should sleep. I don't want to leave. It's been magical. Over and over again. I've come to Glasgow for work a ...

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I'm in Scotland. Far more civilised. Don't let me ever leave the first world again. I've somewhat opted out of life. Other than the two weeks in Dubai in early December, I haven't worked sinc...

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I got really ill in Africa, deep in the remoteness of the Serengeti in Tanzania. Finally made it home on Sunday after several days of 13-hour drives on ghastly roads in baking heat and thick clo...

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All is going well. My Facebook update today, my first day with access to Internet: In brief: BA lost my luggage in Joburg - but restored it to me eventually. Got drenched by Victoria Falls (alwa...

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I leave tonight for Victoria Falls via Johannesburg. It's finally starting to feel real. Last night was my final Swan Lake. I'd been dreading it, dreading Tuesday night for weeks, because I di...

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It was Simon tonight. Against all odds. God, he looks good, both shirtless as a swan and in the Stranger's black leather trousers. I never got the attraction of leather before seeing it on Sim...

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I feel so much better than I did this afternoon it's hard to believe. I don't know why I suddenly had such a complete and utter meltdown. It culminated when I got to the theatre this evening to...

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Usually I love new year. It's my favourite holiday, the only one I actually like. It's always been kind of sacred to me. Not so much this year. This year I didn't even care. I just lay on th...

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I might have gone just a little bit mad this December. I no longer have a career. I no longer have a husband. As far as I'm concerned, both are of the past. Everything is changing. Seeing ...

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