Bristol in All Good Things

"Oh, I'm so happy...." My text to Annette half a minute ago. So very true.

I just got home a few minutes ago, exactly three hours after the last show ended in Bristol. We had to dash a mile across town in the icy rain (this is the end of MAY, ffs) to get the last train of the night back to London since there's not a hotel room to be had anywhere in the west thanks to various festivals and rugby matches this weekend, and then the train was jam-packed full of extremely drunk and riotous rugby fans. Eva was in floods of tears about the last night, even though we're all going to Tel Aviv in ten days (she's had a tough week, poor thing), so I had to try and protect her from the chaos and help her decompress. Luckily a lot of people got off in Bath and Chippenham, so we could move to the back of the carriage next to Kerry and Annette for the rest of the journey across the country, and we couldn't believe how quickly we got to London - just in time for the last tube of the night!

It has been the most incredible week. For me, at least. It's been beyond my wildest dreams. So many amazing things happened, so much perfect timing, so many wonderful conversations. I can't believe how many friends I've made - probably more in the past six weeks than the past six years! And I hope many of them will be friends for life. I know some of them definitely will.

Everyone was so pumped up for the show tonight because it was the last one in the UK - and what a way to go out with a bang. It's a good thing there's a break before we head to the Middle East, because everyone will need to recover from this week. It's been unbelievable.

A week from today will be the 12th anniversary of Jordan's death. For the past twelve years, the last week of May has always been excruciating to live through - the whole of May, in fact. But this year I know I am finally healed completely. This is the best May I've had since the last May I shared with him....and I know June is going to be even better.

It's nearly 2am and I ought to be going to bed. I'm still so adrenalised, though. But I have a business meeting in nine hours (I love not working Mon-Fri!) and I still need to prepare for it, so I'd better get some rest.

I can't believe how happy I am at this moment. I want to cherish this feeling forever.