by Valyn Aporia

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November 17, 2014


My mind’s not in a great place right now. It’s a few days til the anniversary of my dad’s death, and there’s also a general....loneliness that I can’t shake. And now Anna’s got a new boyfriend....

September 15, 2014

Educational Focus

I’ve found myself reading a lot lately, particularly nonfiction. I go through phases where I’ll read a lot, then periods where I don’t much. But I definitely find myself happier and more.... st...

September 15, 2014

A Thought

Why is it that you can go to a place like Disney World (which might do this better than anywhere else), suspend your disbelief, and actually let go of a lot of negative things while you’re there?...

September 13, 2014


So I had to escape for a bit..... My grandmother died early Wednesday morning after two weeks in hospice care, and just a week after her 93rd birthday. It was a very long two weeks, and the whol...

August 26, 2014

Roller Coaster

So much to write about...... this will just be a short one to remind myself to go into more details later. It just feels like the body blows keep coming to the family. My grandmother was admitted...

July 03, 2014


How do you define good and evil, especially when it comes to choice? Can a choice that you know is the right choice for you be wrong for those around you? Does a choice undo or negate what co...

June 25, 2014

Crystal Ball

Sometimes, it'd be nice to have a crystal ball to show you how something's going to turn out. To show you the results of a choice you haven't made quite yet. Or something along those lines......

June 23, 2014


Back to work today, though I still feel pretty worn out. Normally I'd be off tomorrow and Thursday, but apparently my boss used Saturday and Sunday as my off days this week instead of using sick...

June 19, 2014

Thinking Out Loud

It's definitely summer...high 90s and high humidity the past several days. Not a fun combination with an achy nose and what feels like a nasty case of congestion. Granted, it's not too bad give...

June 18, 2014


So often I've thought my identity in terms of labels, or in relation to others. Family. Friend. Student. Worker. Boyfriend. But I've come to realize that I don't really have any good concept ...

June 10, 2014


A lot of changes either recently happening or about to happen. This is just....a reminder to myself more than anything before heading to bed. I've been meaning to do this for a week or more, bu...

May 10, 2014


"You need to make a selfish move... of some sort." Someone told me that recently, and it's stuck with. In part, because I feel like I've always been very selfish with my time and energy. But a...

April 30, 2014

The Current State

So, where things stand right now.... I will have my second, and final, surgery for the sleep apnea at some point in June. I'm working out the date right now between my doctor's availability and...

April 05, 2014


Something that's held a prominent place in my head for a long time, and been particularly strong again lately, is the feeling that I don't really have anything that I can call "mine." There are t...

April 05, 2014


Last night, I submitted a payment to pay off my outstanding student loans in one lump sum. I did this because my parents had decided to give me the money out of my dad's life insurance policy on...

April 04, 2014

Thought leak

Just randomness from knowing I should write but not quite in the right mindset (pardon the pun). Some entries to write in the near future: "Mine" "Storytelling" Entries on some writing projec...

April 04, 2014


Just dropping a quick note to say that my surgery went well, and the recovery's going well, though perhaps slower than I'd like. But then I'm impatient like that. My throat around the incision ...

March 21, 2014

Late night reflections

I seem to really be living in my head a lot lately. Even moreso than usual....which is actually saying something. I find myself craving....solitude. Quiet. I know it's the energy drain with t...

March 19, 2014


Hmm... still trying to figure out this thing. I keyed in an entry... just a few lines here and there. But the formatting didn't cooperate. When I typed it into the entry space, it looked the wa...

March 16, 2014

A bit confused

I'm trying to get used to the layout here, and especially the entry mechanics, word processing aspects, etc. I'm specifically having issues with formatting.... it doesn't seem to work the way I'...

March 11, 2014

And the I's have it

Information: There is finally the unveiling of some pieces and possibilities. Health has been a concern for awhile now, and especially sleep health. I've been struggling with severe sleep probl...

Book Description

General thoughts, ideas, and ramblings from my first but hopefully not last chunk of time writing on here.