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May 03, 2019

Pride in Topics

Pride is something that is talked about a lot, and often in both positive and negative terms. Arrogance, cockiness, hubris, a sin.... But it’s also something to aim for. Pride in yourself, in y...

March 06, 2019

Can't think of a title in 2019

My brain’s all over the place…not in a bad way, but in an “I can’t seem to focus on one thing” kind of way. I had my first post-school continuing education workshop this weekend, and it was such ...

So....where to start. Things should be settling down for me in the near future. I’ve stretched myself very thin financially and energy-wise the past year plus, but it was necessary in order to...

December 13, 2018

Inconsistent in 2018

Depression is real....and it’s been an up and down struggle lately. Combined with the sleep issues and often rough schedule right now, it makes for a chronically exhausted balancing act of where ...

November 08, 2018

Jumbled in 2018

I have several things I want to write about…grand ambitions and all…but my mind’s too jumbled to focus well right now. I can’t really seem to hold onto one train of thought. So we shall see wha...

November 05, 2018

A Year of... in 2018

Changes A new address (still in Orlando). Back in school (for a year). A car accident (not my fault), and so a new (used) car. New position and schedule at work. Financial struggles (tied to a...

September 12, 2017

Storm has passed in 2017

Irma is gone, and all is well. I was without power for nearly 24 hours, but that was it. No structural damage (thanks for being in an apartment complex), no water issues. A lot of wind and deb...

September 11, 2017

The Eye of the Storm (not really) in 2017

For those who don’t know, I’m one of the ones hunkered down in the path of Irma. I currently live on the west edge of Orlando, not far from the tourist capital of the world, aka Land of the Mous...

March 20, 2017

Pre-bed Quickie in 2017

....which isn’t nearly as much fun as it sounds. Mood’s been all over the place today, though no real reason why. Bronchitis is clearing up, though there’s still a ways to go. One more dosage o...

March 15, 2017

Restart in 2017

This will be short, but then it’s mostly for me. An attempt to restart some writing of some form, something I’ve been wrestling with a lot lately. I’m recovering from a bout of sinus infection a...

October 30, 2015

Pensive in 2015

I find my mind in an odd place this evening, sitting here reading through entries (and listening to sirens up and down the road every few minutes - normal). Not in a bad mood at all. Just.... I...

October 23, 2015

Brain Cramp in 2015

So many things running through my head lately.... It’s hard for me to really make sense of it all.... Identity, and how we see ourselves. Is it based on choices, actions, perception? Mistakes? ...

October 06, 2015

Date and Memory in Topics

We often tie important memories to specific dates, and specifically to annual remembrance of those dates. Birthdays, anniversaries, new places, new jobs, important meetings, promotions, one-time...

September 29, 2015

Right Now in 2015

A few quick things I plan to revisit soon, now that things have settled down. The move is done, though I’m still unpacking stuff, particularly in the kitchen..... and there are a ridiculous num...

August 03, 2015

Headstrain in 2015

This work schedule is wearing me out. I like the work I do (it’s relatively simple and straightforward, and physically demanding), but it can be exhausting. And getting up at 1:30 am sucks, esp...

April 01, 2015

Short Update in 2015

There’s so much to write about, and I intend to soon. This is mostly a list of things as a reminder to myself before I head to bed. There are a lot of changes in the air, both here and with pe...

February 05, 2015

Things on my mind in 2015

So many things going on lately. The past week or so has been the craziest, most stressful emotional roller coaster of a week I’ve had since my dad died. My grandfather was put in the hospital a...

November 17, 2014

Mindset in 2014

My mind’s not in a great place right now. It’s a few days til the anniversary of my dad’s death, and there’s also a general....loneliness that I can’t shake. And now Anna’s got a new boyfriend....

September 16, 2014

Educational Focus in 2014

I’ve found myself reading a lot lately, particularly nonfiction. I go through phases where I’ll read a lot, then periods where I don’t much. But I definitely find myself happier and more.... st...

September 16, 2014

A Thought in 2014

Why is it that you can go to a place like Disney World (which might do this better than anywhere else), suspend your disbelief, and actually let go of a lot of negative things while you’re there?...

September 14, 2014

Limits in 2014

So I had to escape for a bit..... My grandmother died early Wednesday morning after two weeks in hospice care, and just a week after her 93rd birthday. It was a very long two weeks, and the whol...

August 27, 2014

Roller Coaster in 2014

So much to write about...... this will just be a short one to remind myself to go into more details later. It just feels like the body blows keep coming to the family. My grandmother was admitted...

July 03, 2014

Evil in 2014

How do you define good and evil, especially when it comes to choice? Can a choice that you know is the right choice for you be wrong for those around you? Does a choice undo or negate what co...

June 25, 2014

Crystal Ball in 2014

Sometimes, it'd be nice to have a crystal ball to show you how something's going to turn out. To show you the results of a choice you haven't made quite yet. Or something along those lines......

June 24, 2014

Troublesome in 2014

Back to work today, though I still feel pretty worn out. Normally I'd be off tomorrow and Thursday, but apparently my boss used Saturday and Sunday as my off days this week instead of using sick...

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