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November 08, 2015

Update.

It’s been a while since I have written. Over the half trm, I went to stay with my sister for most of the week, it felt good to be there, to clear my head. I had a few long talks with her about w...


October 09, 2015

Shaking

I told them, with my sister beside me and her arm around me. I’m so glad she’s here. I’m still shaking. I don’t know what happens next. I’ll write more when I feel more stable.


October 04, 2015

Having a heart

I’m back home. I went to spend this weekend with my sister at her university. It was so good to see her, when I got there she was waiting outside the railway station and I have her the biggest h...


September 29, 2015

Hugs.

I want to say a big big thankyou to those of you on here who have offered me an online shoulder to cry on, those who have left me some comforting words. I am going to see my sister this weekend ...


September 19, 2015

Can't sleep...

My mind is a buzz, my emotions are everywhere, I am so confused, I don’t know what’s right anymore. All I can hear is the sounds of the family house. In a way it’s good as I really want to be a...


September 16, 2015

Back from the quack.

On the positive side, it’s not anaemia. On the other side… I’ve been stupid. Unbelivably stupid. I don’t know what to do. I just want to curl up and cry. I want a friend. I need a magic wand...


September 14, 2015

Brief summary...

.... during a break in college. Tired. Been soaked in the rain. Fatigued. Bored. Lonely. Pissed off. Needing a hug. Wanting to feel better.


September 11, 2015

Still feeling odd.

Those feelings of lethargy and tiredness still haven’t gone away. In fact I think it’s worse, I couldn’t concentrate at judo last night and had to sit down. I really think there’s more to it tha...


September 08, 2015

Not right

I don’t know what’s up with me. I have felt a lot more tired these last few days, like a total lack of energy, like I just want to sleep more than usual. I wonder if it’s starting back at colleg...


September 04, 2015

A new year at college

Been a struggle getting up for college these last few days. Got used to the six weeks off and not having alarms going off. Feeling a bit tired with that and also with judo last night as well. I...


August 24, 2015

The rebellion continues!

I am going against my parents’ teachig, and have begun seeing someone in my judo class. He is a year younger than me and English, and we met up today and enjoyed a good makeout session! I just n...


Rebellion complete. My rebel act has been done.


August 13, 2015

Suhaila the Teenage Rebel.

I’ve decided, I am going to do something rebellious. AlthoughI am Indian by birth, I live in England. I’m more agnostic and western in my views and beliefs. I’m going to do something rebelliou...


August 10, 2015

What's happening.

I’m still enjoying my judo, always a good way to let off steam on a Thursday.... and I have started to develop a bit of a crush on one of the boys there… a fellow green belt… we spar often as we ...


August 03, 2015

Summer holidays

On summer break from college, back in just over a month. And yes I am a bit bored because mum and dad are working and we’re not going away, but at least I have my sister for company. I ant to go...


July 19, 2015

And.... breathe.

I have now finished college for the summer, another year of my A-levels to go. My arm is now better - I was able to go to judo on Thursday night, and instead of full sparring, helped some of the ...


July 11, 2015

Saturday night.

My arm is much better, I may even be allowed to go to judo this week, I hope. Really annoyed at parents. I’m not being allowed to go to the college party. What even? Lecturers will be there an...


July 08, 2015

Recovering!

It’s almost two weeks since I had my tumble at judo club. My arm still hurts and it looks like it may yet be a few more weeks before I can get back to taking part again. It also aches to hold u...


June 29, 2015

Tumble and crash

I didn’t pay attention. Last Thursday at judo, I was involved in a spar with a fellow club member and ended up getting into a bit of a tangle, and fell over at an awkward angle. Things didn’t se...


June 21, 2015

First impressions quiz!

So a little bit of fun, based on first impressions of me from my few entries, have a go everyone, answer below and I’ll tell you how well you all did! My favourite genre of books to read: My fav...


June 18, 2015

Judo time!

Tired, worn out, but feel good. Just got home from Judo class/club. Went well tonight, we did a lot of practicing of varying holds, and also apart from the thows and holds, learning how not to i...


June 15, 2015

Monday.... and ask away!

Wow. Monday. Getting up early after a weekend, dragging myself out of bed, then running to make the bus for college, trying not to fall asleep in a trigomometry calss in Maths… Homework is all ...


June 12, 2015

Time to write!

I feel energised tonight, so much so that I am not wanting to go to bed yet. Judo was good yesterday, got a good workout! I always seem to get a buzz after. I have just been skype-ing with my si...


June 10, 2015

Targets!

I have set myself a few targets. By the end of this year I want to be in a position to try for my grade 8 flute exam, as well as possibly go for my blue belt in judo. I think my parents want me ...


June 08, 2015

A week of me

I made this about a week ago so thought I would say what had happened over the week. I am nearing the end of my AS exams thank goodness, then I can ease up a little and relax ahead of the summer....


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Here I will make entries based on my daily life, my thoughts and feelings.