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I’m back home.

I went to spend this weekend with my sister at her university. It was so good to see her, when I got there she was waiting outside the railway station and I have her the biggest hug I think I ever gave anyone in my life.

We got back to her place, and then it all came out… I burst into tears and told her everything. She asked me who knew, I said her and the dad (and didn’t mention here).

I spent most of the evning in a bit of a daze, calm one minute, crying the next. She kept me company that night - we shared the bed, but just so she could cuddle and comfort me. I don’t know how many times I must have woken her up in the night.

We spent most of Saturday walking around her university town. It was nice being with her - and yes it does make me realise just how much she means to me being my older sister. Throughout the day it seemed like a weight was lifting from my mind.

She’s coming home for the weekend on Friday, and she is going to be with me when I tell my parents. I have made one other decision as well, and my sister knows as I told her this morning. I am going to have the baby. Adoption or bringing him/her up by myself. It’s a life. I’m not going to deny an innocent that chance.