Update. in It's a Suhaila!

It’s been a while since I have written.

Over the half trm, I went to stay with my sister for most of the week, it felt good to be there, to clear my head. I had a few long talks with her about where next and what to do, and she is being wonderful. I’ve had a long talk and have decided that my parents will be told that the father is white English… but not who, as I still suspect my parents might try and impose stuff on us. My sister has discussed with her uni housemates the situation, and if needs be I can stay there, they are going to talk to the landlord, but when I have the baby that may be more difficult.

I cracked at college this week. I felt really tearful on Wednesday and told a few friends there it was because I was missing my sister, especially hving just visited her. I went to see my personal tutor at lunchtime, and I couldn’t hold it no more, the tears just came flooding out. I’m glad she is my tutor, she just let me cry for as long as I wanted, then sent an email to my afternoon tutors saying that she was in a meeting with me regarding external matters and I needed pastoral care (but didn’t say what).

She agreed when I said I should say the dad is a white English, she wasn’t keen on the who being kept secret. Only 3 people know that.

More has happened as well, stuff I don’t want to make public. If you want to know and think you can offer me a few words of comfort I’ll be happy to message back.