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Him

by Sister

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7 days ago

You're Here Again

I was sleepy when I was on the couch. Watched 10 minutes of news, this being my allotted time for the next two weeks. The world’s a shit show you know? I get to my room, and now, guess who’s not...


June 28, 2020

I Can't...

You told me I keep you on your toes and no woman has ever done that. You stay on guard because whenever, wherever, you want to be ready for whatever I pull out of my bag. Lol Except when I look a...


June 26, 2020

I Don't Know

You keep me torn inside. I think about you. Our conversations, the goofy parts, the heart to hearts. The ones that bore me. The ones that make me roll my eyes because you go overboard thinking I’...


March 09, 2020

It's raining

It’s raining harder than it was earlier I had cornbread with milk in your honor You were on my mind


February 14, 2020

I Own It

I don’t know how we would have ended up. You said you never wanted to walk away. What if you never did? What would we be right now? Still what we were? You living away from me, me watching you da...


February 11, 2020

Letter #2

For the past few weeks, I’ve been a wreck in my feelings. Partly due to monthly hormonal problems, partly because I haven’t been drinking. Partly because I got set off because I did a dumb thing ...


January 24, 2020

Those Quiet Moments

There are times when I cease all things. I want to quiet my mind only to have them filled with thoughts of you… I close my eyes and look into the blackness, into the nothing that is there and you...


January 18, 2020

It's Only Getting Worse

This is escalation and it shouldn’t be happening. Perhaps we need to do this, get this out of our system and move on. Or maybe this will open up a floodgate. I’ve been craving kissing Him. To be ...


January 03, 2020

2 out of 3

1) RJ and I went to get drinks and snacks after work. We caught up and talked and got to the meat of the matter later on in our favorite setting: somewhere where live music is playing. At any rat...


December 24, 2019

Fell In Again

Not totally, but it’s there. He seems good. He seems happy in his life, so why are YOU here? But he keeps in touch. I stay away from his socials because I don’t want to really know. Give me the s...


October 22, 2019

You and Me

This dance we stay away from. Opening books, peeking at phrases from who we were. We smile. We talk on the subject of you and me. I back out of it clumsily, but you keep advancing. Step to only ...


…it should just stay reminiscing… You are greedy and selfish and I see that now. Here I told you I missed you too, but the more you talk the more I realize that you only miss being in my bed. We...


May 25, 2018

I Thought So

You came out and told me you “MISS” me. Maybe that means you miss touching me. I shrouded stuff in jokes, but I fucked up and said it back. I shouldn’t have said anything at all because I don’t r...


UGH…I don’t understand it. We said goodbye. We’ve had time apart. WHY am I sweating this? Why sweat this? Is the meaning that I’m still in love with him? He’s more inappropriate than I am, so doe...


May 20, 2018

Truth Be Told

Truth be told, I’ve been thinking of you. I’ve been missing you. However I’ve been trying to figure out in what way do I miss you? Is it your friendship? Is it your wit, our good times? Or do I j...


March 05, 2018

So Many Losses

So not too long after burying his mother… His grandfather (who lives here) passed away. The family is still feeling the loss of his mother and now this. I guess it’s been a few weeks ago. On top ...


January 05, 2018

I'm So Sorry

Him lost his mother over the Christmas holiday. I sent him an email asking about gadget stuff. I remember a message he sent to me on Instagram and he said he’d talk to me. I know his mom meant a...


December 28, 2017

Emails

Playing around in my work email, I came across our beginning. I lay with you our first night and it took 10 years for it to dissolve. Replaying the coy me and you and our cat and mouse games. We ...


October 16, 2017

You Amuse Me

I posted a picture of myself. I get a message in my box that, more or less, states your desire for me to email it to you. Ever since we reconnected, the only thing I’ve done is tag you in stuff t...


August 25, 2017

This Made Me Think

I was listening to “The Furthest Thing” by Drake (which is rare for me) and this verse caught my eye: And I hate that you don’t think I belong to ya Just too busy runnin’ shit to run home to ya Y...


October 20, 2016

This City Ain't The Same

I was just thinking about music and it’s influence. I was thinking about the day you picked me up and I Remember came on. I had spent the day crying about you I think. I forgot what I saw, what h...


July 01, 2016

I Swear

The universe plays way too much. So the entry I wrote about Him the other day the over you yadda yadda? Yeah. I’m waaaaaaaaaaaaay over that shit. He called me at work yesterday to acknowledge tha...


June 29, 2016

I Dreamed You

Hi. Just wanted you to know I dreamed about you again. This time, I wasn’t into you. You tried to seduce me and I simply wasn’t feeling it. I was proud of myself. Will I have this much resolve if...


April 12, 2016

It's Not Fair

It’s not fair that you keep mentioning that I blocked you on social media. You keep saying it and it makes me wonder if you remember the reason why. I mean, you said you understood, but if you ke...


March 22, 2016

I Know This Will Pass

The missing you. I think right now, I’m just hormonal. I was in a place full of couples, but only had my friends with me. I caught someone’s eye, but he was with someone. Made me feel mysterious....


Book Description

I love him.
Him loves me.
Him has someone else.
I was first.