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I felt like owning that I am selfish and I called in sick to work. I did not sleep well and I woke up with the I don’t wannas and I was all out of suck it ups so I took fuckitol and I called Beck...

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I think that I have my sleep schedule in a good place. My shifts appear to be strictly 8-5 so that helps. I’m asleep shortly after nine and I’m up 1.5 hours before my alarm… which is set for 6. Y...

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I was a little gagged this morning when I got to work and learned that Tracy and Stephanie had to abruptly catch flights home to the U.S last night. My country is closing our borders pretty tight...

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I was aiming to get a haircut today but I decided against it. I finally got to deposit my first paycheck in 11 months and I was praying to Ganesha for my bank to be open. I was starting to feel d...

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So my mother has to work from home now. My niece’s daycare is closed. The grocery stores have various items and sections closed off and have employees acting as bouncers and handing those items o...

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Something about the way this guy, Mario, describes his sexuality and the way he always thought that he wasn’t too affected by his rape experience spoke to me. He’s straight and that’s not really ...

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Toni once again is stressing me out about our plans to move in together. She keeps hitting me with her options. To be fair our plans did fall through when I lost my job but since then she keeps t...

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It’s weird to say that I have the day off. I just had eleven months off. I think that I’m going to get a haircut. I have only been making purchases of things that I need. Strictly! Come payday I ...

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You know that feeling you get when a sad song comes on and speaks to your soul? That’s how I feel after my lunch breaks. No song triggers me but instead, I am triggered by thoughts of my previous...

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I woke up feeling a little guilty because I don’t think I like this new job so far. I’m trying to! It’s not the people I work with or anything. I’m not sure I even know why. It’s pretty early in ...

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I struggled to fall asleep a bit last night. I’ll be honest that I’m used to playing Skyrim until my eyes bleed. I haven’t given my meds much of a chance to do their duty. Whenever I try my monke...

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Tomorrow I start a new job for the first time in fourteen years. I’m trying not to overthink it or try and predict how it is going to go. I just want to get the first day over with. Somebody orde...

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After my entry yesterday I remembered how I can’t do things my way because they have not been working so I went ahead and got my prescription. My dizzy spells went away almost immediately. I let ...

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I’m trying not to commit to my depression today. I saw it coming a mile away. I had a glass of wine last night because I’m a questionably strong codependent biracial woman who can’t get no man. I...

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I’m getting tired of not waking up on a tropical island with a cabana boy next to me. Can anyone else relate? For a week now I’ve been struck with crazy dizzy spells. The best way to describe it...

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Bev asked for a pretty big favour from me. She has a job opportunity that will pay well and that has great hours and benefits and that would allow her to provide better for her family. She doesn’...

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I don’t feel nervous about the interview today. Not yet anyway. That will likely change the moment I pull up to the building. Worry and excited are the same physical experience so all I have to d...

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I have a job interview on Friday at an art supply store. I’m pretty confident about it. I’m 99.99% sure that I will land it with my interview skills. Unless that is something that is done online ...

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I feel sad today. I don’t have any context for it. I feel like I should overthink it so I can innerstand but I really don’t want to. We celebrated my mother’s 52nd birthday this weekend. Miranda...

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I was paying attention to my thoughts this morning before I got out of bed. They were pretty healthy I must say. Did I level up and become a person with healthy positive thoughts and healthy posi...

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Last weekend my mother invited me over for a visit and the script I gave her was that she wanted to talk about herself. I was wrong it was an intervention. My life sucks and my situation is sad a...

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You can’t think your way into acting differently but you can act your way into thinking differently. I was appropriately called out the other day. I took no offence because I need insight and gui...

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I laid in bed until around 12:30 today. I am tired of waking up tired. I know that this is the meds. While I was laying there I was thinking about all of the things I am not doing because of my a...

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I went to Bev’s yesterday to watch the Fifth Element. She’s never seen it and it’s not that the movie is good or anything but like, come on mam! I was a Stan of Tricky and he’s in it so I loved t...

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Well done you. You became an addict. You found a way out and a way to deal with your feelings. Russel Brand does feel that we need to applaud ourselves for trying to find ways to cope. We are all...

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