Mood Poisoning in Current Events

I was aiming to get a haircut today but I decided against it. I finally got to deposit my first paycheck in 11 months and I was praying to Ganesha for my bank to be open. I was starting to feel depressed this morning but I didn’t commit to it. I’m still kind of sad for no reason but I’m not letting it stop me from doing what I want to do today. My trigger was Karamjeet and what my last company did etc, the usual. Oh well! I was finally able to spoil myself like crazy and buy new socks and things like that. I almost bought a pair of boots but it was made from real leather, pfft! Also I can’t find chapstick that does not contain beeswax! Ugh! Oh! At least raw cashews were on sale! Man, the energy right now out there is dense thanks to this pandemic. I don’t want to judge people who are wearing masks and things like that because there are people who are actually vulnerable to this virus and need to protect themselves. My province, Manitoba, just had our first confirmed death from COVID 19. A 77 year old man who tested positive after his death. The grocery store I went to had everything I shop for in stock. Vegan this and vegan that. Stress and worry weaken the immune system so I am not letting myself commit to that. There is the circle of things you can control, the circle of things you can influence and the circle of things of concern (things you can’t control). I can’t control what is happening out there, I can only control myself. That is my mantra through all of this. I am trying to not think about my store potentially not even opening due to this bullshit crisis. Ok I sound angry and I am but it won’t get me anywhere. Reminds me of the grown man I saw throw a tantrum at the store today for not having something. What was the tantrum suppose to accomplish exactly?

Ugh, this is also the season that bothers my allergies. The snow mould and the dryness of it all just wreck me. I’m worried that I will panic and think a random sniffle equals COVID 19. Blah, I pushed through it today though. I meal prepped, did my preemptive spring cleaning and worked out my legs at home all at the same time. I’m currently soaking in moisturizer. This weather dries me up like a prune. I’m about to start my taxes. It’s going to be depressing lol. Yeah, there is nothing really to report here. Just feeling moody and want to air out my not even congested head. Why do I even have a headache? Probably from all of the dust I cleaned up today. I vacuumed all of the furniture and wiped down all of the fixtures etc. I went to town. Anyways, I’m about to make a pizza! Roasted garlic sauce with BBQ jackfruit and crispy kale… my entries are pretty boring but this one is actually extra boring lol

Last updated March 17, 2020