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April 06, 2018

Yup in Done drinking.

Definitely going to be heading to florida this coming winter for 5 months. So sick and tired of the cold and snow.


March 27, 2018

OD information in Done drinking.

Im PridesAFiorDiLAbbra on OD. And can be reached at https://www.facebook.com/794062785


March 27, 2018

OD information in Done drinking.

Im PridesAFiorDiLAbbra on OD. And can be reached at https://www.facebook.com/794062785


March 27, 2018

Yup in Done drinking.

Had a feeling this was coming to an end after OD returned. I have loved reading all my friends adventures on here. OD was always my home so people can find me at PridesAFiorDiLAbbra or FB http...


February 20, 2018

Where to find me in Done drinking.

I am posting back on OD had a lifetime membership and was able to recover my whole diary. If people’s want to read I’m under Pridesafiordilabbra. I am still reading all my favorites on here.


January 28, 2018

OD is home to me. in Done drinking.

I’ve already written 2 entries on my old diary. I am lucky I had a lifetime membership. I never felt at home here like I did there. There are a lot of diarys here that I enjoy reading and keep...


December 13, 2017

AA in Done drinking.

How does one do AA when they are terrified of groups? I need help I know it. I have looked into meetings but with the anxiety and panic of being around more than 2-3 people let alone driving thes...


December 08, 2017

Almost 4am in Done drinking.

Depression is setting in. I haven’t taken my meds since April. I’m wishing I was back in Florida for the 3rd winter. I hate the fucking cold and snow. Already having panic attacks about going to...


October 18, 2017

Hoping in Done drinking.

I am hoping OD comes back. I know it won’t be the same. But I have never felt like this was home like I did on OD. I don’t share like I did. I don’t have the friends I was so close to. I know if...


September 29, 2017

I miss you in Done drinking.

I miss you grabing my knee to make me laugh calling it an octopus kiss. I wish you got had gotten to meet my first horse skippy who has been in heaven with you for 7 years. I wish you could hav...


September 28, 2017

Drunk in Done drinking.

Can’t walk straight. Unfortunately won’t be able to visit the cemetery tomorrow.


September 28, 2017

Cemetery in Done drinking.

Don’t know if I can bring myself to go to the cemetery Friday. It will be 17 years since pepere died been drinking way to much to the point of not being sober for days at a time. I just keep go...


September 19, 2017

I cut in Pridesafiordilabbra

Took apart a lady razor and cut my ankle. Good thing it’s long pants and socks weather now.


September 19, 2017

9-19-2000 in Pridesafiordilabbra

This day changed my life. I tried to kill myself 2 days earlier. But on this day I met someone who totally understand me. He was amazing. At the time knew me better than I knew myself. He had bee...


July 21, 2017

Wrist in Done drinking.

My wrist is looking like shit. Blisters are starting to burst. Been wrapping it in an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. Unfortunately I want to do the same thing to my ankle.


July 21, 2017

Wrist in Done drinking.

My wrist is looking like shit. Blisters are starting to burst. Been wrapping it in an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. Unfortunately I want to do the same thing to my ankle.


July 19, 2017

Fuck in Done drinking.

My wrist is more messed up than I thought it would be. Blisters forming and oozing. Skin is so discolored. Using an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. The spot is about an inch and a half b...


Aresol can. To freeze the skin. You get the same result as salt and ice but much faster. Just fucked up the top of my wrist. Was not looking to SI but damn it felt good now the burn is setting ...


June 13, 2017

:( in Pridesafiordilabbra

I cut. The top of my wrist. Don’t want to kill myself at the moment. Knowing he will be close might change things in the next few weeks. I know my nephew is so excited to have his dad just mile...


Wednesday night that is. My father is flying out tonight to go get him. I hate it. All the ptsd knowing he will be less than 10 miles away. He should stay where he is many states away. I didn’t ...


He’s coming back to Maine in about a week. My dad is flying out renting a car getting the asshole and flying back to Maine with him. Thank God he’s not staying here mom won’t let that happen. U...


My oldest brother is coming back to Maine. There is a lot of shit that my mother knows about the destruction of my clothes shiting and pissing on them and hiding it around the basement. Stealing ...


April 09, 2017

Trigger in Done drinking.

I have been home 9 days now and have cut 3 of those days. Friday nights cutting was pretty bad. My leg looks like shit. Thankfully it’s cold and rainy here so easy to cover up. I want to cut ag...


April 06, 2017

9 days in Done drinking.

That’s how long I was sober. Unfortunately been drunk since Monday afternoon. Tonight ended up cutting the shit out of my ankle.


Haven’t had a drink in 2 days. Woke up with my hands and head shaking. I really need to be able to clean this cabin I only have 4 more days here.


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