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Done drinking.

by The real me

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January 14, 2020

Sober would be nice

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December 26, 2019

Staying at our camp

So I temporarily moved into our. Family camp/ cabin. Fullly functional for year round use. Only 5 miles from the house and horses. I. Can still go every 5 days and refill water tanks and put Hay ...


December 11, 2019

Shit

So I have been struggling lately as of Monday last week my oldest brother was in congestive heart failure I personally was hoping he would fucking die he ruined my childhood and I still hate him ...


November 14, 2019

Bad

I know things are getting bad when I order exactlyI know things are getting bad when I order X-Acto knife’s online. I don’t want to kill myself just cut


October 25, 2019

Ugh

Having a bad night. Trying to get shit done around the barn before winter hits. Was planning on spreading manure on the pasture tomorrow that’s not going to happen. Apparently the riding lawnmowe...


January 02, 2019

Not fun

Having issues with trying to get sober. After the first day I start hear noises in my room sounds like mice chewing stuff around me. I turn on this YouTube video of so called sonic noises and run...


December 26, 2018

Ugh

I want to cut so badly at the moment.


August 23, 2018

New puppy

We have a new puppy in the house. Her name is cookie she is a chocolate lab. Just turned 8 weeks old she’s my nephew tramaynes new dog. My dog a soon to be 4 year old great dane has done well wit...


August 03, 2018

Drunk

My FB might look good but for the most part I am fucked up. 2 day and and I finished off a bottle of bicardi 151 proof rum. Along with some 100 proof vodka. Really haven’t slept since Tuesday mo...


July 11, 2018

Puppy and flowers

Thursday my family will be going to visit our new puppy she is only 3 week’s old a chocolate lab. It’s going to be my nephews dog. He will be responsible for pretty much everything. My parents an...


April 06, 2018

Yup

Definitely going to be heading to florida this coming winter for 5 months. So sick and tired of the cold and snow.


March 27, 2018

OD information

Im PridesAFiorDiLAbbra on OD. And can be reached at https://www.facebook.com/794062785


March 27, 2018

OD information

Im PridesAFiorDiLAbbra on OD. And can be reached at https://www.facebook.com/794062785


March 27, 2018

Yup

Had a feeling this was coming to an end after OD returned. I have loved reading all my friends adventures on here. OD was always my home so people can find me at PridesAFiorDiLAbbra or FB http...


February 19, 2018

Where to find me

I am posting back on OD had a lifetime membership and was able to recover my whole diary. If people’s want to read I’m under Pridesafiordilabbra. I am still reading all my favorites on here.


January 28, 2018

OD is home to me.

I’ve already written 2 entries on my old diary. I am lucky I had a lifetime membership. I never felt at home here like I did there. There are a lot of diarys here that I enjoy reading and keep...


December 13, 2017

AA

How does one do AA when they are terrified of groups? I need help I know it. I have looked into meetings but with the anxiety and panic of being around more than 2-3 people let alone driving thes...


December 08, 2017

Almost 4am

Depression is setting in. I haven’t taken my meds since April. I’m wishing I was back in Florida for the 3rd winter. I hate the fucking cold and snow. Already having panic attacks about going to...


October 18, 2017

Hoping

I am hoping OD comes back. I know it won’t be the same. But I have never felt like this was home like I did on OD. I don’t share like I did. I don’t have the friends I was so close to. I know if...


September 29, 2017

I miss you

I miss you grabing my knee to make me laugh calling it an octopus kiss. I wish you got had gotten to meet my first horse skippy who has been in heaven with you for 7 years. I wish you could hav...


September 28, 2017

Drunk

Can’t walk straight. Unfortunately won’t be able to visit the cemetery tomorrow.


September 28, 2017

Cemetery

Don’t know if I can bring myself to go to the cemetery Friday. It will be 17 years since pepere died been drinking way to much to the point of not being sober for days at a time. I just keep go...


July 21, 2017

Wrist

My wrist is looking like shit. Blisters are starting to burst. Been wrapping it in an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. Unfortunately I want to do the same thing to my ankle.


July 21, 2017

Wrist

My wrist is looking like shit. Blisters are starting to burst. Been wrapping it in an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. Unfortunately I want to do the same thing to my ankle.


July 19, 2017

Fuck

My wrist is more messed up than I thought it would be. Blisters forming and oozing. Skin is so discolored. Using an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. The spot is about an inch and a half b...


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Trying to stay sober.