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Puppy and flowers in Done drinking.
Thursday my family will be going to visit our new puppy she is only 3 week’s old a chocolate lab. It’s going to be my nephews dog. He will be responsible for pretty much everything. My parents an...
Yup in Done drinking.
Definitely going to be heading to florida this coming winter for 5 months. So sick and tired of the cold and snow.
OD information in Done drinking.
Im PridesAFiorDiLAbbra on OD. And can be reached at https://www.facebook.com/794062785
OD information in Done drinking.
Im PridesAFiorDiLAbbra on OD. And can be reached at https://www.facebook.com/794062785
Yup in Done drinking.
Had a feeling this was coming to an end after OD returned. I have loved reading all my friends adventures on here. OD was always my home so people can find me at PridesAFiorDiLAbbra or FB http...
Where to find me in Done drinking.
I am posting back on OD had a lifetime membership and was able to recover my whole diary. If people’s want to read I’m under Pridesafiordilabbra. I am still reading all my favorites on here.
OD is home to me. in Done drinking.
I’ve already written 2 entries on my old diary. I am lucky I had a lifetime membership. I never felt at home here like I did there. There are a lot of diarys here that I enjoy reading and keep...
AA in Done drinking.
How does one do AA when they are terrified of groups? I need help I know it. I have looked into meetings but with the anxiety and panic of being around more than 2-3 people let alone driving thes...
Almost 4am in Done drinking.
Depression is setting in. I haven’t taken my meds since April. I’m wishing I was back in Florida for the 3rd winter. I hate the fucking cold and snow. Already having panic attacks about going to...
Hoping in Done drinking.
I am hoping OD comes back. I know it won’t be the same. But I have never felt like this was home like I did on OD. I don’t share like I did. I don’t have the friends I was so close to. I know if...
I miss you in Done drinking.
I miss you grabing my knee to make me laugh calling it an octopus kiss. I wish you got had gotten to meet my first horse skippy who has been in heaven with you for 7 years. I wish you could hav...
Drunk in Done drinking.
Can’t walk straight. Unfortunately won’t be able to visit the cemetery tomorrow.
Cemetery in Done drinking.
Don’t know if I can bring myself to go to the cemetery Friday. It will be 17 years since pepere died been drinking way to much to the point of not being sober for days at a time. I just keep go...
I cut in Pridesafiordilabbra
Took apart a lady razor and cut my ankle. Good thing it’s long pants and socks weather now.
9-19-2000 in Pridesafiordilabbra
This day changed my life. I tried to kill myself 2 days earlier. But on this day I met someone who totally understand me. He was amazing. At the time knew me better than I knew myself. He had bee...
Wrist in Done drinking.
My wrist is looking like shit. Blisters are starting to burst. Been wrapping it in an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. Unfortunately I want to do the same thing to my ankle.
Wrist in Done drinking.
My wrist is looking like shit. Blisters are starting to burst. Been wrapping it in an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. Unfortunately I want to do the same thing to my ankle.
Fuck in Done drinking.
My wrist is more messed up than I thought it would be. Blisters forming and oozing. Skin is so discolored. Using an ace bandage saying I sprained my wrist. The spot is about an inch and a half b...
New way to self injury in Done drinking.
Aresol can. To freeze the skin. You get the same result as salt and ice but much faster. Just fucked up the top of my wrist. Was not looking to SI but damn it felt good now the burn is setting ...
:( in Pridesafiordilabbra
I cut. The top of my wrist. Don’t want to kill myself at the moment. Knowing he will be close might change things in the next few weeks. I know my nephew is so excited to have his dad just mile...
He will be back in town Wednesday in Pridesafiordilabbra
Wednesday night that is. My father is flying out tonight to go get him. I hate it. All the ptsd knowing he will be less than 10 miles away. He should stay where he is many states away. I didn’t ...
So it's official in Pridesafiordilabbra
He’s coming back to Maine in about a week. My dad is flying out renting a car getting the asshole and flying back to Maine with him. Thank God he’s not staying here mom won’t let that happen. U...
Fuck he's coming back to Maine in Done drinking.
My oldest brother is coming back to Maine. There is a lot of shit that my mother knows about the destruction of my clothes shiting and pissing on them and hiding it around the basement. Stealing ...
Trigger in Done drinking.
I have been home 9 days now and have cut 3 of those days. Friday nights cutting was pretty bad. My leg looks like shit. Thankfully it’s cold and rainy here so easy to cover up. I want to cut ag...
9 days in Done drinking.
That’s how long I was sober. Unfortunately been drunk since Monday afternoon. Tonight ended up cutting the shit out of my ankle.
