Nemoquenihil
I'm over existing in limbo. I'm over the myths and placebos. I don't really mind if I just fade away. I'm ready to live with my family. I'm ready to die in obscurity.
You are what you do, when it counts.
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Say Something. in 0. More of the Same.
People come and go, but eventually… everyone leaves. In some way or another. I noticed that I’m really only writing for one person. And it’s not me. I’m not interesting or committed enough ...
I'm a Ghost in 0. More of the Same.
That’s really about it. There was a year or two of me in miserable pain but I don’t really feel like discussing it anymore. My pain has … i don’t know if it’s lessened, or more than likely ...
Light up another god damn smoke in 0. More of the Same.
The American healthcare system is a fucking joke. As an American who never ever needed it before becoming injured, but still had to pay insurance all the time it’s… beyond frustrating. First...
Salvation is found alone in 0. More of the Same.
Interestingly enough This video won’t play from here, can’t embed it either, you’ll have to go to you tube to watch it. So here’s a Spotify link as well. I believe the music fits the tone....
We were never made to last. in 0. More of the Same.
Therapy started on a Friday. I was already exhausted from everything else but I had to get in and start this or I’d lose my short term disability. The PT guy explained that most likely i jus...
Do you feel it? in 0. More of the Same.
3 years ago today we laid my brother to rest. It always sneaks up on me and just leaves me feeling… Anger? Grief? Rage? Sad? Whatever. Here’s some music that helps me when I’m upset and ca...
How could I say goodbye. in 0. More of the Same.
During the phone call from the ICU they informed me that although I’m the emergency contact, I am not the next of kin. That would fall to his daughters, but they are both under the age of 18. ...
Save your Breath. in 0. More of the Same.
6 years. It just seems so much longer than that. I can’t even remember all of it. So let’s try for the ‘high’ points, maybe later I’ll go back and explain more, but at this point. If you weren...
Now. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
This site is mess. Specifically my books and what not. I’ll need to sit and sort through this if I decide to come back. It’s not quite the same as it used to be. Also. It’s been 6 years sin...
And in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
now something. Has kept me here too long and now…
To a close. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
It’s not that I don’t care anymore. I do care. SO very much that I’m leaving her alone. There was a time when we couldn’t go a minute without talking/texting wanting to know what the other pers...
Running away. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
Searching for a sense of purpose. Trying to find where I belong. 2 days. That’s how long i managed to stay sober before things blew up and went to shit. 10/11 weeks ago my work cut me down to ...
What is in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
Loneliness? I’m alone in this house with 3 other people. No one cares how I am. Just as long as i’m there to fix everyone’s problems. I’m so tired of being the one to take care of everyone el...
Everyone i know.. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
goes away in the end. But not like this. over the years of ups and downs. She’s always been…okay who am I kidding. She never reached out to me. She went on her life and forgot me. She was ov...
Your choice.. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
Sitting in traffic.. another day of feeling nothing. Everything’s beautiful… as long as i’m not there.
I'm indifferent to the loss.. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
It snowed last night. I’m sure someone is saying well if there’s global warming then why is there snow! You won’t hear them say it again though, because I would have strangled them and buried the...
There is no title in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
Ah Friday. Is it time to start drinking yet? No. It bothers me that our whole society is built upon the mon-friday work week thing. We even instill it into our kids. Yup you have to go to s...
And just like that. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
So that person deleted their comments and my response to their comments. HA. Looks like i can still piss off stupid people over the internet without even trying.
Today we'll learn about stupid people. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
For now i’ll keep this persons name hidden. It’ll take, at least, a couple thousand years before humans will be that destructive. To be honest, by that time, we would have better technology and...
Winds of change in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
What is wrong with people? Myself included of course. We quite literally are on a path towards self destruction. Extinction level event even. People just keep ignoring it. Drive their cars to ...
I'll burn my eyes out. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
I’m not sure why my will to live is so strong. I was almost in 2 accidents in the last 24 hours. Once on the way home, someone tried to move into my lane (during rush hour traffic) without looki...
Without the pain, without the suffering.... in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
I remember meeting a coke dealer. Older black guy, with a white coke whore g/f. She took a liking to me, I was oblivious. I just wanted my coke. He pulled me aside to talk to me. Gave me an ...
Just a fading fucking reminder in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
Jerking awake suddenly. Not a cold sweat just… sweat. I’m covered in it my hair is damp. She’s asleep next to me. Beauty hasn’t faded, but for every beautiful girl out there, is a person who’s...
Too busy dying to stop and live. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.
Is daylight savings coming? I honestly can’t remember. It’s just getting darker and i’m leaving at the same time every day. Maybe the world is ending? That’s a pleasant thought. As we destro...
She had a pretty face. Sitting in traffic looking at the amazing clouds. Someone I once knew said that anytime the clouds are like that you can tell someone is tripping somewhere. A nice though...
