To a close. in 1. Sometimes giving up is the only way.

It’s not that I don’t care anymore. I do care. SO very much that I’m leaving her alone. There was a time when we couldn’t go a minute without talking/texting wanting to know what the other person was doing. It faded, and it’s all my fault. She’s moved on and I’m hoping she’s happy.

I can’t just barge in and ruin that. I can’t be that fucking selfish. So i’ll continue to rant and feel sorry for myself. Because what else is there.

Nothing has changed in my life. I’m back where I was before, wanting out wanting to run unable to do that.

It doesn’t matter. I’ll put her to rest and for that I need a song?

There are 2 songs that remind me of her. Here’s one.

A new year. A new me? No. I’m old, stuck in my ways. But maybe I can change some things.

Something has kept me here to long.

You can’t leave me if I’m already gone.