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If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.
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10/3/05: A poem in Victim of Society
I am just a girl with a broken past and a blank future. Trying to find the right words To express myself. Remember your past? No! It hurts too much Changed your life? Maybe A little. Scared for ...
10/01/05 in Victim of Society
So yesterday I saw Prozac Nation finally and it totally reminded me of like me and craig and me and matt and I was just in this super depressed mood so finally it was time to go to Kyles and i wa...
9/27/05 in Victim of Society
Nothing much has happened these past few days. Something exciting needs to happen Im getting boreeeed! School has been lame but you know that guy I sorta maybe like who I sit by in Economics? He ...
9/21/05 in Victim of Society
Lately the sky has been weird. Thunderstorms and lightening fill the sky. Raindrops are enormous and pour down unto the earth. High temperatures and rain are not the normal weather for Southern C...
9/19/05 in Victim of Society
These past couple of weekends have been seriously so much fun. It's weird during summer like no one threw parties but now all of a sudden there are a bunch. Anyways on Friday I went to 3 parties...
9/14/05: Mr. Chertkow in Victim of Society
I LOVE ART!! oh man my art teacher is sooo awesome. i am so lucky i got such a great teacher in a subject i really enjoy. Mr. Chertkow (pronounced cher cow) is just amazing. hes so weird its intr...
9/13/05 in Victim of Society
Today at school I was suppppppper tired in 5th period and like always I had no clue what was going on. I hate that class so much! It's English and my teacher teaches like a foreign dude. Seriousl...
8/27/05: Party at Kyle's in Victim of Society
Well last night I went to Kyle's party with Andrea and as soon as we pulled up I saw Matt H's truck . We walked in and I saw a bunch of ppl like Miki and Steve playing cards in the kitchen and I ...
8/26/05 in Victim of Society
Well lately my mood has been up and down. Last night I went to this shitty scene party--it was so lame. So I decided to call up Andrea and see if she wanted to come because Margot said she was le...
8/24/05: Matt and Dan in Victim of Society
Well a couple nights ago I was super mad at Andrea -again-...she said she'd go with me to Dan's house but ditched me But I got over it the next day because I ended up having a super fun night an...
8/21/05 in Victim of Society
Well the other night I snuck out and hung out with Dan, Matt and Aaron. It was pretty fun. Matt was singing this song about me and playing guitar and he was like "Natalieeeeee what are u doingggg...
8/15/05 in Victim of Society
Well a few nights ago I went to this party that Dan invited me to and it was a ton of fun. Margot ditched me for her boyfriend -ugh-...but I actually got ahold of Andrea so she came with me. Whe...
8/1/05 in Victim of Society
Well I have been thinking alot lately about CPK. Especially when I am at my new pizza job since that place sucks so much more then CPK. And since we never have anything to do, I have plenty of th...
7/28/05: The overdose in Victim of Society
Well last Monday night, although I'm not sure if it was really Monday because part of me believes it was Thursday for some reason, but any ways..one of those days I went to Andrea's grandparents ...
7/17/05 in Victim of Society
Ugh...Craig not talking to me is seriously effecting me. Like I thought oh well who cares I got what I wanted. But now I'm sad that he doesn't even care about me at all and can just ignore me for...
7/14/05 in Victim of Society
Well today I had my psychiatrist appointment. I talked to the doctor and she told me that I'm bi-polar. I was kinda scared at first but then it all started to make sense as she explained it. Bi-p...
7/10/05 in Victim of Society
Well yesterday was so boring. I went to work and found out it was my last day because stupid Christiane didn't put me on next week's schedule even though my two weeks weren't even up yet...but wh...
7/9/05: Sex in Victim of Society
Finally. Last night. It happened. So me and andrea decide to hang out with Jose and before she comes and picks me up I notice Craig is online so I think "hey why not ..ill just ask if he wants t...
7/8/05 in Victim of Society
Well yesterday at work Matt is all being super nice to me and I was like wtf usually he just says whats up and is on his way. So then he goes "yeah my wife is outta town this weekend we should ha...
7/4/05 in Victim of Society
Seriously. I don't even know why I plan things anymore. All plans turn to shit. It's because you plan fun things out, and you know..expect to have FUN. And you have all these expectations and the...
7/3/05 Fourth of July Plans in Victim of Society
Ok well mine and dreas original plan was to go to Roynon and take it and then walk around and watch the fireworks but my mom was saying to me today "natalie be careful tomorrow there is going to ...
7/3/05 in Victim of Society
Well...Craigs still being a lil emo baby fuck. I hate him no not really Im just frustrated. Oh well....hmmm that interview at Vector was about some business selling knives. It seemed really cool ...
6/28/05 in Victim of Society
Well the other day at work I saw Matt and I was like can i have a hug? and he was like sure and we hugged and just talked like the whole time at work because me and him have sorta been not talkin...
6/26/05 in Victim of Society
So Wednesday night I got super wasted at some guy Danny's house with Craig and all his friends and andrea. And if you know me, when I get drunk I get emotional..especially around Craig cuz just a...
6/22/05 in Victim of Society
These last couple of nights have been pretty fun. Monday night me and Andrea went to some guy's house named Sergio with Jose and we all got drunk. Me and drea went for a walk and I had to go pop ...
