More Survey Thingies (A.K.A I want to post an entry but don't really have anything to say) in In My World

I have some down time and I don’t want to get into the rant from the past few days so I’m just going to do a few more dumb survey thingies. Does anyone actually read these? Probably not.

1. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
   -He was cute and charming. He got me through the end of a really bad relationship.
2. what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
   -Jesus fuck…Um. My uterus, my back between my shoulder blades hurts, and i have a dull headache. My back is probably the worst, it’s related to anxiety tension.
3. what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
   -Before going to bed? I was thinking about Squirt’s warm heavy head on the back of my leg. I laid with the big dogs a while before going to bed. Before going to sleep was probably about my alarms.
4. what are you listening to?
   -Toddler toys
5. what’s something you’re not looking forward to?
   -Honestly? Going home tonight. I have so much to do and I am incredibly stressed out.
6. where do you think your best friend(s) is right now?
   -One is home, I’m assuming one is at the other house working on stuff, one is meeting a previous roommate at the bank and the last is home asleep for work tonight.
7. have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
   -Boyfriend, possibly Lizzie too?
8. sex on the first date?
   -Depends on the date and the person. Me personally? Probably not. But I won’t judge you if you do.
9. kiss on the first date?
   -If I really like and am attracted to the person
10. is there one person you want to be with right now?
    -There are two and neither can come home for a while.
11. are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
    -I am, though most of the time I’m stressed to all hell and my depression is pretty bad right now…but I like where my life is now.
12. is there something you would like to say to someone?
    -I need you.
13. what are three things you did today?
    -Watched Helen
    -Drank an energy drink
    -Video chatted/facebook conversation with my sister
14. would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
    -Depends on the friend
15. what is your favorite kind of gum?
    -Winterfresh. Reminds me of my grandfather
16. are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
    -One is dead, one calls me their best friend still, other than them not really.
17. what is on your wrists right now?
    -Tattoos
18. ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
    -Absolutely. Still do tbh.
19. does anyone have strong feelings for you?
    -My boyfriend. At least two of my roommates.
20. are you slowly drifting away from someone?
    -Unfortunately
21. have you ever wasted your time on someone?
    -Absolutely.
22. can you do the alphabet in sign language?
    -Yes
23. how have you felt today?
    -Exhausted, Grumpy, frustrated, but overall good.
24. you receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
    -I’d likely give it to my roommate who’s really struggling right now.
25. what is wrong with you right now?
    -I’m bleeding out, apparently. Other than that not a whole lot.
26. is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
    -Yes.
27. would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
    -Never had Janba Juice so I’d try that
28. why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
    -He forced me into a decision I didn’t want and then emotionally abused me for months after that.
29. how late did you stay up last night and why?
    -I was up until at least 2:30 because I couldn’t sleep.
30. when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
    -They live with me.
31. what were you doing an hour ago?
    -Sending my sister a huge paragraph about one of my babysit kids.
32. what are you looking forward to in the next month?
    -The boys coming home. Halloween. Halloween marathon with Protector. Halloween party though that might be in november.
33. are you wearing jeans right now?
    -Yes.
34. are you a patient person?
    -Yes. I didn’t used to be.
35. do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
    -My current is a month and 6 days shy of 5 years so yes.
36. favorite color?
    -Black, sky blue, purple
37. did you have a dream last night?
    -If I did it was a nightmare but I don’t remember
38. are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
    -I already answered this
39. if the person you like and your ex were in the same room, what would you do?
    -If we were in the same room my ex probably wouldn’t acknowledge me.
40. do you love anyone who is not related to you?
    -I have a great love for a great many people. I have relatives that I can’t stand.

1: What would you name your future daughter?
-I have a few ideas
2: Do you miss anyone?
-Several people
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
-I’d say thank you and some days I would believe you
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
-Yeah
5: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
-I’m just taking things day by day. Though I am going to a wedding Saturday so I guess that.
6: Did you go out or stay in last night?
-Stay in. Well I was out until amost 10.
7: How late did you stay up last night?
-I answered this already
8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
-Bra, almost all of my roommates. Underwear, Boyfriend.
9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
-I was talking to my sister I think. The baby was still sleeping
10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
-Probably but not a boyfriend-girlfriend situation
11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
-No problem
12: Have you pretended to like someone?
-Not that I can think of
13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
-Never smoked one, Never plan to.
14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
-Yes
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
-Yes. Well… depends on what they did to me.
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
-No.
17: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
-Frequently
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
-Doodle and maybe boyfriend, i can’t remember
19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
-Yes
20: Who did you last see in person?
-Helen is sitting in front of me.
21: What is the last thing you said out loud?
-“No.”
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
-Uh. Once.
23: Have you ever been to Paris?
-No
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
-I can be but I choose not to hide most times.
25: Do you use chap stick?
-All the time
26: Who did you last share a bed with?
-Boyfriend unless you count Roxie
27: Are you listening to music right now?
-Yes
28: What is something you currently want right now?
-For the boys to come home, to not have to worry about money.
29: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
-Yeah
30: How is your heart lately?
-It’s complicated.
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
-Half the time
32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
-Boyfriend a couple days ago
33: What do people call you?
-My name, Boyfriend calls me Babygirl
34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
-All the time. Err…I try to tell people most things now. Life is too damned short for that shit.
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
-Tons.
36: What are you listening to right now?
-Ashes and Toddler noises
37: What is wrong with you right now?
-I answered this already
38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
-Yeah it is.
39: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
-Yes
40: What is on your wrists right now?
-Tattoos, I answered this already too. Guess I should choose better surveys.
41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected?
-Taken
42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
-Lootvault
43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
-Once or twice
44: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
-Yeah
45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
-Yeah
46: What were you doing at midnight last night?
-Laying with Crush and Squirt
47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
-No. 6 months ago I was a greif stricken mess and I did a lot of fucked up shit. I’m happier where i am now. I miss him every day though.
48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
-Someone else. I hate sleeping alone.
49: Have you ever been to New York?
-Driven through it
50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
-Yes. I think it was Momo

Zodiac asks:

Aries:
What or who is your inspiration?
-My mom.
Do you often have a short-temper?
-It mostly depends on my anxiety levels but I can.
Do you often have days where you either hot or cold with anybody, not in-between?
-I can

Taurus:
What’s something you have a very strong opinion about?
-I can be very opinionated but I try to keep an open mind.
Would people consider you to be materialistic?
-I like to think I’m not but I can be. I don’t really care about having expensive things or about money for the most part. The “things” I cling to tend to be things that have meaning to me.
Is it hard for you to accept change?
-Life changes? Not really. Physical changes? Yes.

Gemini:
What would someone have to do in order to catch your attention?
-Talk to me about things deeper than small talk.
Do you often feel at world with two different aspects of yourself?
-This question doesn’t make sense to me. Guessing world is supposed to be war in which case yes.
Would people consider you to be flighty?
-No or at least I hope not

Cancer:
What gets you emotional?
-So many goddamned things.
Are you family orientated in everything you do?
-Not in everything I do
Do you feel the need to be needed?
-Absolutely.

Leo:
What are you best at?
-Taking care of babies and animals. I’m not good at much else.
Do people often assume you’re pretentious?
-No
Do you hate being alone?
-Most of the time but it can depend on who I’m with. Some people I’d rather be alone.

Virgo:
Name an interesting fact about yourself.
-I’m an honorary member of Simple Plan, bitches, what do you do?
Do you often over analyze simple situations?
-HAHAHAHAHAHA
Are you often skeptical?
-Yes and no

Libra:
How far would you go to make someone feel better?
-Far as I can
Do others consider you to be stuck up?
-No
Do you often try to find common ground when in a political debate?
-I have my beliefs but most of the time I don’t like to argue.

Scorpio:
Do you believe in love at first sight?
-Kinda.
Would you often call yourself a moody person?
-Yeah but that’s mostly because of my mental illnesses and years of emotional abuse/trauma
Do you tell it like it is to your friends?
-Absolutely.

Sagittarius:
What’s your biggest goal in life?
-To be the best me I can be for those around me.
Are you often humorous?
-I think I am.
Would you like to go on many adventures?
-Yes. Let’s go. The wanderlust is real.

Capricorn:
Are you someone who trusts easily?
-Yes and No.
Are you self-sufficient?
-Yes but I don’t like to be. Someone taking care of me or helping me with things helps me remember that they care about me.
Do you often conceal yourself from the world around you?
-I can but I don’t.

Aquarius:
How loyal are you to other people?
-Extremely. Until you burn a bridge and then you can go fuck yourself. I won’t tell people your business though.
Do you come across as cold and aloof at times?
-When I’m in a bad mood.
Do you often think about the complexities of life?
-Every damned day

Pisces:
Do you hide how you feel or do you speak your mind?
-Speak my mind.
Have you ever given it your all just to have someone walk away from your life?
-HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Do you have any skills or interests in the arts?
-Absolutely

About You:
What sign are you?
-Virgo but I’m just a couple days into Virgo so I have a lot of Leo traits
What sign is your best friend?
-Sagittarius, Libra, Aquarius
What sign is the person you like/significant other?
-Scorpio. He’s just a couple days into scorpio though, so like me with the leo he has Libra traits.
Do you believe in astrology?
-Some of it
If you could change your sign will you?
-Nope. I share it with both my siblings and it’s very me.

HORROR

1) Favorite horror movie?
-Case 39 or the Paranormal series (1 to 3) because of the memory attached to them. Other than that I’m not sure if I have one right now. I really like horror movies.
2) Scariest place to be outside at night where you live?
-Edge of the woods I guess. My place isn’t very scary but I did feel safer at night at my mom’s.
3) Any animal fears?
-Being alone in the dark, Spiders, Losing more people I care about. There are probably more but those are the worst.
4) When you were younger what were you afraid of?
-Probably the same shit I am now.
5) When you were younger how did you cope with your fears?
-I avoided them, how else would I cope?
6) Is a basement or attic scarier to you?
-Uh. Depends on the specific attic or basement. Gonna go with attic though.
7) Ever have recurring nightmares?
-Two or three over the course of a few years.
8) Favorite old horror film?
-Halloween probably
9) Are you comfortable being at home alone?
-Yeah but I don’t like being home alone at night.
10) Has the fear of something ever kept you up all night?
-Probably
11) When you imagined monsters when you were younger what did they look like?
-The color black, or they looked like regular people.
12) Do you sleep with one foot out of the covers or both under?
-If I’m having a bad anxiety night both under, If I’m alone I switch back and forth, with someone else one leg is almost always out.
13) What is your natural response upon hearing a loud crash in your house?
-Tension between my shoulders and hair on the back of my neck standing up
14) Have you ever played any horror games? (The Midnight Man, One Man Tag, Three Kings, Kokkuri-San)
-Does Bloody Mary count?
15) Top 5 scariest noises to hear when you’re alone?
-Growl when there’s no creature around
-Someone’s voice
-A door opening
-Screaming
-A whisper in my ear
16) Pick a horror movie and explain how you would survive.
-The Quiet Place- I would shut the hell up. (Okay that was the easiest one I could come up with because I’m trying to do this quick)
17) Do you have pre-planned hiding places in your house for scary situations?
-A couple.... I have a whole fucking game plan if anything happens at my boss’s house. protect the cub and all that.
18) Have your experienced any paranormal happenings?
-My house is haunted and yeah my whole life.
19) Do you believe in ghosts?
-Yes
20) Are there any spots in your house you are to afraid to be?
-My basement freaks me out sometimes but it doesn’t keep me from going down there.
21) Any recommendations for horror films?
-The Quiet Place, Case 39 not because it’s good but because many people haven’t seen it, and Let Me In (The remake) I remember loving this one. Been a long time. Oooh and Disturbia.
22) Do you prefer gore or thrillers?
-Thrillers. I want the shit scared out of me.
23) What did your parents tell you about monsters when you were young?
-I don’t remember now…My mom probably told me I was safe.
24) Are you a fan of jump scares?
-My anxiety isn’t.
25) What is your go to for horror entertainment?
-I don’t know how to answer this one.
26) Do you believe aliens or other life forms exist?
-Duh.
27) Have you read Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark? If so what was your favorite or what was the scariest story?
-No but my favorite scary story is the creepypasta called The Masterpeice. First time I read it I was up all night.
28) Have you ever been near a murder scene?
-Only if you count car accidents I passed by.
29) Would you ever spend the night in an abandoned building?
-Probably
30) Are you superstitious?
-Yes
31) Have you ever had a fortune told to you that came true?
-Yes
32) Do you sleep with your window open?
-Sometimes
33) Have you ever trespassed onto private property late at night?
-Um. Yes.
34) Would you ever stay overnight in a place that is said to be haunted?
-My house is haunted.
35) Do you ever have dreams/nightmares that end up occurring in real life?
-Yeah. All the damned time.
36) Have you ever worked in a haunted house? If not have you wanted to?
-I don’t know if I would or not
37) Have you ever seen something super spooky and unexplainable?
-Yes
38) Scariest horror game you’ve played?
-I haven’t really played any horror games.
39) What do you do for Halloween?
-Me and Lizzie have a party every year. Also Protector promised to watch all the Halloween movies with me
40) What were you on Halloween?
-Last year I think I was red ridinghood
41) Ghosts or Ghouls?
-Ghosts
42) Do you have any phobias?
-arachnophobia
43) While on the subject of phobias, do you have any things you want people to tag for safety?
-Do you mean like a trigger warning? Uh.. Not that I can think of.
44) Have you ever used a Ouija Board? If so did anything happen during your experience?
-Yes and I’m like 99% sure it was all faked
45) Favorite horror movie antagonist?
-I can’t think of one right now
46) Favorite horror musical?
-Sweeny Todd?
47) Zombie apocalypse weapon of choice?
-Probably a metal bat or an axe. I’d love to say a bow or crossbow but I don’t know if I can reload very fast.
48) Have you ever read Goosebumps?
-I only ever watched it
49) What would be your back story if you were the killer in a horror movie? Why are you killing people?
-I will come back to this one
50) Have you ever gone ghost hunting?
-Yes… Kinda.

And that’s all for now. Byebye.