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So, as previously stated (if not here than other wheres) Victoria fairly well put a definition to our relationship. “You are a good friend that I want to help. And a friend I’m interested to hav...

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Tonight, I decided to take the therapist’s advice and just accept the grieving emotions, let them pass through me, and embrace what thoughts were attached as opposed to trying to analyze each emo...

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So yesterday after I spoke with the Divorce Attorney, I was feeling… odd. It is a situation where if Nancy wanted to she could fuck the whole thing, we’d start from scratch, and have to re-do an...

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If you had asked me on Sunday if this was going to be a busy week, I would have likely (in a rather Eeyore voice) said, “Probably not.” Well, I would have been wrong! Monday: Trip to Ames, saw fa...

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This issue always bothers the living shit out of me. I am a BIG proponent of mental health. We need a lot more services, a lot more funding, and a much better system to help out people who need...

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Truly, the most pointless day on my calendar is Wednesdays. Now, that’s an arrogant as balls thing to say because if Courts were running effectively? Wednesdays would be a damned God-send. You...

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So whenever something significant happens followed by something strange, as a lizard-brained human, I tend to jump to connections despite that obviously not being necessarily true. If you receiv...

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Yesterday went off script pretty quickly but in a good way… ultimately. When I got home, my original intention was to just grab Nala and go. But I got some disturbing mail. A notice for Propert...

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I had intended to wake up early, eat a breakfast, grab a shower, head into the office.... but with last night’s emotional insomnia, I “slept” a bit until 3:45… let the dog out… got back to bed ar...

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Today/tonight I feel down. And it is entirely due to the divorce. And typically, I would be upset at myself about that. Because the depression related to the divorce is (very honestly) A LOT L...

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I will admit that I am kind if in a depressed place right now. Just everything building on itself. Like… politically? I have progressive friends who keep saying, “fuck voting this year! Biden ...

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So, I get that what I am saying is Emotional Chris and not Intellectual Chris. I get that Intellectual Chris likely finds this whole thing quite beneath us. But Emotional Chris has to speak jus...

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My dream last night returned to the narrative structure. Difficult to say about perspective. Some was third person “watching a movie” some was first person “fps” style. Ultimately, though, thi...

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It is doubtful that I would get more Tinder/OKC attention with this on my profile… buuuuuuut it certainly wouldn’t hurt my current run of zero success. lol

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Oh, today has already been exhausting. Bugger. So last night, I took the dog for a walk and… she… was different. She’s never viciously snarled at another dog ever. But there was a dog in the p...

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Yeah. It uh… it certainly is one crazy ass fucking year. The “2020” meme with Ant Man can now add “Inland Hurricane tears from Nebraska through Iowa to Chicago and St. Louis.” Yeesh!! I mean, ...

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Hurricane in Iowa Power out throughout the state Internet down even if city has power Will update more later Will fond out if Work had power and/or internet

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This is still a lesson I’m trying to learn. But when you suffer with chronic pain while trying to save the world; you always feel like YOUR BEST is falling short.

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Emotions versus Intellect. Intellectually, I know that I’m awesome. Truly, I am a catch and any woman would be blessed to be with me. Consider it. I have a stable full time job that pays me no...

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Last night, I had a big list of stuff I wanted to do and to get done. But when I got in the car and started to drive home? I was… almost instantly falling asleep. CLEARLY, I was super tired. ...

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Last night as I lay in bed, I was looking through Tinder and OK Cupid as I sometimes do and swiping on the women that looked good or seemed interesting in their profiles. And I GOT MY FIRST MATC...

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I just realized… when I’m feeling anxious… especially socially… I tend to go to a particular show… read the lines from the main character until I’m comfortable enough that I can actually pull off...

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Some days, you wake up and a feeling comes over you. It can be difficult to really put your finger on… but there’s just this feeling and you have a sense for what to expect from the day. Or is ...

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Yesterday, I was feeling sad about the divorce. But I couldn’t put my finger on it. It was a lonely feeling, a feeling that called a tear to my eye and a hollow feeling to my heart. But it was...

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Had a pretty decent weekend. Friday: Roll20 Saturday: DDO w/Remus Sunday: Hung out with Victoria and her kids at their house and went swimming. Overall, pretty good… and very social (all things c...

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