HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 17

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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October 08, 2019

Have to do this in ❅journal 2019❅

Everything in my body is telling me I have to do this, but also it’s telling me that what I’m doing is wrong. I don’t like manipulating others, I don’t like hurting others. But sometimes you hav...

October 08, 2019

Well Shit in ❅journal 2019❅

The delusions have come back. Welp…

So, my boyfriend and I have fixed everything! I’m so happy, you cannot believe the stress it took off of my already heavy shoulders. There’s some more things though ahhh imma blush. Now I call hi...

I really am at this point (⌐■-■)

September 27, 2019

Who my bf really is in ❅journal 2019❅

I never really talked about him or how we met here, so i guess i should. I met him when i was twelve and he was thirteen tho i thought he was like twenty something at the time and he liked to por...

September 27, 2019

Avoid in ❅journal 2019❅

I’m avoiding him right now, idk. He texted after two days of no contact, no messages, nothing. Afterwards he texted me again but i didn’t see a notification, i just happened to check my dms and s...

September 26, 2019

Darkness in ❅journal 2019❅

I don’t man, I don’t know what to say.

September 25, 2019

I feel really bad in ❅journal 2019❅

I feel really, really bad. So his mom’s been in the hospital (she gets sick a lot) and that’s why he’s been weird. I told him I wanted to take a break and he told me it and that he didn’t want m...

September 24, 2019

Tired 2.0 in ❅journal 2019❅


I’ve been living a kinda two live situation. I have a whole fantasy life that just is starting to feel more real to me now, more alive. I can just sink into it and be happy. I have a group of fr...

September 17, 2019

September 17 in ❅journal 2019❅

Hey diary. I’m sad, the usual kinda just exhausted..nothing to write again.

September 15, 2019

K-12 in ❅journal 2019❅

That movie, that album is iconic and I shall forever cherish Melanie Martinez. I never really liked her music to the point of worship, only knowing/liking her songs Carousel and Dollhouse. Over t...

I can’t find any answers and I’m in tears at this point. Genophobia. It makes sense but it also doesn’t. Every article I found says it’s rape or culture pressure that causes it. I just don’t have...

September 12, 2019

It's just me in ❅journal 2019❅

He’s actively ignoring me now and I feel like crap. Every time, i get my hopes uo and I now I feel stupid I haven’t been able to write in here since I feel so.dumb about my entries I don’t even t...

September 10, 2019

Letter to Alex in ❅journal 2019❅

Dear Alex, I regret agreeing to ever date you last spring. You seemed so strong, so defiant and so cute I couldn’t help but like you. I should have listened to all of our friends who told me it w...

September 10, 2019

Boyfriend 2.0 in ❅journal 2019❅

So we talked and he revealed he’s been super stressed lately and needs time alone to clear his head. I started to cry a bit, because I just feel useless kinda if I can’t be someone he can to when...

September 10, 2019

GOD DAMNIT in ❅journal 2019❅


September 09, 2019

The end. in ❅journal 2019❅

Goodnight, hopefully.

I don’t know what to do with all the pills. I think your supposed to flush them down the toilet when you don’t take them but have to hide the fact. I’ll do that I think. John said I didn’t have t...

September 09, 2019

Does he even care in ❅journal 2019❅

It feels like he doesn’t. Like he doesn’t even love me anymore, they’re empty words to me. I can’t even feel anything in my heart anymore. It feels empty and dead now. He won’t text me for nearly...

September 08, 2019

Not special in ❅journal 2019❅

I feel so dumb, I just left the writing group as soon as I could. I found a review on one of my old works online and got super excited to see i was invited to a online writing group! I haven’t wr...

September 08, 2019

Disgust in ❅journal 2019❅

I feel like a horrible person. I want to die so badly I’m even fantasizing about it. I’m terrified of anyone find where I live on here and contacting my family. I’ll be punished and I can’t take ...

September 08, 2019

Dying in ❅journal 2019❅

I’m confused…but I’m okay. I had a dream that felt so real, a dream where I was about to try and overdoes again. I felt so happy in that dream, with two other people. It was like at that moment I...

September 07, 2019

Tired in ❅journal 2019❅

Another day of being tired.

September 06, 2019

Again I guess in ❅journal 2019❅

The world is kicking me in the gut again, to the point I’m getting anxious and nervous. My boyfriend seems so distant it’s weird. When we went about before I was never this anxious about our rela...

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