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I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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January 12, 2020

So, last night in Journal 2020

Last night my friend did want to fuck me. But it was a girl this time. Anyway, I found myself not being scared by what she was texting because a) she was a girl b) she isn’t like that despite fac...

January 12, 2020

Talking in Journal 2020

I’m well aware of the fact i give to many chsnces. I know. I try to be very open and kind. But it does backfire. And it does open yourself to uncomfortable situations…

January 12, 2020

Loneliness in Journal 2020

For nearly a month it’s worsened and worsened. I feel empty, I’m trying my best

January 11, 2020

Trash in Journal 2020

I’ve been trying so hard. And I keep trying to. But it never is enough. It never is.

January 09, 2020

Heartbreak in Journal 2020

I didn’t think Will, would do that. I honestly hope I’m wrong. But if I’m not…I can’t believe it. Did he think I’d leave Isaac for him? Hell no. In my anger at thinking Isaac cheated I said I’d ...

January 08, 2020

. in Journal 2020

I’m tired. Today was a exhausting day, I ate cheeseballs and pizza and potato wedges and drank orange juice and water. Good. I feel sick and hurt but it’s okay. Just gotta keep working on these r...

January 07, 2020

You and Me in Journal 2020

I don’t want him to die. He had begun starving himself in my absent. I hate myself, for thinking breaking off our friendship would serve him well. Life was better for him even though he was dying...

January 07, 2020

Circa July, 16 in Journal 2020

I’ve been busy. I finally decided to tell the owner of the support group what happened, after a friend convincing me now was the best time. I was shaky, not knowing what to say or do. I didn’t co...

January 03, 2020

Thoughts in Journal 2020

I know Celtic cares about me but I know if something where to happen with me and Madi she’d always take her side. Always. This kinda came to me at random but it made sense. Madi’s more important....

January 03, 2020

Rarely Talking in Journal 2020

I rarely talk to Isaac now, it’s kinda upsetting but he’s super busy and I just have to be patient. Some stuff has been going on at home that I’ll write about later.

January 01, 2020

Unhappy in Journal 2020

I feel really unhappy recently but I’m scared to say anything to anyone…or say why…

December 31, 2019

..... in ❅journal 2019❅

I didn’t get to talk to daddy at all yesterday and it’s all my fault. I think I scared him away. I had this stupid idea… really stupid idea. I talked to Celtic about it and she told me be careful...

December 30, 2019

The Plan in ❅journal 2019❅

Okay, so I’ve realized I must plan out my matchmaking adventure. I need the three of them in a healthy mindset, good economic place and ofcourse still interested in one another. I’ve decided I n...

December 29, 2019

Emi pt 2 in ❅journal 2019❅

I told Celtic about Emi and she was horrified. She told me that I’m not his toy, that I shouldn’t offer my body to him when he’s upset. It made me feel so bad telling her because I said I wouldn’...

I feel as though there’s going to be a rough entry soon, not about me but let’s buckle up. I’m the emotional support.

December 27, 2019

Mucky in ❅journal 2019❅

I don’t have a happy place anymore. It’s all gross and mucky and wrong now. But that’s okay. These things happen. I been blacking out a lot. And barely controlling myself from falling asleep. But...

December 27, 2019

Again. Pt 3 in ❅journal 2019❅

Well, that didn’t go as planned. Today I decided to let all my vents out to a friend and what do they do? Ask for a virtual hug. And ignore it. After a while. I gave up my boyfriend ended up read...

December 27, 2019

Madi in ❅journal 2019❅

I’m going to explain what happened on Christmas. So, in my past entry I talked about how this “friend” I had lied about DID. A serious disorder and was basically given a slap on the wrist. She wa...

December 27, 2019

There's a limit in ❅journal 2019❅

So, I used another diary site before this before goodnight journal. I ended up deleting it because a whole bunch of creeps where commenting once my entire got more detailed and graphic. I regret ...

I kinda realized I do have a good amount of people reading this, so I need to set something up so people know who I’m talking about. Xela = Kai = Ali (ex girlfriend) Babi = Chlo IRL BFF = Cousin...

AHHHH I GOT MY OLD JOURNAL BACK https://app.goodnightjournal.com/journal/5444848

December 25, 2019

Happy Dream in ❅journal 2019❅

So I had two dreams last night that made me feel super happy and other things. First one, was just me and Emi. He was hugging me close to the point I could hide my face in his chest. I was in a n...

December 25, 2019

Manipilation in ❅journal 2019❅

A quick wiki search should me how obvious some of my “friends” where manipulating me. It’s sad on my part, I can read people rather easily but not them. Anyway, I remember months ago I said the p...

December 24, 2019

Model in ❅journal 2019❅

When I was younger and kind of sheltered project runaway and America’s next top model where a dream come true in my eyes. I wanted to be a model so bad I even tried out for American girl doll. I...

December 23, 2019

Morning in ❅journal 2019❅

I still feel bad about last night, I’m hoping I can cheer myself up by eating some food. Though the thought of doing so makes me feel sick to my stomach and mouth taste funny. I don’t know, I’ve ...

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