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This is new. I’m not used to you doing any of the things I’m about to lay before me. You are a stubborn man. Once you make up your mind. There’s no changing it. And that includes even changing...

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We have gotten to this weird spot in our relationship… I want to tell you about everything in my entire day. You don’t want to tell me anything about your day at all. I need you to love me in my ...

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You worked overtime. So I had a plan. Do all chores, shower, go to Panera and get us some food and get you a Starbucks before you wake. But you woke up in the middle of me doing dishes. So I took...

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Things I’m grateful for thus far: - having enough snacks and things to eat/pack even though I was running late - Getting 8 hours of sleep - Touching feet even though we’re upset with each other. ...

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I put a question mark because I think level headed me came back for a second. Because I thought to myself.. since we’re in a weird limbo, I wasn’t going to come home this week. Kind of make you m...

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What I’m grateful for today so far: - My boyfriend volunteering to clean our carpets since the puppies have popped on it. - Yummy apple and fruit dip - Someone liking my desk so much, they wanted...

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Today was the first day that I didn’t go to the work out class. This work out class where my boyfriends sister is the trainer, and because she feels a type of way, she told me to hold off on atte...

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I can tell that you’ve been off for quite some time. I could tell that today you’ve been treating me differently the most. You haven’t been texting me back, you haven’t even read or opened my mes...

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You know.. almost everything. And yet, you do nothing. You know that I love: - koala bear hugs; - my hair played with; - cuddles; - handwritten notes; - watching tv; - sex; - kissing; -my back pl...

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Your words are echoing again and again. “I’m not going to hurt you.” “How do you know that?” “Because I care about you way too much to know that I could never hurt you.” And call me a fool fallin...

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You are blowing my mind. In a good way. I realized I only write on here about you when it’s bad.. or when my emotions are negative. But I want to write about the things and times that you make my...

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Today has been so hard for me. From my anxiety getting such a tight grasp on me, for god knows why. To my thoughts literally soaring to any thought possible. My thoughts are fighting with each ot...

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I have heard you say “I don’t think I can love you the way you want to be loved” a few times now.. And at first I didn’t think anything of it. But then you said it a few more times. And then a fe...

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We agreed that you’d try these things for one month: 1. No talking bad about our arguments, or about me. 2. When I ask for something, give it to me. 3. Write 5 things that you are grateful for ev...

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What you are doing is absolutely not okay. You have gone almost 12 hours without talking to me. And I don’t think it’s fair that you know I have anxiety, and yet you still do this to me. You know...

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I told you last night “There was a time that you told me about your parents. You said that your mom would always share her emotions and feelings and you feel like she stopped doing that because y...

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My thoughts are taking control of me and I feel like I am literally fighting to get back to myself. And I don’t understand why I am fighting with myself. I know it is because our fight hasn’t bee...

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I am going to start writing to you the things I wish I could say to you, but can’t because I am too hurt with you. First off, last night did NOT need to continue on to today. I’ve realized a cert...

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A week ago, it feels like everything was so different. I flew to you, and at this very moment, we were getting our food and eating with your family. And everything seemed perfect. I didn’t have w...

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Today I said to you, “I will NOT continue a pattern, lifestyle, generational curse or way of living the negative ways we are becoming accustomed to. We will respect each other, we will communicat...

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I did it. I never really put much thought into you after a long time. If I’m going to be honest, you were really hard to get over and I don’t even know why. I thought of you until before my recen...

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Today I told my coworker all the things I want to plan for my future: - My super cute coffee shop/bar. - My future husband journal. - My little purple journal. - Going to the gym and losing my lo...

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I don’t deserve feeling like I am not enough for you. I don’t deserve feeling as if what I do doesn’t deserve all your attention or even 100% efforts from your side. I don’t deserve feeling like ...

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I have always known it was you. There was never a doubt in my mind about my love for you. I knew I loved you before I knew what your face looked like. I have prayed for someone like you my whole ...

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Are you serious? Like.. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. We called it before it even happened.. But I didn’t want to be right. I’m freaking pissed. Especially because I got really close to you w...

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