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WOA part 1? in Firestone
This is new. I’m not used to you doing any of the things I’m about to lay before me. You are a stubborn man. Once you make up your mind. There’s no changing it. And that includes even changing...
We have gotten to this weird spot in our relationship… I want to tell you about everything in my entire day. You don’t want to tell me anything about your day at all. I need you to love me in my ...
Unexpected time together in Firestone
You worked overtime. So I had a plan. Do all chores, shower, go to Panera and get us some food and get you a Starbucks before you wake. But you woke up in the middle of me doing dishes. So I took...
03.29.2023 in Gratefulness
Things I’m grateful for thus far: - having enough snacks and things to eat/pack even though I was running late - Getting 8 hours of sleep - Touching feet even though we’re upset with each other. ...
Moment of Clarity? in Firestone
I put a question mark because I think level headed me came back for a second. Because I thought to myself.. since we’re in a weird limbo, I wasn’t going to come home this week. Kind of make you m...
03.28.2023 in Gratefulness
What I’m grateful for today so far: - My boyfriend volunteering to clean our carpets since the puppies have popped on it. - Yummy apple and fruit dip - Someone liking my desk so much, they wanted...
First day being kicked out in Inner battles.
Today was the first day that I didn’t go to the work out class. This work out class where my boyfriends sister is the trainer, and because she feels a type of way, she told me to hold off on atte...
Walking away from reading in Inner battles.
I can tell that you’ve been off for quite some time. I could tell that today you’ve been treating me differently the most. You haven’t been texting me back, you haven’t even read or opened my mes...
You know.. almost everything. in Firestone
You know.. almost everything. And yet, you do nothing. You know that I love: - koala bear hugs; - my hair played with; - cuddles; - handwritten notes; - watching tv; - sex; - kissing; -my back pl...
I Believe You SGP in Firestone
Your words are echoing again and again. “I’m not going to hurt you.” “How do you know that?” “Because I care about you way too much to know that I could never hurt you.” And call me a fool fallin...
About yesterday.. in Firestone
You are blowing my mind. In a good way. I realized I only write on here about you when it’s bad.. or when my emotions are negative. But I want to write about the things and times that you make my...
Today has been so hard for me. From my anxiety getting such a tight grasp on me, for god knows why. To my thoughts literally soaring to any thought possible. My thoughts are fighting with each ot...
I have heard you say “I don’t think I can love you the way you want to be loved” a few times now.. And at first I didn’t think anything of it. But then you said it a few more times. And then a fe...
Our Agreement in Firestone
We agreed that you’d try these things for one month: 1. No talking bad about our arguments, or about me. 2. When I ask for something, give it to me. 3. Write 5 things that you are grateful for ev...
My Throat is Starting to Hurt To Even Swallow in Firestone
What you are doing is absolutely not okay. You have gone almost 12 hours without talking to me. And I don’t think it’s fair that you know I have anxiety, and yet you still do this to me. You know...
About That Comment in Firestone
I told you last night “There was a time that you told me about your parents. You said that your mom would always share her emotions and feelings and you feel like she stopped doing that because y...
I Feel Conflicted in Firestone
My thoughts are taking control of me and I feel like I am literally fighting to get back to myself. And I don’t understand why I am fighting with myself. I know it is because our fight hasn’t bee...
Letters To You. Number 1 in Firestone
I am going to start writing to you the things I wish I could say to you, but can’t because I am too hurt with you. First off, last night did NOT need to continue on to today. I’ve realized a cert...
A Week Ago in Firestone
A week ago, it feels like everything was so different. I flew to you, and at this very moment, we were getting our food and eating with your family. And everything seemed perfect. I didn’t have w...
Taking a Stand in Firestone
Today I said to you, “I will NOT continue a pattern, lifestyle, generational curse or way of living the negative ways we are becoming accustomed to. We will respect each other, we will communicat...
03.18.2021 in Process of a Brokenhearted Woman
I did it. I never really put much thought into you after a long time. If I’m going to be honest, you were really hard to get over and I don’t even know why. I thought of you until before my recen...
Mar. 18. 2021 in Journey to Self-Love
Today I told my coworker all the things I want to plan for my future: - My super cute coffee shop/bar. - My future husband journal. - My little purple journal. - Going to the gym and losing my lo...
I Don't Deserve This in Firestone
I don’t deserve feeling like I am not enough for you. I don’t deserve feeling as if what I do doesn’t deserve all your attention or even 100% efforts from your side. I don’t deserve feeling like ...
I Knew It Was You in Firestone
I have always known it was you. There was never a doubt in my mind about my love for you. I knew I loved you before I knew what your face looked like. I have prayed for someone like you my whole ...
This Is Unbelievable in Food For Thought
Are you serious? Like.. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. We called it before it even happened.. But I didn’t want to be right. I’m freaking pissed. Especially because I got really close to you w...