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Just a middle aged man that feels 50, acts like he’s 18 and tries to stay sane enough to continue functioning enough to tell stories and made someone laugh at some point some time.
Because it’s not worth winning if you can’t win big
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June 22nd - The Wedding Ring in 2021 entries
Once I thought I loved someone enough to marry them. She was an expensive woman; she loved money and having a lot of it, but she did it on her own. The biggest obsession for her were trinkets and...
June 21st - "What's Your Real Job?" in 2021 entries
its been entertaining now that everyone seems to think the pandemic miraculously ended, as a bartender I’ve been getting asked the question again - What’s your real job though? My real job involv...
June 8th - Stripper Locker Room in 2021 entries
When I dated the first Heather, I got to see behind the scenes of how a strip club functions daily and let me tell you - I gained respect for the art of women using their bodies to generate incom...
June 7th - Note #3 in 2021 entries
Been a long couple of days but I’m trying to be better posting, so here’s a note I wrote in 2018 while I was sitting in my happy place. Definitely not a happy note. You never knew what you had ...
June 4th - Threading the Eye in 2021 entries
Pain. There’s physical, emotional, mental; everyones endured it at one point or another. It’s not a point of self pity or a brag but I have been through my fair share of pain. We’re going to talk...
June 3rd - The Last To Say in 2020 - public
I’ve binged three seasons of Breaking Bad in two days, hiding in the dark, only leaving for Portillos and AA. I feel bad but it’s an entirely different kind of bad. I didn’t know why I put so m...
June 2nd - Flashback To A February 2020 Note in 2020 - public
I wrote about you so much. Seemed like every single day I had something to say. Usually, it was a lament, a grudge, something that I didn’t need to say but wanted to hear out loud. Just when I’d ...
The Twitter Rant I Wanted vs. Sober Rumbling in 2021 entries
I used to get black out drunk and go on long hot twitter rampages. I’d also write books of texts and garbled insults and think that was an okay way to end a night of drinking. After I was just br...
June 1st - Coming Back Down in 2021 entries
New Years Eve into New Years Day I had an accident in which I was hurt. I broke my left wrist and for about a month I had blurry vision out of my left eye from which we are recently discovering i...
I Belong To You in 2020 - public
A couple years ago, after my ex committed suicide and another ex broke up with my drunk cancerous ass and ghosted me, I took a long drive alone through the north side of Lake Superior and up towa...
Another Night in County in 2020 - public
If life is like a prison for you Then the bars are made of the alcohol you consume And you’re lucky if the others leave you a quarter To put towards your commissary Or to save for your next pr...
The Night Before 35 in 2020 - public
I woke up out of a stone cold slumber at 4am. I was having a dream about sitting in jail and just thinking about all the things I have done wrong and regret in life. Its a common dream theme on t...
Bar Close - Politics or Teletubbies in 2020 - public
Two people in the bar while I’m cleaning: Ones “Crazy Charlie.” He’s telling me about how the government and Starbucks are now working together to change the weather; “I mean, you’re gonna tell m...
Do you really think you need another one? in 2020 - public
Couple of real stand out guys come into the bar - we’re talking maskless, toothless, haven’t changed shirts in weeks - kind of backwoods hillbillies and immediately I know this will get weird. T...
Nothing bad happened in 2020 - public
After telling myself over a year ago that I would never get behind the wheel of a vehicle when I was black out drunk, I got behind the wheel of a vehicle last night, and drove over 60 miles. So ...
Allison. in 2020 - public
I’m a little late but, happy Mother’s Day. You have been a nurse longer than I’ve been alive. Fate just so happened to intertwine you and dad in an eerie accident in which on August 4th, 1984, ...
Are You Having Fun Yet? in 2020 - public
I was having a good morning. Unlike most mornings in the last couple of weeks where its either like I tried drowning my skin in Icy Hot from head to toe or not being able to feel anything at all...
If/When in 2020 - public
I won’t lie to you all. The last few weeks I’ve been ready to die. That was before the pandemic that’s swept the world. The doctors came back and said I’m basically cancerous in the lymph in my g...
Thursday, December 12th - The Year Long Bet With P0ker H0 in Posso's Prompts
Anyone that knows anything about my background in Madison knows that I started my journey in Madison and college with gambling in poker games in dim lit pool halls and community dens in dorm hall...
Friday November 29th - Bartending for the Holiday in Posso's Prompts
If you aren’t familiar with working in a bar/restaurant during a holiday season, this is going to strike you as strange what I’m about to recount to you, but for me, this is just another holiday ...
November 9th - But I'm Sterile... in Posso's Prompts
Other than staying relatively quiet for the last year, I did get myself involved with one woman. If you’ve read anything else about her this year, you will be able to confirm what kind of treat i...
November 2nd - Saving Time For Daylight in Posso's Prompts
One year ago today, and ironically, approximately at this time of the night, I was getting done with a bartending shift in which I was feeling miserable, hating life, irritated with shitty drunks...
October 29th - Late Night Tantrum in Posso's Prompts
It’s been awhile. I won’t lie - I haven’t been feeling the most public about writing and I haven’t been impressed about anything in my life since breaking up with the self proclaimed star warrior...
October 5th - Season 34, Episode 1 in Posso's Prompts
I decided that for my birthday I needed to get out of town, alone. I took my birthday money and decided that I would push my luck with the driving illegally in Columbia County again and went to W...
October 2nd - You Were Gone in Posso's Prompts
I haven’t been doing a lot of public posting lately, I just haven’t felt inclined to share a lot of what I’ve been putting down lately combined with just the feeling of mediocrity I’ve had when i...