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June 3rd - The Last To Say
I’ve binged three seasons of Breaking Bad in two days, hiding in the dark, only leaving for Portillos and AA. I feel bad but it’s an entirely different kind of bad. I didn’t know why I put so m...
June 2nd - Flashback To A February 2020 Note
I wrote about you so much. Seemed like every single day I had something to say. Usually, it was a lament, a grudge, something that I didn’t need to say but wanted to hear out loud. Just when I’d ...
I Belong To You
A couple years ago, after my ex committed suicide and another ex broke up with my drunk cancerous ass and ghosted me, I took a long drive alone through the north side of Lake Superior and up towa...
Another Night in County
If life is like a prison for you Then the bars are made of the alcohol you consume And you’re lucky if the others leave you a quarter To put towards your commissary Or to save for your next pr...
The Night Before 35
I woke up out of a stone cold slumber at 4am. I was having a dream about sitting in jail and just thinking about all the things I have done wrong and regret in life. Its a common dream theme on t...
Bar Close - Politics or Teletubbies
Two people in the bar while I’m cleaning: Ones “Crazy Charlie.” He’s telling me about how the government and Starbucks are now working together to change the weather; “I mean, you’re gonna tell m...
Do you really think you need another one?
Couple of real stand out guys come into the bar - we’re talking maskless, toothless, haven’t changed shirts in weeks - kind of backwoods hillbillies and immediately I know this will get weird. T...
Nothing bad happened
After telling myself over a year ago that I would never get behind the wheel of a vehicle when I was black out drunk, I got behind the wheel of a vehicle last night, and drove over 60 miles. So ...
Allison.
I’m a little late but, happy Mother’s Day. You have been a nurse longer than I’ve been alive. Fate just so happened to intertwine you and dad in an eerie accident in which on August 4th, 1984, ...
Are You Having Fun Yet?
I was having a good morning. Unlike most mornings in the last couple of weeks where its either like I tried drowning my skin in Icy Hot from head to toe or not being able to feel anything at all...
If/When
I won’t lie to you all. The last few weeks I’ve been ready to die. That was before the pandemic that’s swept the world. The doctors came back and said I’m basically cancerous in the lymph in my g...
