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Once I thought I loved someone enough to marry them. She was an expensive woman; she loved money and having a lot of it, but she did it on her own. The biggest obsession for her were trinkets and...

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its been entertaining now that everyone seems to think the pandemic miraculously ended, as a bartender I’ve been getting asked the question again - What’s your real job though? My real job involv...

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When I dated the first Heather, I got to see behind the scenes of how a strip club functions daily and let me tell you - I gained respect for the art of women using their bodies to generate incom...

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Been a long couple of days but I’m trying to be better posting, so here’s a note I wrote in 2018 while I was sitting in my happy place. Definitely not a happy note. You never knew what you had ...

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Pain. There’s physical, emotional, mental; everyones endured it at one point or another. It’s not a point of self pity or a brag but I have been through my fair share of pain. We’re going to talk...

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I’ve binged three seasons of Breaking Bad in two days, hiding in the dark, only leaving for Portillos and AA. I feel bad but it’s an entirely different kind of bad. I didn’t know why I put so m...

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I wrote about you so much. Seemed like every single day I had something to say. Usually, it was a lament, a grudge, something that I didn’t need to say but wanted to hear out loud. Just when I’d ...

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I used to get black out drunk and go on long hot twitter rampages. I’d also write books of texts and garbled insults and think that was an okay way to end a night of drinking. After I was just br...

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New Years Eve into New Years Day I had an accident in which I was hurt. I broke my left wrist and for about a month I had blurry vision out of my left eye from which we are recently discovering i...

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A couple years ago, after my ex committed suicide and another ex broke up with my drunk cancerous ass and ghosted me, I took a long drive alone through the north side of Lake Superior and up towa...

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If life is like a prison for you Then the bars are made of the alcohol you consume And you’re lucky if the others leave you a quarter To put towards your commissary Or to save for your next pr...

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I woke up out of a stone cold slumber at 4am. I was having a dream about sitting in jail and just thinking about all the things I have done wrong and regret in life. Its a common dream theme on t...

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Two people in the bar while I’m cleaning: Ones “Crazy Charlie.” He’s telling me about how the government and Starbucks are now working together to change the weather; “I mean, you’re gonna tell m...

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Couple of real stand out guys come into the bar - we’re talking maskless, toothless, haven’t changed shirts in weeks - kind of backwoods hillbillies and immediately I know this will get weird. T...

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After telling myself over a year ago that I would never get behind the wheel of a vehicle when I was black out drunk, I got behind the wheel of a vehicle last night, and drove over 60 miles. So ...

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I’m a little late but, happy Mother’s Day. You have been a nurse longer than I’ve been alive. Fate just so happened to intertwine you and dad in an eerie accident in which on August 4th, 1984, ...

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I was having a good morning. Unlike most mornings in the last couple of weeks where its either like I tried drowning my skin in Icy Hot from head to toe or not being able to feel anything at all...

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I won’t lie to you all. The last few weeks I’ve been ready to die. That was before the pandemic that’s swept the world. The doctors came back and said I’m basically cancerous in the lymph in my g...

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Anyone that knows anything about my background in Madison knows that I started my journey in Madison and college with gambling in poker games in dim lit pool halls and community dens in dorm hall...

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If you aren’t familiar with working in a bar/restaurant during a holiday season, this is going to strike you as strange what I’m about to recount to you, but for me, this is just another holiday ...

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Other than staying relatively quiet for the last year, I did get myself involved with one woman. If you’ve read anything else about her this year, you will be able to confirm what kind of treat i...

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One year ago today, and ironically, approximately at this time of the night, I was getting done with a bartending shift in which I was feeling miserable, hating life, irritated with shitty drunks...

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It’s been awhile. I won’t lie - I haven’t been feeling the most public about writing and I haven’t been impressed about anything in my life since breaking up with the self proclaimed star warrior...

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I decided that for my birthday I needed to get out of town, alone. I took my birthday money and decided that I would push my luck with the driving illegally in Columbia County again and went to W...

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I haven’t been doing a lot of public posting lately, I just haven’t felt inclined to share a lot of what I’ve been putting down lately combined with just the feeling of mediocrity I’ve had when i...

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