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The massive clear out of my house is progressing (honestly, I can’t believe the amount of crap that has been stored in every nook and cranny of the place, and after several trips to the tip, and ...


April 03, 2018

It's back in I've arrived!

The other place. It’s back. I never properly settled here, so I’ve revived my account over there. I’m sorry, I have a feeling this will annoy some people, and I’ll probably have to double up, ...


After 10 years of hideous commutes, and fraternising with all kinds of celebrities, I finally left my wonderful job at ITV on Valentines’ day. The job wasn’t 100% wonderful, sadly. I had new col...


Ever since I resigned, the desperation to get away from the job I used to absolutely love has become more and more urgent. On a daily basis, the sense of panic and the need to just RUN has grown...


I realise that once again, I haven’t written an entry in a while. I need to write one about my holiday (not massively important, but some things occurred that have given me a lot of pause for th...


Today, America is electing its President. I’m not American. I’ve never even BEEN to America. So I have a bloody cheek even writing this entry. I don’t understand American politics much, even. ...


October 28, 2016

Prosebox Survey in I've arrived!

Here’s that survey thing. What country do you call home? Do you like it? Any plans to defect? If you could live anywhere in the world and didn’t have the usual constraints (e.g. family, work) wh...


Well, since the last entry, things escalated, and dad eventually decided he wanted to go into a home. Unfortunately, the one chosen wasn’t a home I had seen. It was one my cousin took him to, w...


I have more to write - lots more. But for now, this: https://hastingslive.wordpress.com/2015/11/19/the-hana-christine-band-monday-night-at-the-hastings-arms/


So much to say, so little time, so much to fill in. One of my friends from open diary left me a message saying it’s been too long. Quite right. I need to do a big long brain dump. But not today....


January 29, 2015

Decree nisi in Juggling with Hedgehogs

The court paperwork arrived yesterday. I was shocked by how it affected me. You’d think, considering what I went through last year, and the fact that I’m now estranged from both my children, th...


January 28, 2015

Much better in Juggling with Hedgehogs

There have undoubtedly been ups and downs in this estrangement from the kids scenario. There have been doubts and concerns in my head with regard to it all - I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t doub...


Well, I have really struggled over the past 3 weeks with this stand-off with my kids, but have absolutely refused to back down or budge on it. My daughter hasn’t reacted one way or the other, wh...


I have had the most amazing weekend with Paul. He’s solid as a rock, totally with me about all this nonsense with my kids, and just completely calm about everything. He manages to support me wi...


January 09, 2015

Carnage in Juggling with Hedgehogs

It’s been a truly awful week. It started out nicely enough. I went, as usual, to Hana’s flat on Monday night for our regular film night. The film night started roughly when my marriage ended, a...


This entry is probably going to be a mish-mash of the crap in my head, and it might cause confusion, in which case, I apologise, but I’ve reached the conclusion that the best way to deal with all...


Shit, this is awful. I can only talk about it here, I can’t speak to anyone that I know because it’s so shameful and I feel really bad about it, but I can’t help myself, and I think I’m going to...


December 02, 2014

A small rant in Juggling with Hedgehogs

I really don’t know why I have to do this, but I know that if I don’t, I’ll be tempted to say something - probably the wrong thing - to the wrong person, and cause a big argument for no gain what...



I have to write here, because this stuff needs to come out, but I don’t want to make all my friends in the real world, or on facebook throw up in my face. There’s something about people being re...


The last entry I wrote here was June 6th. I suppose I owe you some sort of information about how things have been going. I guess the title of this entry should give some sort of clue, but that'...


It's only about 9 days since I wrote an entry in which I said I cry every day, that I can't see a way out of the hell, that all the men chasing me had been told I didn't want a relationship etc. ...


I don't know where to start really. The last time I wrote it was just after that dream. The dream put me into the worst phase of the depression and I became suicidal again. My lowest day was t...


I suppose the fact I'm still here is some kind of victory, but it doesn't feel that way to me. My closest family and friends are suffering from compassion fatigue. The people I need the most ar...


I've been writing private entries for a while, getting it all out, sorting through everything, trying to get my head on straight, but I need to say a few things in public, because first and forem...


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