Missing him and losing myself ⋅
Widowed after 14 years of marriage to a wonderful man. I was afraid to love again. Then, a bad relationship that should have ended much sooner than it did. The man I loved again was broken and didn't know how to show love. Now he is gone too.... Trying to figure my way as a widow once again...
At any given moment you have the power to say, "Thus is not how my story will end!"
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I'm hollow in For Johnny
I feel hollow in side. The only time I feel alive is when I’m taking about you to someone and that usually ends in tears. I haven’t been able to work since you got sick. I just cant focus. My bl...
November 13th in For Johnny
You’ve been gone almost two months now. I found out that your family didn’t spread your ashes the weekend after your birthday. No one had time to get together it seems. Makes me so sad, my heart ...
Afraid in For Johnny
I can’t do this without you. I don’t want to do this without you. Im doing things I’m not proud of to forget myself, the only problem is I keep waking up the next day and feeling like I failed yo...
Memorial service in For Johnny
Yesterday your family spread your ashes at Lake charleston. I miss you so much baby. I wanted to be there but the kids didn’t feel it was right Julie was there I know you would have hated that. N...
Your brother and your things in For Johnny
B and Sandra have been after me to get your things together. I finally did it tonight. They also informed me the Jer was given your fish that you mounted. I’m letting them have the biggest one a...
Today you turn 54 in For Johnny
Happy birthday Johnny! I talked to B for a little bit. Shasta was here driving me crazy. She said some things to Bob that I will likely have to fix with Sandra. She also took something when she ...
Happy Birthday in For Johnny
Tomorrow you would have been 54. All I can think of is the conversation we had a month before you died. I told you if your life didn’t change I honestly could not seeing you making your 55 birthd...
You were right in For Johnny
Johnny, I miss you so much. I hate that I’m not looking at the door and expecting you to walk through it. The first 2 weeks that’s all I did. I expected you to walk in the door and say you chang...
Johnny in For Johnny
Baby I miss you so much. I want to be in your arms again. I crave the feeling of your lips touching mine. I would give up the breath in my body just to hear you utter the words I love you Babe on...
Another day fonr in Life after death
J has been gone almost a week now. I’ve been back home since Sunday. This house is so unbearably quiet. The bed is so empty. I do not handle being alone well at all. I keep expecting him to walk ...
