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I feel hollow in side. The only time I feel alive is when I’m taking about you to someone and that usually ends in tears. I haven’t been able to work since you got sick. I just cant focus. My bl...

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You’ve been gone almost two months now. I found out that your family didn’t spread your ashes the weekend after your birthday. No one had time to get together it seems. Makes me so sad, my heart ...

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I can’t do this without you. I don’t want to do this without you. Im doing things I’m not proud of to forget myself, the only problem is I keep waking up the next day and feeling like I failed yo...

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Yesterday your family spread your ashes at Lake charleston. I miss you so much baby. I wanted to be there but the kids didn’t feel it was right Julie was there I know you would have hated that. N...

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B and Sandra have been after me to get your things together. I finally did it tonight. They also informed me the Jer was given your fish that you mounted. I’m letting them have the biggest one a...

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Happy birthday Johnny! I talked to B for a little bit. Shasta was here driving me crazy. She said some things to Bob that I will likely have to fix with Sandra. She also took something when she ...

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Tomorrow you would have been 54. All I can think of is the conversation we had a month before you died. I told you if your life didn’t change I honestly could not seeing you making your 55 birthd...

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Johnny, I miss you so much. I hate that I’m not looking at the door and expecting you to walk through it. The first 2 weeks that’s all I did. I expected you to walk in the door and say you chang...

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Baby I miss you so much. I want to be in your arms again. I crave the feeling of your lips touching mine. I would give up the breath in my body just to hear you utter the words I love you Babe on...

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