Sagittarienne ⋅
Just a thirty-something gal navigating life at home with a loving husband, two living children, and a recent full term stillbirth.
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I love the fall. Loved. Anyway. Season changes kind of suck right now. With summer came warmer temps mismatched to the way I felt. Now with fall, Anxiety Girl is wound really tight right now. Tim...
The school year is slowly falling into a rhythm. We arent morning people, so we have a few wrinkles to iron out in wake up times, but overall I’m seeing a much more productive girl in terms of ge...
In Stitches in 2017
Curiosity got the best of me and I decided to look into Stitch Fix. I’d seen advertisements and could see its appeal. Who doesnt love ‘blind boxes’? And I’m not super fashion forward so I could s...
Mid Year Resolution in 2017
My basement smells divine right now. I’ve done the past couple loads of laundry with some washer whiffs added to the loads. Black raspberry vanilla. (Its a Scentsy thing, if you didnt know). I st...
My sweet, sweet Ivy girl. One year ago I was 18 weeks pregnant, and just starting to feel your movements. Facebook will remind me of these things, and I know the string of reminders is just start...
Collateral Damages in 2017
If I allow too much time to pass between entries, I seem to lose my mojo. Catching up seems a lofty task…do I summarize the overall gist of things? Hit on the key notes? Pick up with this exact m...
Family Fun in 2017
Yesterday we ventured to my parent’s vacation trailer, about an hour out of town. The sun was shining and the weather was mid-upper 80s. A great day for fun! We managed to get out of our house ea...
Family Fun in 2017
Yesterday we ventured to my parent’s vacation trailer, about an hour out of town. The sun was shining and the weather was mid-upper 80s. A great day for fun! We managed to get out of our house ea...
Losing Ivy broke me. It shattered me into a million pieces and overwhelmed me with feelings so heavy I feared I would never move again. But....having small children dependent on me forced me to...
Intended Sisters in 2017
A surprise catch by our photographer, this picture still makes me stop in my tracks each time I see it. It’s one of the only photos I’ll ever have of my girls together. The girls that I imagined...
In Search of.... in 2017
One of the things I was super looking forward to about having a Little Sister, was matchy clothes. With Fi being 6, I probably have only a year or so where she wouldn’t mind something like that. ...
Unseasonable in 2017
Its on the chilly side here today. Its about 72 right now, and its really not going to get much warmer. But tomorrow is ten degrees hotter. And then in lower 90s by Wednesday. Oh, Chicago weather...
Knowledge Gap in 2017
I feel like there are a lot of things someone should know. For after their baby dies. Only, you cant know beforehand. Because that is scary stuff, and nobody wants to think about worst case scena...
Tomorrow Matt goes back to work. Good gravy, our bank account needs that to happen. Refilling the accounts with OUR money (not hand outs) will start to relieve some of my anxieties about finances...
Bear(squared) and School in 2017
My Ivy Bear arrived on Thursday. 5lbs and 12oz of teddy bear. https://www.snapfish.com/photo-gift/share?via=link&token=rumVduQLejCnRvHRtEeoMw/AUS/27945638123070/SNAPFISH Im happy to have it,...
Fourth and RTW in 2017
<script async="" src="//embedr.flickr.com/assets/client-code.js" charset="utf-8"></script> Still trying to figure out this photo thing. Something I’m doing is wrong, but at least y’al...
Not last night but the night before, I envisioned her. Toddler her. Im not sure that I was fully sleeping, it may have been in the moments before sleep hits. She was so sweet to see. Wispy light ...
I’m going to take a (hopefully quick) minute to talk about some of the insanity in my brain. The things I havent acknowledged because they are either preposterous or really too inane to deserve a...
Birthy stuff in 2017
Because I’m silly, I bought pregnancy tests. Two different packs, actually. Blue dye ones, not the expensive FRERs. The first test, taken at night, was negative. The second, faulty. So I bought a...
Im Not an Addict in 2017
I tend to start entries (through my internal dialogue) several times a day. And then once Im at the computer I feel like I’ve nothing to contribute. Or the things I feel like saying are all over ...
Whew!! Lake Geneva was great. Im so glad my bff Ashley was able to meet us at the hotel and stay Wednesday night into Thursday. Its definitely easier to wrangle kiddos with a sidekick. And, it w...
Write, Right? in 2017
I need to be packing for Lake Geneva. My car leaves in 2.5 hours. Really wont be too bad. One suitcase for our clothes for 2 nights and 2 days (not including whats currently on our bodies). Piece...
Im rather irritable today. RAWR. I wish my silly period would come already so I could just be done with this mood. I’ve cried twice now in the past week for Ivy, and in some ways thats good becau...
Fathers Day went off without a hitch. Matt got to sleep in and then relax…I had a mid-afternoon nap and then we went to my parents for dinner. Im not sure what changed in the night time hours, o...
Moody Panda in 2017
Feelings are dumb. Based on my slight cramping and general mood I would guess AF is close to arriving. Which is its own can of worms because A) I was never regular before Ivy (now its roughly eve...
