Moody Panda in 2017

Feelings are dumb. Based on my slight cramping and general mood I would guess AF is close to arriving. Which is its own can of worms because

A) I was never regular before Ivy (now its roughly every month give or take a couple days). In fact, it took 15 months and 5 rounds of clomid to conceive Orion.

B) The delusional part of my head still wishes to be pregnant every damn cycle even though I know its medically improbable and just not good timing anyway.

I know its motherloving hormones…but Im being all sad panda that aside from his 2-3 NA meetings a week, once he leaves the program he will need probably 2x weekly meetings to monitor his suboxone. Thats 5 out of 7 nights a week Im flying solo.

Right in this moment I guess Im just feeling sad and needed to get it out there somewhere.