Anxieties in 2017

Tomorrow Matt goes back to work. Good gravy, our bank account needs that to happen. Refilling the accounts with OUR money (not hand outs) will start to relieve some of my anxieties about finances. Being in a place where I’m eagle eyeing my accounts hoping nothing else auto-debits, is stressful. I never want to be here again.

He had therapy today, and went to a meeting, and has an alternate route to take to/from work. All those things are positive. I just need to “woo-sah” my way through the long days where he has work and an appointment/meeting of some sort. Those days where the kids won’t see him at all.....

Nope. Not going there now. The first day like that doesnt happen until next week. Cant think about it now.

Mom starts radiation on the 24th. M-F, for four consecutive weeks. She is one tough, tough cookie. But I know the anticipation of what her body will be going through is riddling my anxiety too.

So here I sit, on my computer, trying to find words of some sort. While I ignore the noises of the kids jumping around like elephants. Its an-hour-past-bedtime kind of late, and we are waiting on Daddy to be back from his meeting. In this life that somehow is my reality.