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It’s weird to say that I have the day off. I just had eleven months off. I think that I’m going to get a haircut. I have only been making purchases of things that I need. Strictly! Come payday I ...

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You know that feeling you get when a sad song comes on and speaks to your soul? That’s how I feel after my lunch breaks. No song triggers me but instead, I am triggered by thoughts of my previous...

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I woke up feeling a little guilty because I don’t think I like this new job so far. I’m trying to! It’s not the people I work with or anything. I’m not sure I even know why. It’s pretty early in ...

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I struggled to fall asleep a bit last night. I’ll be honest that I’m used to playing Skyrim until my eyes bleed. I haven’t given my meds much of a chance to do their duty. Whenever I try my monke...

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Tomorrow I start a new job for the first time in fourteen years. I’m trying not to overthink it or try and predict how it is going to go. I just want to get the first day over with. Somebody orde...

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After my entry yesterday I remembered how I can’t do things my way because they have not been working so I went ahead and got my prescription. My dizzy spells went away almost immediately. I let ...

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I’m trying not to commit to my depression today. I saw it coming a mile away. I had a glass of wine last night because I’m a questionably strong codependent biracial woman who can’t get no man. I...

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I’m getting tired of not waking up on a tropical island with a cabana boy next to me. Can anyone else relate? For a week now I’ve been struck with crazy dizzy spells. The best way to describe it...

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Bev asked for a pretty big favour from me. She has a job opportunity that will pay well and that has great hours and benefits and that would allow her to provide better for her family. She doesn’...

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I don’t feel nervous about the interview today. Not yet anyway. That will likely change the moment I pull up to the building. Worry and excited are the same physical experience so all I have to d...

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I have a job interview on Friday at an art supply store. I’m pretty confident about it. I’m 99.99% sure that I will land it with my interview skills. Unless that is something that is done online ...

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I feel sad today. I don’t have any context for it. I feel like I should overthink it so I can innerstand but I really don’t want to. We celebrated my mother’s 52nd birthday this weekend. Miranda...

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I was paying attention to my thoughts this morning before I got out of bed. They were pretty healthy I must say. Did I level up and become a person with healthy positive thoughts and healthy posi...

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Last weekend my mother invited me over for a visit and the script I gave her was that she wanted to talk about herself. I was wrong it was an intervention. My life sucks and my situation is sad a...

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I laid in bed until around 12:30 today. I am tired of waking up tired. I know that this is the meds. While I was laying there I was thinking about all of the things I am not doing because of my a...

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I went to Bev’s yesterday to watch the Fifth Element. She’s never seen it and it’s not that the movie is good or anything but like, come on mam! I was a Stan of Tricky and he’s in it so I loved t...

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Well done you. You became an addict. You found a way out and a way to deal with your feelings. Russel Brand does feel that we need to applaud ourselves for trying to find ways to cope. We are all...

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Step 1: Are you fucked? This time last year I was telling my therapist that I was the best I had ever been but I was still unhappy and lost. I was powerless to my anxiety. I did not know how to b...

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I woke up in a decent mood today. I’m not sure how that happened after my nightmare of a dream last night. I’ve been waiting for the vivid dreams to start happening from the medication and it fin...

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I woke up feeling gross. I have been feeling some type of way after my previous entry. I wrote that a few days ago and it apparently didn’t even publish. It’s out there now. I was actually gross ...

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Am I ready to change? Like, am I actually ready to change? On some level, I don’t think I am. I don’t think I have actually opened myself up to change. I’m not ready to let go of behaviours &...

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I don’t know what it is about early mornings that feel so delicate. Nobody else is up yet, maybe that’s it? Leanne made reservations for us at Stella’s and I am trying to not feel nervous but I c...

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I just finished watching Bombshell. I have been waiting for months for this. A few months after I was fired from my job I downloaded Gretchen Carlson’s audiobook Be Fierce from Audile. I learned ...

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You’re not bored, lazy or unmotivated you’re afraid. I am so glad that I came across this video. I overslept today and I am probably going to beat myself up over it because I have to admit to my...

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I woke up feeling a lot better than I did yesterday. So far anyway. It was clear that I am coming down with something shortly after I wrote my last entry. I’m not going crazy. Although, I just go...

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