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I feel great I feel amazing just like I did on Saturday and now I know it is because I went out and interacted with another human being so it is clear that I need to get out more. Brucey and I fi...


Put your hands on your chest and over your heart. Visualize the kind of person that you want to be. Ask your heart what beliefs you have that are in the way of becoming that person. Your heart wi...


Basically I can’t tell if I am on the brink of having a breakthrough or if I am on the brink of having a breakdown. Internally, I didn’t realize how constipated my brain was. How cluttered it all...


Last night I dreamt that I was standing at a beach in Australia. I did not tell anybody that I ran away from home. The dream ended with me walking around an apartment like Lisa Loeb but I was sin...


6 days ago

Beliefs in Current Events

After my entry yesterday I did what I do best, I pretended that pain isn’t happening to me. After I reckoned with what is hurting me I failed to rumble with it. Today though! I woke up prepared, ...


7 days ago

Rumbling in Current Events

I woke up feeling half decent. Yesterday evening I was flustered and stressed about doing something that I did not want to do, look at my finances. It was a couple of hours with high anxiety unti...


November 12, 2019

Affirm in Current Events

I woke up and had that brief moment of peace for the first time in months. That moment before my mind floods my conscious with the day to day thoughts. I wish I would never wake up again was my r...


I can’t even get through one page in the book that I am reading, Rising Strong by Brene Brown. I can’t tame my thoughts. What is my hurt? What is the hurt that I am hiding from? What did I bury f...


November 07, 2019

Results in Current Events

I met my new doctor today. He’s a fucking sweetheart. I can’t with him. He’s like a big jolly Johnathan Van Ness. On his desk, he had a little rainbow unicorn shrine moment. It was a rainbow teat...


November 06, 2019

Forward in Current Events

I’m doing another round on Indeed. This time I actually threw my resume around a bit. Originally I did not want a manager position of any kind but that’s all that I barely qualify for that pays a...


November 06, 2019

Emotion Phobic in Current Events

This morning, as I tried to pick up where I left off in Brene Brown’s book Rising Strong I realized that I had to start that book from the beginning. It took me two and a half hours to get throug...


November 05, 2019

Ermagerd in Current Events

As I finally have some time and space to myself today I got to let my guard down and see what emotions wanted to come through. I’m jacked up and busted folks. I’m so irrevocably broken and desper...


November 05, 2019

Reality Check in Current Events

I am supposed to be conquering my morning routine, which I am not failing miserably at I just feel like I woke up with a hangover. This happened yesterday also. I stopped drinking days ago so I d...


November 04, 2019

Miracle Morning in Mindset Monday

Daylight savings created an opportunity for me to go to bed earlier. I’m that much closer to joining the 5am club. Mornings shape our whole day and that is why I am trying to create that perfect ...


My search on how to find answers seems to point to meditation. I really don’t want to be that hippie vegan who meditates and collects healing crystals. Hi amethyst, lupus and quartz on my shelf a...


November 02, 2019

Sideways in Current Events

My anxiety has been unreasonably high today. Since that damn wedding from a few weeks ago actually. I’ll disown the next friend that sends me a wedding invitation. It’s too fucking stressful for ...


I’ve only got about thirty pages of material for my “Boss Up Book” so far. Just from minimal research and from various motivational speakers. I am writing it for myself, I’m making an ultimate ac...


October 31, 2019

TOMmorrow in Current Events

I am trying to outsmart myself. To outsmart my procrastination. Yesterday, on my computer I split my screen between two websites. One is the page where I upload my resume and the other is my bank...


October 30, 2019

Screamer in Current Events

Last night while I had the house to myself I did something that I haven’t done since I was a preteen. I screamed. I screamed a lot. I screamed at everything. I screamed so hard that I could feel ...


October 29, 2019

Balance in Current Events

I’m not in control of my anxiety & depression as I once thought. I inadvertently starved myself yesterday. I then intentionally ate something that I knew was going to make me feel nauseous to...


October 28, 2019

Direct Retaliation in Current Events

I just finished the chapter in Gretch Carlson’s Be Fierce that I was waiting for. I now have a term for what happened to me. After I reported sexual harassment, I experienced Direct Retaliation. ...


October 27, 2019

Search in Current Events

I’m almost a quarter of the way into Gretchen Carlson’s book Be Fierce and I can’t even believe how bad workplaces are for women! Even I have a history of being an enabler and I didn’t even have ...


October 27, 2019

Mood Born Illness in Current Events

Guess what I’m doing with my life today? That’s right! Nothing! I am crippled by fear & anxiety and have not found my way around it. Yet. Maybe I will not hesitate and do something that will ...


October 26, 2019

iDumb in Current Events

I’m so gagged. I decided to join the 21st century and download Audible. I get one credit for the 30-day free trial and I accidentally used it to download the wrong book. I wanted Mel Robbin’s aud...


October 26, 2019

Ayahuasca Curious in Current Events

My sleep could not have been worse. All that I can think about is everything my previous employers get away with. It was the six-month anniversary of being fired so naturally, it was just going t...


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