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Getting ahold of my doctor is proving to be a challenge. I am not enjoying the feeling of being hungover in the mornings from my medication. I don’t think it was a mistake trying thing his way an...

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[Mild Spoiler Warning] My roommates spontaneously left town for the day. They spent the night in Anola. It was a pleasant surprise. I enjoyed having some time and space to myself. I didn’t do any...

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I had to carry the weight of my depression around with me for most of the day yesterday. I felt heartbroken without any context. That’s just the way depression goes I guess. I didn’t let it make ...

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I have the world wide web tuned out. The virtual people at least. Just for a while because I have been creating space and distance from all of the wrong things. I fell asleep Sunday feeling prett...

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I don’t know what compelled me to sit through an “inspiring” speech by a priest about those who “suffer” from same-sex attraction. I was thinking about my own identity as a gay man this morning a...

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I still remain attached to the things that keep me radically distracted. I suppose that on some level I feel that creating distance between me and my goals is protecting me from failure. I need t...

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I managed to get my crying on but from an unexpected source. I learned a thing or two about how some materials are sourced for vaccinations and I could not wait to wake up this so morning so I co...

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I’ve been lethargic all day today. Also nauseous but I believe that one is due to my roommates. They had meatballs in their slow cooker all day and so the house smelt like something died and has ...

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Pardon my melodramatic entry title but I can’t stir up my insides today. I failed to not be overstimulated but I did not know what else to do today. I had a few beers in the afternoon, I played w...

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I’ve already said this but I am getting too attached to politics. I don’t have to let it take up so much space in my life but it just feels desperate because of the US election this November. The...

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This time last year I was trying to get over my job loss. I was starting to believe that I would never get over it. One of the best things to happen for me even though the circumstances really af...

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According to Nick Cannon, white people are acting out a deficiency of melanin. Melanin connects people to the sun and to each other which creates compassion. White people are soulless and evil an...

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I’m wondering if I can fit a bike in my car. I have a hatchback and if I lay the back seats down I can probably squeeze one in there. I need a hobby and taking my bike to bike trails sounds good ...

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Things are not exactly out of my control. I can’t let myself feel this way. I am starting to feel sad and I don’t want to commit that. I can literally just decide to feel bliss. Somehow, someway....

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I had a few glasses of wine while visiting my mother yesterday. Apparently wine hits me hard when I go months without a drop. I’m mad at myself for bringing up my goals. It doesn’t feel good over...

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My sister was in town this weekend. It was nice to see her. My brother and I Facetimed the other day also. He told me about the work that is available where he is. Some of the stuff he was saying...

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I feel at a loss for words. I am sitting here in my room with my beer feeling kind of lost. Not because of my new haircut which I haven’t even looked at yet. I feel at a crossroads? I’ve been kee...

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I am completely letting myself down. I cannot will myself to do anything. I have no pull to pull me through. Am I going to spend this entire entry whining? I feel as though I am just waiting for ...

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I did not sleep well. I had a panic attack that lasted hours. Yesterday my sister gave me a deadline to move out. October/November. A deadline might just be what I need so I am not hurt by it. I ...

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I do follow PragerU and they posted a clip from The Dennis Prager Show where Dennis interviewed Abigail Shier about her upcoming book about an issue that has been disproportionately affecting you...

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My anxiety woke me up. I spent the day yesterday offline and disconnected from myself completely. How? Easy! I played Skyrim the entire day. I suppose that time & space brought my real feelin...

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I failed myself miserably yesterday. I should beat myself up over it but even that is too much work. I’ll try harder today. It’s off to a good start, I managed to not sleep in. In the book that I...

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I have been too attached to politics. I need to get back to focusing on things that give me health. I’ll find a balance, I’m not worried about that. I spent most of my day outside yesterday. List...

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Finally! Someone has stepped up to challenge me on my ideals. Alan Watts once said that a person does not know what they truly think until they’ve had a debate. That is what got me to start liste...

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