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These three things are not long hidden. The sun and the moon and the truth. In November a few colleagues of mine from various store locations had a dilemma that they brought to my attention becau...

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I haven’t updated in a while. I felt like all I do is whine about myself and I have been trying to be more proactive. Life is happen for us and not to us. I linked up with the guy I have always ...

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I’m just not in the same place that I was before and I am not the same man I was before and quite frankly I am tired of being around bad vibes. Everybody seems to think that they are falling apar...

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I felt that weight on my chest. I laid myself down on my sofa to rest up and I woke up on my bed. I wasn’t awake but I was conscious. If that makes sense. I started my way out of bed only to snap...

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Lately a lot of my thoughts have been manifesting. Small things like a random craving for an Indian dish that an employee of mine made me once. She surprised me with it the next day. Other things...

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I have been pretty speechless. I am not sure what happened but my depression undermined all the hard work I had put into myself this last few years. I didn’t exactly fall apart and lose control o...

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I had everything under control until I relapsed with my anxiety and depression. It started a couple weeks when everything blew up in my face at work. I had the business sitting pretty, we were th...

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Ever troll somebody that you used to have a crush on to see what they’re up to? If you haven’t, don’t. Why did I do that to myself? I still feel like I am going through some heavy shit when I’m n...

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I woke up feeling pretty bummed out. My mind is comparing myself to the success of others and it is making me jealous. There is a young woman in my city I follow on Instagram, she bought a beauti...

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Gains for somebody like me is hard to get. I am already naturally too thin and I just altered my diet to lower my body fat so I can look more cut instead. Basically I am trying to get my abs to c...

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I’m sitting in my dark room where I have spent most of my day. At my computer desk with my scented candle and my lemon, mint water. I have instrumental music playing in the background and I’m try...

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I been seeing 2:22 everywhere and my superstitious side has been waiting for something to manifest in my life. I assumed that yesterday something would happen when a guy I have a small crush on w...

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About a month ago I think I figured out what I want to be when I grow up. I had a passion this whole time and I didn’t even realize what it was. Nutrition. I have a career counsellor that I am go...

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Everything is going right on all fronts. I’m finally running my own store at work. I’ve bounced back from Christmas in record timing. My physical health has never been better. My relationship wit...

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I got myself so flustered this morning when I woke up. Yesterday I did everything I didn’t want to do. I went out to eat, I went shopping and made purchases that I did not need, I went to the cas...

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I wrote down an action plan for 2018. It literally gives me anxiety just thinking about it. Today I started a new piece of my 2018 journey. I am hoping that tomorrow will be the start of somethin...

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I don’t know what I was expecting when I got all my friends back together last night. I mean we had a blast and we were beside ourselves that we were all together again. My birthday was a good ex...

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Not a lot of people know this but quitting masturbation is hard (no pun intended). The no fap movement is suppose to do wonders for my social anxiety and I am desperate. I deleted a terabyte wort...

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I’ll be honest, the vegan jokes get to me. We had our annual gathering for our birthdays and we always order pizza but I made my own and let everybody try some. I made good shit, way better than ...

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I was carrying so much anger yesterday. I am feeling it today also. I can barely contain it. Control it? I feel powerless in a lot of the circumstances that make me feel so trapped right now but ...

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Every time I visit my mother we end up in a debate or argument about my vegan lifestyle. Today she was extra judgmental and opinionated about a lot things and situations in my life. When did we b...

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My operations manager is allegedly fraternizing with his assistant from the store that I worked at last year. That assistant and I were pretty close during our time together. My operations manage...

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I don’t know how to make sense of this experience but I dove deep into myself yesterday. Through all the appointments and notifications and into the thoughts that I don’t like to think about. I w...

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My social anxiety is pretty high right now for the lamest reason. Tyler is moving to a different province and tonight is his goodbye party and I just don’t know why I have been obsessing over how...

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I don’t know what came over me yesterday. I spent a chunk of my morning laying on the floor in my room. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest was too tight and my heart was pins and needles. I had...

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