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I laid in bed until around 12:30 today. I am tired of waking up tired. I know that this is the meds. While I was laying there I was thinking about all of the things I am not doing because of my a...


I went to Bev’s yesterday to watch the Fifth Element. She’s never seen it and it’s not that the movie is good or anything but like, come on mam! I was a Stan of Tricky and he’s in it so I loved t...


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Steps in Current Events

Well done you. You became an addict. You found a way out and a way to deal with your feelings. Russel Brand does feel that we need to applaud ourselves for trying to find ways to cope. We are all...


Step 1: Are you fucked? This time last year I was telling my therapist that I was the best I had ever been but I was still unhappy and lost. I was powerless to my anxiety. I did not know how to b...


January 17, 2020

Decent Mood in Current Events

I woke up in a decent mood today. I’m not sure how that happened after my nightmare of a dream last night. I’ve been waiting for the vivid dreams to start happening from the medication and it fin...


January 16, 2020

Messy Mind in Current Events

I woke up feeling gross. I have been feeling some type of way after my previous entry. I wrote that a few days ago and it apparently didn’t even publish. It’s out there now. I was actually gross ...


Am I ready to change? Like, am I actually ready to change? On some level, I don’t think I am. I don’t think I have actually opened myself up to change. I’m not ready to let go of behaviours &...


January 12, 2020

Restrictions in Current Events

I don’t know what it is about early mornings that feel so delicate. Nobody else is up yet, maybe that’s it? Leanne made reservations for us at Stella’s and I am trying to not feel nervous but I c...


January 09, 2020

Be Fierce in Current Events

I just finished watching Bombshell. I have been waiting for months for this. A few months after I was fired from my job I downloaded Gretchen Carlson’s audiobook Be Fierce from Audile. I learned ...


January 09, 2020

Unwritten in Current Events

You’re not bored, lazy or unmotivated you’re afraid. I am so glad that I came across this video. I overslept today and I am probably going to beat myself up over it because I have to admit to my...


January 08, 2020

Blah in Current Events

I woke up feeling a lot better than I did yesterday. So far anyway. It was clear that I am coming down with something shortly after I wrote my last entry. I’m not going crazy. Although, I just go...


January 07, 2020

Imposter in Current Events

I can’t get my energy up. I can barely peel myself off the couch. My head feels like it is stoned all of the time. It doesn’t hurt, it feels good, to be honest, but it’s a bit disturbing because ...


34 times around the sun. I don’t feel like today is any special but it’s my Birthday. I’ll get a couple of texts and that’s probably it. It’s all good. I am a little disturbed about yesterday. I ...


My first thought this morning was about how I am not living my life out loud. These dense energies that I am going through are getting worse… but I have faith that it is because I am learning how...


December 31, 2019

2019 in Current Events

Just before I decided to get out of bed I rolled over to see what the time was on my alarm clock. 11:11. I took that as a good sign. It’s New Year’s eve and I usually like to reflect but I don’t ...


December 30, 2019

Strong Enough in Current Events

I had the house to myself yesterday evening. It was just what the doctor ordered. Basically I just played Skyrim without having to wear clothes around the house. I married Onmund and we live toge...


December 29, 2019

Ground in Current Events

I woke up feeling good again. Maybe it is the meds? I also woke up at noon which is seven hours away from the time that I want to be getting up. I want to join the 5am club. It’s my new gaming ad...


December 28, 2019

Mood Forecast: Decent in Current Events

My cat woke me up this morning by falling on my face. I don’t know what he was trying to do with his life or how he managed to free fall on my face but it happened. He’s chunky yet funky and it h...


December 27, 2019

Yuh in Current Events

Over the span of eight hours, I drank an entire bottle of wine. Oops! I was up until four in the morning playing Skyrim and I didn’t even sleep in today. I should feel like shit but I don’t. What...


December 26, 2019

Boxing Day Brunch in Current Events

It’s all over for me. The holidays I mean. I don’t know why I have such animosity toward Christmas, I don’t actually hate it. I think it’s just the energy of everybody else being stressed out, hi...


December 25, 2019

Mary Christmas in Current Events

Merry Christmas everyone! So yeah I’m going to be that guy to complain on Christmas. My mother usually does a brunch for us because everybody just does Christmas with their partner’s families and...


“the most important decision any human being has to make is whether they live in a friendly or hostile universe” Albert Einstein I love this man! I’ll probably watch this a few times.


December 21, 2019

Rude Awakening in Current Events

I just had a rude awakening. First of all, I apparently needed 11 hours of sleep. I was running on three hours of sleep yesterday. I had a migraine all day. I don’t know if that was the meds or l...


December 19, 2019

Focus in Current Events

I wrote a complete list of things that I have been avoiding. From big things like dealing with my financial crisis to little things like putting air in my tires. I suppose that this list will be ...


December 18, 2019

It Will Get Better in Current Events

I’m officially medicated. I caved and I started my prescription last night. I’m relatable again. I don’t know how I feel today about anything. I’m not blaming the meds, it’s too soon for that. I ...


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