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November 30, 2018

Silver and Gold in Current Events

I have accepted that hair loss has come for me. I am eventually going to get around to finding myself a doctor again. Baldness does not run in my family so I am hoping that I have something as si...


November 29, 2018

Suspense in Current Events

Yesterday I had so much energy that I thought I was manic. I worked out for 3 hours and it did not die. I went for a half hour run before the snowfall and my energy did not die. I then took the d...


November 27, 2018

Waste in Current Events

Today was so wasteful. I accomplished nothing today. I was too tired to even care to try. I just let everything go and I don’t feel as bad about it as I thought I would have. Especially since I m...


November 24, 2018

Under Selfie Control in Current Events

I have been feeling more like myself again and it came from the dumbest reason. A month ago I bought a long top coat that I saw in a window. I had to fight with some prissy twink to take it off t...


November 13, 2018

Reality Check Please in Current Events

I have a history of sleep paralysis and the worst part of every experience is when I become aware that I am dreaming. I am conscious inside a nightmare and the attacks become real experiences for...


November 12, 2018

Said and done in Current Events

“His personal life is one thing but if he was having his affair at one of my stores then I have zero tolerance for that. I asked around and these claims seem pretty credible but I do not have con...


November 12, 2018

Return in Current Events

I return to work today. The headspace was nice. I got to think for myself for a whole week. I updated my resume yesterday morning. I redid the entire thing and i feel so confident about it. I’m g...


November 10, 2018

Desultory in Current Events

On Wednesday Leanne and I went to a musical together. Chicago. It was very well done. It was also my city’s first snowfall. It was a beautiful evening. I was so smitten by one of the guys on stag...


November 04, 2018

Grown in Quick Thoughts

I felt so damn good after I wrote my last entry. I felt like I took a huge load off my feet and I had a good day today. I should write more often. I was talking to a kid at work today, a twenty ...


November 03, 2018

Long Story Short in Current Events

There were a lot of boxes that I hadn’t unpacked since I moved into my sisters. I was close to bankruptcy when I had my nervous breakdown. I was about ready to do a consumer proposal when my sist...


It is embarrassing when I have a moment and just whine like a spoiled brat. I just feel so much better for bit. I at least go numb to what hurts me. . Want to know something weird? I got a haircu...


October 24, 2018

Pity Party For One in Current Events

I saw a specialist for my acne scarring and she gave me the truth like nobody has ever given it to me before. “I want you to have realistic expectations and understand that a scar is a scar and i...


Allow me to sound crazy for a moment. . The first time was when one of my childhood friends passed away in high school. It was the start of senior year and I was the last person that she spoke t...


October 10, 2018

2018 fail in Current Events

*I feel like I have failed at everything I wanted to do this year. * I shut that thought down as soon as it comes up but it’s been eating away at me. I’ve been purging my social media. Deleted al...


October 05, 2018

Breather in Current Events

I am balancing quite a bit lately and I have been so irrevocably exhausted and that has been afffecting my ability to cope with stress. Between getting up with my niece during the week and then g...


These three things are not long hidden. The sun and the moon and the truth. In November a few colleagues of mine from various store locations had a dilemma that they brought to my attention becau...


September 05, 2018

No shortcut to a dream in Current Events

I haven’t updated in a while. I felt like all I do is whine about myself and I have been trying to be more proactive. Life is happen for us and not to us. I linked up with the guy I have always ...


July 06, 2018

Good vibes only in Current Events

I’m just not in the same place that I was before and I am not the same man I was before and quite frankly I am tired of being around bad vibes. Everybody seems to think that they are falling apar...


June 16, 2018

Dream Paralysis in Current Events

I felt that weight on my chest. I laid myself down on my sofa to rest up and I woke up on my bed. I wasn’t awake but I was conscious. If that makes sense. I started my way out of bed only to snap...


May 31, 2018

2.22 in Current Events

Lately a lot of my thoughts have been manifesting. Small things like a random craving for an Indian dish that an employee of mine made me once. She surprised me with it the next day. Other things...


May 25, 2018

Speechless in Current Events

I have been pretty speechless. I am not sure what happened but my depression undermined all the hard work I had put into myself this last few years. I didn’t exactly fall apart and lose control o...


March 31, 2018

Fading in Current Events

I had everything under control until I relapsed with my anxiety and depression. It started a couple weeks when everything blew up in my face at work. I had the business sitting pretty, we were th...


March 15, 2018

Breathe in Quick Thoughts

Ever troll somebody that you used to have a crush on to see what they’re up to? If you haven’t, don’t. Why did I do that to myself? I still feel like I am going through some heavy shit when I’m n...


I woke up feeling pretty bummed out. My mind is comparing myself to the success of others and it is making me jealous. There is a young woman in my city I follow on Instagram, she bought a beauti...


March 13, 2018

Instawhore moment in Current Events

Gains for somebody like me is hard to get. I am already naturally too thin and I just altered my diet to lower my body fat so I can look more cut instead. Basically I am trying to get my abs to c...


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