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My heart is breaking. My mother texted me the other day asking me when I was free to talk. This morning when she called me I assumed that she either wanted to apologize for the mood swing last w...

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I really wanted to be stronger than yesterday. Did I just break the ice with a Britney song? Sometimes, It’s just me against the music. Oops, I did it again. K! this is outrageous and toxic and I...

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Let’s grab a bite used to be words to my ears… back when I didn’t have to care about where my food came from. I don’t know what I ate recently that had dairy in it but I am running on just a coup...

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I hit up the mall with Toni today. I thought would have gotten me out of this funk but I was wrong. I stressed myself out trying to find something to wear. First I looked like I was trying too ha...

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I woke up with a little baby hangover and a really big bad mood. I just wanted to lay in bed and wallow in self-pity. Like what am I doing with my life? I just don’t want to handle anything right...

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I finally got to return to work today and I could tell that the place took a beating while I was away. I gave Karamjeet her present and I also packed some extra stuff from my lunch so that she co...

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So I apparently called my mother while she was in a bad mood. I’ve been going crazy here so I decided to give her a call so that I could talk to somebody instead of abusing Prosebox. She went off...

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You guys I just had a whole entry typed out when my computer decided to restart. Isn’t that fun? I did not wake up so stressed this morning. I must have accepted that I do not have any control ov...

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The doctor did not clear me for work. I can’t return until Monday. This week has been absolute shit. There is so much going on at my store right now and my boss told Karamjeet that he is, of cour...

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(this song was my mood all of yesterday) My boss is straight up not talking to me. Texting anyway. I know that I am overthinking it. It’s just that… well, it’s like this, he likes duality. Tom a...

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I woke up so stressed. After my entry yesterday I had both franchisees come to inspect my store. To inspect me actually. Karamjeet explained why I am off work for the rest of the week. I don’t th...

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It’s funny how I was talking about wanting a week off from work and then, as always, that opportunity manifested itself. Except that I woke up to so much work drama on my day off that I had to go...

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Literally in just one minute my decent mood was torn to filth by my toxic thinking. I made the mistake of checking my body out in the mirror and suddenly I can’t find a reason to live. I’m not su...

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My therapist and I have finally made it to my body image issues. I feel shallow that we even have to go there but whatever. Just fix me lol. Should I be flattered that I keep him up at night? I’m...

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My boss actually made an appearance at my store yesterday. He showed up while I was doing the bank run and he was on a full send rampage. I jumped into the crossfire so that he could tear into me...

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I suppose now that my depression subsided my anxiety has come out to play. I was immediately triggered when Karamjeet called me from work to update me on what she completed for me today. Also abo...

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I just woke up from a depression nap. I think it’s over now. That was an awful couple of weeks. I kind of feel shell shocked but I also just feel like I need to take a damn shower and clean mysel...

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Am I seriously going to spend the day in bed, depressed, and just listen to depressing music? Yes! I’ve surrendered to the pain. I have no fight in me today.

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I keep saying that things have been manifesting in my life. I mentioned that I wanted a companion of sorts in my last entry. One slid into my DMs lol. It’s so weird, he keeps crossing my mind bec...

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I try not to complain too much but today was just a shit show at work. Somebody had called in before I got there, my boss actually had time to swing by my location but before I could make it ther...

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Everything has lost meaning to me. Why am I doing anything? My depression and my anxiety caught up to me and I just want to surrender to it. I just feel so angry ALL THE TIME. I hate saying “I ne...

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The old me would be a complete mess right now. Everything felt like it was falling apart a few weeks ago and I held myself together pretty well I think. I need to learn to trust myself more. I’ve...

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Yesterday morning I was irritated that once again everybody was crashing my day off and I was going to miss out on my me time. When I was dropping my niece off I remembered what appointment my si...

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I do not have the requisite words that I need to express how I have been feeling the last couple of days. Everything was sitting pretty. My mental health has never been so strong, my body has nev...

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I finally had my first therapy session. I’m cured! I’m a white heterosexual male now and everything is going to be ok! lol. Man, I did not manage my time well this morning and I barely had much f...

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