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3 hours ago

Sorrow in Current Events

My heart is breaking. My mother texted me the other day asking me when I was free to talk. This morning when she called me I assumed that she either wanted to apologize for the mood swing last w...


I really wanted to be stronger than yesterday. Did I just break the ice with a Britney song? Sometimes, It’s just me against the music. Oops, I did it again. K! this is outrageous and toxic and I...


Let’s grab a bite used to be words to my ears… back when I didn’t have to care about where my food came from. I don’t know what I ate recently that had dairy in it but I am running on just a coup...


3 days ago

Quit in Current Events

I hit up the mall with Toni today. I thought would have gotten me out of this funk but I was wrong. I stressed myself out trying to find something to wear. First I looked like I was trying too ha...


4 days ago

Grip in Current Events

I woke up with a little baby hangover and a really big bad mood. I just wanted to lay in bed and wallow in self-pity. Like what am I doing with my life? I just don’t want to handle anything right...


5 days ago

Yuh in Current Events

I finally got to return to work today and I could tell that the place took a beating while I was away. I gave Karamjeet her present and I also packed some extra stuff from my lunch so that she co...


6 days ago

Ouch in Current Events

So I apparently called my mother while she was in a bad mood. I’ve been going crazy here so I decided to give her a call so that I could talk to somebody instead of abusing Prosebox. She went off...


7 days ago

High There in Current Events

You guys I just had a whole entry typed out when my computer decided to restart. Isn’t that fun? I did not wake up so stressed this morning. I must have accepted that I do not have any control ov...


March 15, 2019

Shocker in Current Events

The doctor did not clear me for work. I can’t return until Monday. This week has been absolute shit. There is so much going on at my store right now and my boss told Karamjeet that he is, of cour...


March 15, 2019

Buried Alive in Current Events

(this song was my mood all of yesterday) My boss is straight up not talking to me. Texting anyway. I know that I am overthinking it. It’s just that… well, it’s like this, he likes duality. Tom a...


I woke up so stressed. After my entry yesterday I had both franchisees come to inspect my store. To inspect me actually. Karamjeet explained why I am off work for the rest of the week. I don’t th...


March 13, 2019

Irony? in Current Events

It’s funny how I was talking about wanting a week off from work and then, as always, that opportunity manifested itself. Except that I woke up to so much work drama on my day off that I had to go...


March 13, 2019

Disappear in Current Events

Literally in just one minute my decent mood was torn to filth by my toxic thinking. I made the mistake of checking my body out in the mirror and suddenly I can’t find a reason to live. I’m not su...


March 13, 2019

Wine & Whine in Current Events

My therapist and I have finally made it to my body image issues. I feel shallow that we even have to go there but whatever. Just fix me lol. Should I be flattered that I keep him up at night? I’m...


March 10, 2019

Mood Poisoning in Current Events

My boss actually made an appearance at my store yesterday. He showed up while I was doing the bank run and he was on a full send rampage. I jumped into the crossfire so that he could tear into me...


March 06, 2019

Update in Current Events

I suppose now that my depression subsided my anxiety has come out to play. I was immediately triggered when Karamjeet called me from work to update me on what she completed for me today. Also abo...


I just woke up from a depression nap. I think it’s over now. That was an awful couple of weeks. I kind of feel shell shocked but I also just feel like I need to take a damn shower and clean mysel...


March 05, 2019

Surrender in Current Events

Am I seriously going to spend the day in bed, depressed, and just listen to depressing music? Yes! I’ve surrendered to the pain. I have no fight in me today.


February 28, 2019

Identity Issues in Current Events

I keep saying that things have been manifesting in my life. I mentioned that I wanted a companion of sorts in my last entry. One slid into my DMs lol. It’s so weird, he keeps crossing my mind bec...


February 24, 2019

Blah in Current Events

I try not to complain too much but today was just a shit show at work. Somebody had called in before I got there, my boss actually had time to swing by my location but before I could make it ther...


February 23, 2019

Catch My Breath in Current Events

Everything has lost meaning to me. Why am I doing anything? My depression and my anxiety caught up to me and I just want to surrender to it. I just feel so angry ALL THE TIME. I hate saying “I ne...


February 19, 2019

Aligned in Current Events

The old me would be a complete mess right now. Everything felt like it was falling apart a few weeks ago and I held myself together pretty well I think. I need to learn to trust myself more. I’ve...


February 13, 2019

Apparitions in Current Events

Yesterday morning I was irritated that once again everybody was crashing my day off and I was going to miss out on my me time. When I was dropping my niece off I remembered what appointment my si...


February 10, 2019

Time in Current Events

I do not have the requisite words that I need to express how I have been feeling the last couple of days. Everything was sitting pretty. My mental health has never been so strong, my body has nev...


I finally had my first therapy session. I’m cured! I’m a white heterosexual male now and everything is going to be ok! lol. Man, I did not manage my time well this morning and I barely had much f...


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