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I felt that weight on my chest. I laid myself down on my sofa to rest up and I woke up on my bed. I wasn’t awake but I was conscious. If that makes sense. I started my way out of bed only to snap...


May 31, 2018

2.22 in Current Events

Lately a lot of my thoughts have been manifesting. Small things like a random craving for an Indian dish that an employee of mine made me once. She surprised me with it the next day. Other things...


May 25, 2018

Speechless in Current Events

I have been pretty speechless. I am not sure what happened but my depression undermined all the hard work I had put into myself this last few years. I didn’t exactly fall apart and lose control o...


March 31, 2018

Fading in Current Events

I had everything under control until I relapsed with my anxiety and depression. It started a couple weeks when everything blew up in my face at work. I had the business sitting pretty, we were th...


March 15, 2018

Breathe in Quick Thoughts

Ever troll somebody that you used to have a crush on to see what they’re up to? If you haven’t, don’t. Why did I do that to myself? I still feel like I am going through some heavy shit when I’m n...


I woke up feeling pretty bummed out. My mind is comparing myself to the success of others and it is making me jealous. There is a young woman in my city I follow on Instagram, she bought a beauti...


March 13, 2018

Instawhore moment in Current Events

Gains for somebody like me is hard to get. I am already naturally too thin and I just altered my diet to lower my body fat so I can look more cut instead. Basically I am trying to get my abs to c...


March 05, 2018

Question in Current Events

I’m sitting in my dark room where I have spent most of my day. At my computer desk with my scented candle and my lemon, mint water. I have instrumental music playing in the background and I’m try...


February 23, 2018

Nice Try Universe. in Current Events

I been seeing 2:22 everywhere and my superstitious side has been waiting for something to manifest in my life. I assumed that yesterday something would happen when a guy I have a small crush on w...


February 07, 2018

When I grow up in Current Events

About a month ago I think I figured out what I want to be when I grow up. I had a passion this whole time and I didn’t even realize what it was. Nutrition. I have a career counsellor that I am go...


January 23, 2018

Passenger in Current Events

Everything is going right on all fronts. I’m finally running my own store at work. I’ve bounced back from Christmas in record timing. My physical health has never been better. My relationship wit...


January 18, 2018

Skin Deep in Current Events

I got myself so flustered this morning when I woke up. Yesterday I did everything I didn’t want to do. I went out to eat, I went shopping and made purchases that I did not need, I went to the cas...


January 17, 2018

Forward in Quick Thoughts

I wrote down an action plan for 2018. It literally gives me anxiety just thinking about it. Today I started a new piece of my 2018 journey. I am hoping that tomorrow will be the start of somethin...


January 14, 2018

Dumb drama in Current Events

I don’t know what I was expecting when I got all my friends back together last night. I mean we had a blast and we were beside ourselves that we were all together again. My birthday was a good ex...


January 11, 2018

Nofap in Quick Thoughts

Not a lot of people know this but quitting masturbation is hard (no pun intended). The no fap movement is suppose to do wonders for my social anxiety and I am desperate. I deleted a terabyte wort...


January 07, 2018

Salty in Current Events

I’ll be honest, the vegan jokes get to me. We had our annual gathering for our birthdays and we always order pizza but I made my own and let everybody try some. I made good shit, way better than ...


January 02, 2018

Anger in Current Events

I was carrying so much anger yesterday. I am feeling it today also. I can barely contain it. Control it? I feel powerless in a lot of the circumstances that make me feel so trapped right now but ...


December 21, 2017

2017 Reflection in Current Events

Every time I visit my mother we end up in a debate or argument about my vegan lifestyle. Today she was extra judgmental and opinionated about a lot things and situations in my life. When did we b...


My operations manager is allegedly fraternizing with his assistant from the store that I worked at last year. That assistant and I were pretty close during our time together. My operations manage...


November 17, 2017

My name is human in Current Events

I don’t know how to make sense of this experience but I dove deep into myself yesterday. Through all the appointments and notifications and into the thoughts that I don’t like to think about. I w...


November 09, 2017

Slay in Current Events

My social anxiety is pretty high right now for the lamest reason. Tyler is moving to a different province and tonight is his goodbye party and I just don’t know why I have been obsessing over how...


October 31, 2017

Imploded in Current Events

I don’t know what came over me yesterday. I spent a chunk of my morning laying on the floor in my room. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest was too tight and my heart was pins and needles. I had...


October 15, 2017

Push in Current Events

Out of nowhere my anxiety has returned and I do not care that it is back. I just realized that I had let it make all my decisions this week. All the wrong ones. The easy ones. The do nothings. . ...


September 26, 2017

One Day Or Day One in Current Events

I feel so unfocused when I have my snap streaks to keep up with and when I start to fill in the voids with scrolling through Facebook and Instagram. A couple weeks ago I deactivated my Facebook a...


September 24, 2017

Midlife crisis on route in Current Events

I was cleaning up my facial hair situation when I accidentally fucked it all up and had to remove it all to reset it. I had a goatee for a year now. I liked how people treated me differently. I w...


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