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2 days ago

Shallow End in Current Events

Getting ahold of my doctor is proving to be a challenge. I am not enjoying the feeling of being hungover in the mornings from my medication. I don’t think it was a mistake trying thing his way an...


[Mild Spoiler Warning] My roommates spontaneously left town for the day. They spent the night in Anola. It was a pleasant surprise. I enjoyed having some time and space to myself. I didn’t do any...


5 days ago

Pressure in Current Events

I had to carry the weight of my depression around with me for most of the day yesterday. I felt heartbroken without any context. That’s just the way depression goes I guess. I didn’t let it make ...


7 days ago

Gap in Current Events

I have the world wide web tuned out. The virtual people at least. Just for a while because I have been creating space and distance from all of the wrong things. I fell asleep Sunday feeling prett...


I don’t know what compelled me to sit through an “inspiring” speech by a priest about those who “suffer” from same-sex attraction. I was thinking about my own identity as a gay man this morning a...


July 24, 2020

Mood Poisoning in Current Events

I still remain attached to the things that keep me radically distracted. I suppose that on some level I feel that creating distance between me and my goals is protecting me from failure. I need t...



July 21, 2020

Feeling Better in Current Events

I managed to get my crying on but from an unexpected source. I learned a thing or two about how some materials are sourced for vaccinations and I could not wait to wake up this so morning so I co...


I’ve been lethargic all day today. Also nauseous but I believe that one is due to my roommates. They had meatballs in their slow cooker all day and so the house smelt like something died and has ...


Pardon my melodramatic entry title but I can’t stir up my insides today. I failed to not be overstimulated but I did not know what else to do today. I had a few beers in the afternoon, I played w...


July 19, 2020

Tompelled in Current Events

I’ve already said this but I am getting too attached to politics. I don’t have to let it take up so much space in my life but it just feels desperate because of the US election this November. The...


July 17, 2020

COVIDiot in Current Events

This time last year I was trying to get over my job loss. I was starting to believe that I would never get over it. One of the best things to happen for me even though the circumstances really af...


July 15, 2020

What's Going On? in Current Events

According to Nick Cannon, white people are acting out a deficiency of melanin. Melanin connects people to the sun and to each other which creates compassion. White people are soulless and evil an...


July 14, 2020

Forward Inward in Current Events

I’m wondering if I can fit a bike in my car. I have a hatchback and if I lay the back seats down I can probably squeeze one in there. I need a hobby and taking my bike to bike trails sounds good ...


July 13, 2020

Habits in Current Events

Things are not exactly out of my control. I can’t let myself feel this way. I am starting to feel sad and I don’t want to commit that. I can literally just decide to feel bliss. Somehow, someway....


July 13, 2020

Opening Up in Current Events

I had a few glasses of wine while visiting my mother yesterday. Apparently wine hits me hard when I go months without a drop. I’m mad at myself for bringing up my goals. It doesn’t feel good over...


My sister was in town this weekend. It was nice to see her. My brother and I Facetimed the other day also. He told me about the work that is available where he is. Some of the stuff he was saying...


July 11, 2020

Rumble in Current Events

I feel at a loss for words. I am sitting here in my room with my beer feeling kind of lost. Not because of my new haircut which I haven’t even looked at yet. I feel at a crossroads? I’ve been kee...


I am completely letting myself down. I cannot will myself to do anything. I have no pull to pull me through. Am I going to spend this entire entry whining? I feel as though I am just waiting for ...


July 09, 2020

Update in Current Events

I did not sleep well. I had a panic attack that lasted hours. Yesterday my sister gave me a deadline to move out. October/November. A deadline might just be what I need so I am not hurt by it. I ...


July 09, 2020

TERF alert in Current Events

I do follow PragerU and they posted a clip from The Dennis Prager Show where Dennis interviewed Abigail Shier about her upcoming book about an issue that has been disproportionately affecting you...


My anxiety woke me up. I spent the day yesterday offline and disconnected from myself completely. How? Easy! I played Skyrim the entire day. I suppose that time & space brought my real feelin...


July 03, 2020

Fail Whale in Current Events

I failed myself miserably yesterday. I should beat myself up over it but even that is too much work. I’ll try harder today. It’s off to a good start, I managed to not sleep in. In the book that I...


July 02, 2020

Latched in Current Events

I have been too attached to politics. I need to get back to focusing on things that give me health. I’ll find a balance, I’m not worried about that. I spent most of my day outside yesterday. List...


July 01, 2020

Hater Debater in Current Events

Finally! Someone has stepped up to challenge me on my ideals. Alan Watts once said that a person does not know what they truly think until they’ve had a debate. That is what got me to start liste...


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