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A comfort zone is a beautiful place but nothing ever grows there
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Weakend in Current Events
This week was long and full of terrors. The aggression was not a problem today. I managed to get the perfect amount of sleep. I did have a moment of weakness and snap at an entire department. It ...
Drained in Current Events
Is anger a mood disorder? (That was a rhetorical question) I knew how to manage my anxiety and depression. This anger I experience every morning is getting worse. All I want to do is physically h...
Hot Hot Heat in Current Events
My feet are struggling to keep up with me. At work, I hit a point where I could not let my heel touch the ground. It stung. My ankles are constantly aching. I don’t know what stretches I need to ...
Search Continues in Current Events
The 2014 Jeep Patriot I took for today’s test drive wasn’t too bad. The drive itself, at least. There were chips in the windshield and when I pointed them out the salesman tried to convince me th...
First World Things in Current Events
It’s been such a long week and it is only Monday. Did you know? I’ve never got to choose my own vehicle. On my walk to work this morning, I wondered why this felt like such a heavy decision. The...
Decisions Decisions in Current Events
I’m coming to my senses but I am still torn about what vehicle to get. I just need a vehicle for transportation. It is not a toy. The cost of the pre-owned Chargers are close to the cost of a bra...
So Close Yet So Far in Current Events
My mother is involving herself in my car search which is menacing but not necessarily a bad thing. She is just looking out for me. She doesn’t want me to make a big financial mistake. I have my h...
Veritas Ascendens in Current Events
My therapist gave me the missing piece. They are just thoughts. I explained that my mood disorders were missing in action for two weeks. Then they returned for two days. It made it easy to spot ...
Reconnection in Current Events
Today was long and full of terrors. I was counting down the minutes from the moment I woke up. There were no terrors today, I just wanted today to fly by. I do not have a shift tomorrow so I just...
Brain Burn in Current Events
It’s like I have acid reflux in my brain. It’s racing so hard it physically aches. It is becoming unbearable. My jaw also hurts because grinding my teeth is my stim. I want to go back to last wee...
White Flag in Current Events
Hello darkness, my old friend. I’ve come to talk to you again. It was good while it lasted. My mood disorders went on hiatus but they clocked in this morning. Their absence made it clear that it ...
D Deficient in Current Events
My NP doctor is treating me for a protein deficiency which plays a role in absorption, duh, but the more I look into it, the more it looks like it is something far simpler. Zinc. There are the ph...
Dilemma: I'm the Bad Guy in Current Events
Wake up in the morning feeling like P diddy I’m groggy, I just want to get to my coffee. That’s the vibe in the morning. The coffee is programmed to be ready for me when I wake up. On my way to i...
Nothing Burger in Current Events
I’m house-sitting for a friend until Sunday. Rodent-sitting, really. I have her car for the weekend which I’m looking forward to. It happened again. I know what this pattern is. Male-pattern bit...
Out of the Races and on to the Tracks in Current Events
I think I figured out why my mood disorders have not been an issue, not that I want to jinx it. There are a lot of factors but I think it’s mostly the sun. We are solar-powered. It was obvious to...
Wallflower in Current Events
Walking to the gym gives me time to think about how much my life sucks. Then I have to remind myself that I have Life Dysmorphia. I can’t see how good my life is. For starters, I am walking. I ca...
Moo in Current Events
Every Saturday starts the same way. I get triggered by my roommate. Her cheek, her nerve, her gall, her audacity, and her gumption. I do not want to let it ruin my day. I’ll let the rain take car...
Inner World Peace in Current Events
The calm before the storm. That’s the vibe. Ironically, we are in the middle of a severe storm as I type. I think all the areas of my psyche have agreed to a truce. I have inner world peace. I do...
Tom the Broken in Current Events
I did not go to bed pleased about my weekend last night. I feel like I wasted it. This is nothing new but I feel fed up, officially. ADHD, it’s like being told that there is something wrong with...
V for Vendetta in Current Events
Did you know? My snobby stupid roommate was offered 5K worth of CBD oil for free three times and said no. Lenstar, my ride-or-die, her baby daddy, Zerr, is a veteran who just canceled his lifetim...
Life Dysmorphia in Current Events
I was trembling during my therapy session today. Not from discussing my childhood trauma but from discussing what I’m truly passionate about. I talked about what I wanted to discuss in my podcast...
DOMS Top in Current Events
Everybody kept telling me to talk to my supervisor about doing light duties. I was too stubborn. It is obvious that I am in pain. What happened? Just leg day. I went too hard at the gym on Sunday...
Mundane Monday in Current Events
I forgot about the tension between my supervisor and I. Last week she was on holiday. It was a holiday that turned into a bereavement leave for her, unfortunately. Without us being micromanaged,...
Once More With Feeling in Current Events
It’s a beautiful day. It was a gorgeous weekend. It was a gorgeous week. They were the longest days of the year with the sun closest to its center of force. Happy Summer Solstice! I spent most o...
Rumination in Current Events
I have 99 problems and studying ain’t one. I feel weightless now that the semester is over. I feel aimless, I don’t know what my next move should be. School may not be exacerbating my mental heal...
