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16 hours ago

Is That A Bad Thing?

Part of being a dreamer and idealizer is that you have dreams and ideas with no ambition to make anything happen or change I get motivated to do stuff when I think I can see what the course is g...


So, I’m pre-diabetc, says my doctor. I walk this line of trying to eat better, but end up not eating at all. Since taking the meds she prescribed, I just feel like I’m forced to eat something. I’...


I get myself into situations that I know better…yet, I get into them. Then always want God to bail me out. I’m hard headed


7 days ago

I'm...Just...

I’m angry. I don’t know why, but I’m just angry. I might have an idea of why. …but eff it. I’m still cooking and still have a few items left to go. I’m sleepy. I’m pressing forward.


7 days ago

Day

I am on a couple of medications right now. Coupled with my sleeping weirdly and work, I’ve not been feeling my best. I went to bed after work. Well, I cleaned my stove off really good and washed ...


November 24, 2020

So I Told Him...

“When someone has my attention, that’s my focus. I can’t tell if I want to pursue someone if I’m distracted by other people, even if for comparisons sake. I don’t entertain anyone grinning in my ...


I just had this dream. I got up and was on my way to work. I worked in the office side of a casino. I don’t think I usually went in the casino side to go to work, but I knew if I got on a partic...


November 22, 2020

He Forces Me

No not like that. I’m sorry for the misleading title. I spent time with noob yesterday. Still trying to process it. He is abrasive. No. He is forward. At least I know his intention. He forces me...


November 21, 2020

Since I'm Awake...

I never can sleep in no matter how late I go to bed. So the next items up for bid in my happenings… There have been several deaths. Last Friday, there was a funeral for one of our family’s longti...


November 21, 2020

Is This Thing On?

My lanta. Where do I begin? Grandson didn’t have covid. We have been relatively safe. He started back to school two days a week this month and as of Monday, they are 100% virtual again. My daught...


October 11, 2020

I Don't Feel So Bad

....for not writing. I mean, I’ve been trying, but I’ve been pulled every where lately. I say I don’t feel so bad because I logged in and bot many are updating either. I’ve been worried about my ...


September 23, 2020

One More Thing...

Yeah…so that friend who alluded to suicide is not dead. A few days after his proposed “expiration date”, he hopped on Facebook, asking his ex wife from long ago to get in touch with him. The thin...


September 23, 2020

Gynocologist

So in typing my entry the other day, I made a play on this word. Then I got to thinking. I looked at it and I really believe that it’s just a fancy way to spell “gina” so it won’t look so crass ...


September 21, 2020

It'll Be Alright After 'while

That’s what the elders would say. Elders and church folks. Man. It’s been crazy. Well. It’s been what it’s gonna be. Let me say that. This past Saturday was little cousin’s birthday. He would ha...


September 12, 2020

I Must Be Bored

…which would contradict what I wrote in my last entry. That I need boring. Nah. I’m not bored. I am agitated because I caved. Daughter wants to go to karaoke. I’d rather watch the boys than she l...


September 12, 2020

I don't like to say no

I don’t like saying this especially to my grandbabies. They wanted to come over. It’s not like they don’t spend time with me or at my house. It’s just not good for real. I need to recharge and I ...


September 10, 2020

Dry Your Weeping Eyes

I have not slept properly for a while, but it’s been really bad. Tuesday, of course, was the day of the funeral. I was drained and tired and then had to watch the oldest grandson since daughter h...


September 08, 2020

Man...

Today was the day we funeralized my little cousin. It was bittersweet. We were all broken down for real. Before hand, I thought I would be asked to sing, but when I never got a call about it, I ...


August 30, 2020

And another one

As I lay in bed Saturday morning, getting my head right for the memorial service I was going to for step Auntie, siblings woke up and started sending text messages back and forth. Good mornings a...


Today is the birthday of my daughter. We started arguing over text messages last night because she is who she is. It picked back up this morning because she wanted speak her piece and she wanted ...


August 25, 2020

I Complain A Lot

I know I do. I also got it honest. I also have the right to do so. I reserve the right to kick folks when they are down, but I never do it because I don’t believe in doing so, even if they tre...


August 24, 2020

In The Meantime...

My step aunt passed away on last Thursday. My stepmom says once she lets out a good scream she will be okay. Otherwise, she is processing. Her children are not really good. Cousin Preacha had tho...


August 16, 2020

idunno

I talked to my kids father. I sent him a text of condolence and he called. I wasn’t going to leak tears until I did. He sounded…hollow. As he should, I suppose. He told me what all happened. I di...


August 15, 2020

God Has Spoken

That’s something I tend to say at the outcome of something. My children’s other grandmother passed away from having COVID-19 about 2 hours ago. My daughter called me I’m guessing after she found...


August 13, 2020

3 Months In and Other Stuff

I have no new thoughts on what to do for money. My buddy said to “vision board that shit and get busy.” or something like that. I’ve got no vision, no boards. Just vague ideas. I asked a question...


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Me.
Unabridge, a little reserved, but painfully honest.