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Outdoor Enthusiast / Biodynamic Farmer / Nutrition Science Buff / Equestrian / Nerd / Ultra Frugal (Cheap!) Lifestylist / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, Intellectual Excellence

It is not that power corrupts, but that it is magnetic to the corruptible.

Frank Herbert

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Scared in Journal

My default is to forestall feeling my emotions before I even have a chance of being aware they’re there. I found a great place to start expressing myself where I feel safe enough to accept feedba...


6 days ago

Thoughts in Journal

Attention. Holding a background & foreground of ideas, opinions, feelings, etc, of opposing views is a mark of maturing attention. “On the other hand,”, “In contrast..”, “I’m angry with you b...


April 21, 2020

Thank Glob in Journal

Babe slept 6 hours straight for the 3rd night in a row. I’m so happy. We had a big day yesterday. An almost 5 hour round trip to go pick up a cow. Yes, I bought a cow with my stimulus money =’D ...


April 18, 2020

Grounding is the Shit in Journal

If you don’t know what it is, look it up. You won’t be disappointed. For the last year and a half, I have been slowly making our house less health antagonistic. Ie, had DH rewire the old ungroun...


I wish I knew what caused the Poly. I’m convinced that is why my water broke. We weren’t ready; him or I. it was just the sheer pressure that popped my membranes. I feel like everything that hap...


April 17, 2020

Stay Off of Social Media in Journal

Stay off of social media. Stay off of social media. Stay off of social media. Stay off of social media. Stay off of social media. Stay off of social media. Stay off of social media. Stay off of s...


Tuesday morning I woke up in intense pain from a strong contraction. They were of a different sort than those I had experienced up to that point. I was still very sleepy and tired, but thrilled t...


April 14, 2020

Today in Journal

I’m gonna cry and that’s okay. I am so sad. People are mean and nasty. They’re just plain rude. Even people I know in real life are downright insulting and invite their friends to a pile on whe...


I need to write a conclusion to this pregnancy journal. So why not do it by sharing my birth story. Full disclosure. It will be long. It will be horrible. Js. The start of my birth story was ve...


April 14, 2020

Oh My Glob. in Journal

So much has happened. I guess that’s what I get for not making an entry for months. But hey. I had a baby, yo. It’s really difficult to know where to start. So I guess I’ll just write what’s on...


Often, as I listen to myself talking, wondering just what I will say, I realize that some platitude is about to be ejected. These platitudes are always universally acceptable, aren’t true or are...


December 14, 2019

Belly Belly Belly in Pregnancy Journal

My midwife and assistants absolutely loved my belly. It’s been a full 8 weeks since I saw my midwife, since she was at a birth during my last prenatal visit. I don’t remember exactly when my big ...


November 29, 2019

Mold in Dreams

This one was quite interesting. Usually I can tease out some sort of allegorical meaning from my dreams, and this one eludes me. I know there is something there, but it seems quite deep. I dream...


November 05, 2019

Weight... in Pregnancy Journal

Weight gain, weight loss, muscle mass, strength, energy. I’m getting bigger and bigger all the time but the scale hardly moves. I started out this pregnancy at fighting weight (literally), and I...


November 02, 2019

Guess the Emotion in Journal

It’s a new game I’m playing. Pretty much all the time. When I have the time, anyways. That’s not entirely true. I’m well aware of my ability to DO absolutely anything and everything in order to ...


October 27, 2019

Now I remember. in Journal

Why I decided that being open and honest and genuine with people is just the worst. People are catty and mean. They are selfish, and self serving. The general public is also just plain ignorant....


My therapist told me to use more fluff- as in emotional reasoning to connect- to dampen my communicative approach. Which is completely frustrating. You don’t reason with emotions, first of all. ...


October 23, 2019

It's Ironic in Journal

“Spare the rod, spoil the Child,” Ironic that an age old proverb is used to defend a barbaric practice that we’d rather not examine. An oxymoron, really. This proverb must be taken out of context...


October 21, 2019

On Choice. in Journal

I had an interesting discussion with DH yesterday. Like a hardcore 2.5 hour in depth sharing about our family dynamics. My concerns in the conversation really centered around the stance that h...


October 19, 2019

My face in Journal

always seems to do it’s own thing. They say the eyes are the window to the soul. I don’t know what the face is a window to. But for me at least, it seems to be a window to some inner world with ...


tell everyone who sees me that I’m not actually fat, just pregnant. I’m finding it harder to resist. Nowadays, it’s apparently not okay to ask someone if they’re pregnant; but I feel like that j...


October 15, 2019

So I'm Told... in Journal

I did start therapy. At first I didn’t know exactly why I’d started it, but I’ve quickly realized I have massive emotional dissociation or disconnect. “To put it simply, emotional dissociation i...


August 29, 2019

Been Awhile in Dreams

My dreams have returned full force over the last few weeks. After enjoying a short sabbatical from them during the first trimester, I am once again steeped in veiled meaning and weirdness. Last ...


August 07, 2019

Horsing Around in Journal

Rode my boy yesterday - not the OTTB I’m working but MY BOY. lol. I love him so much. Horses are amazing. Yeah, it all sounds so romantic, I’m sure, to someone who’s never experienced the comple...


August 05, 2019

On Writing in Journal

I think I may have made up my mind to actually write. I’ve been writing since I knew how- about the 3rd grade to be precise. Not journals, or letters, or anything- but long form novels. I’ve nev...


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