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Mom! / Biodynamic Urban Farmer / Naturopathic Doctor / Anthroposophist / Mystic / Avid Reader / Writer Extraordinaire / In Pursuit of Moral, Physical, and Intellectual Excellence.
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Am I the only One? in Journal
Who really really despises AI images? With how freakish they look. I feel something indescribably horrible when I look at them. It’s like a deformed creature putting on a human suit. And not a...
Greenhouse utility in Journal
Pretty stoked the whole north wall is completely covered. Working on the quarter west wall that is behind a shed still. A little bit intimidated by lime plaster as it needs a pozzalinic additive...
Cob Greenhouse in Journal
Progress on the whole cob wall is nearing halfway. After that one is complete, I’ll start on the quarter wall that still needs to be covered. Probably won’t do any windows in that one because it...
My dreams have been deep lately. I can tell because when I wake up in the night, I’m like, damn. And I stay awake for awhile just trying to integrate what insight or wisdom came through. And I...
Shifts in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
I experience big ones and little ones. Today, I am aware of a particularly big one. I remember falling sleep to the somewhat troubling conundrum of my unconscious habits. Most poignantly sur...
It’s free. It’s abundant. It can make stuff. Even buildings. Converting this old kennel/chicken coop into a greenhouse. And of course building the north wall with cob to test out the building ...
It's kinda funny in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
How I was just complaining about not wanting to start a business or go out of my way to do all this work, and yet here I am doing A LOT of work 😂 I’m not lazy. I never have been. I think I just...
The Cob Begins in Journal
My converted chicken kennel greenhouse is coming along Need to think of something for the door 🤔 either some way to attach the film and have buffers or put on a panel of plastic … Somethin...
Charmed, I'm sure in Journal
Today has been charmed. Just, all of it. Listening to Reality Transurfing has been a trip and a half- its like listening to the methodology recipe I didn’t know existed for the last 2 years ...
The call in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
Yesterday on Joel’s call, I had such an interesting experience. I as deliberating about speaking. Usually, if I am deliberating, I assume that I just need to do it. This time I didn’t make t...
Have really spoken to me, lately. Last night I was up about 5 times. I looked at the moon with my son who was up in the middle of the night a few times not feeling well. It was pretty hazy out...
Which Chart?! in Essays
For a little under a decade now, I have been aware of two major astrological charts and their differences; The Tropical, and the Sidereal. While I found proponents for Sidereal, there are very...
I have a fickle relationship to money. I used to believe it was evil and everyone who had it was evil and I didn’t have any. The. I Chang my mind and now I have money. It really messes with ...
Small and Big Things in Journal
Yesterday, I worked all day until I knew it was time to go to the post office- an errand I do every Monday. Moments before we leave the house, I get a call form the sheriff’s office that my docu...
I woke up with in Dreams
A distinct sense of my own argumentativeness. I percieved and felt into it for awhile. Not in a judgemental way. Simply in an open and curious way. I felt such an affectionate holding for it. ...
This year has been in Meditations
Transformative. I have Scorpio ascendant. Scorpio the sign of transmutation, transformation; death, and rebirth. Ascendant being the outward projected personality people experience. I really p...
I has just occured to me- in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
Right now as I looked out the window and saw something- whether it was a man, a dog, a being, but something- and then I saw nothing, that I often only see things when other people are asleep. ...
Old Dreams Haunting in Meditations
I feel the push-pull of fear and duty pulling me forward. Pulling me inexorably into the future. As I go, I feel emotions, feelings, relationships pass through me as they are finally purified,...
Psychic in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
I just realized that I’m psychic. Not in a vague way. In a very specific and intense way. It has often occurred to me that something that I’ve experienced as if it were my own- a thought, a ...
Security in What Wants to Move Through Me Today?
I feel ready to confront the terror of the possibility that my dreams or intent may have a direct effect upon reality. You know, it’s like that moment in Harry Potter when Hagrid asks Harry if...
The Twelfth House Plutonian in Essays
The house of Pisces is the last house; twelve of twelve. As such it is the crescendo of the entire zodiac, taking up into itself every aspect learned from the journey through every other sign. T...
There is a great deal of fear still to feel, It’s in my body. It warms me. I think of my children and wonder if they are to experience hardship that even I have not known. And it scares me … ...
I am Resentful in Journal
of my mom for telling me that my feelings aren’t okay. That I can’t have my feelings, whatever they may be. Most especially resentful around the feelings of how her own actions and decisions imp...
And Faith Seem interwoven in a bedrock of meaning throughout my life. My mind races and tries to put 2 and 2 together; frantic to figure it out. Anxiety drives my mind to dwell, to ponder, to...
Unselfconsciousness in Meditations
This morning I felt such a loudness in my heart. It was overwhelming; literally all I could hear, all I could focus on, all I could feel. When I sat to meditate, I felt my heart like a huge vibr...
