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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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6 hours ago

Food Stuffs in Hello

I’ve been in a poor mental health funk this past week. Last night was really bad. I am the king of self sabotage. Anyways, mom is feeling bad for me and said we’ll go out to eat tonight. My ch...

3 days ago

Rest in Hello

I’ve slept the day away. Woke up with a tension headache and a throat so sore I can feel it in my right ear when I swallow. Yeah, I’m not doing shit today. Heh. Ooo, I do have ice cream. I ...

To the funny farm Where life is beautiful all the time And I’ll be happy to see those nice young men In their clean white coats And they’re coming to take me away HA HA The counselor informed me ...

Oct. 4th I meet with the head counselor to get a referral for River Valley. That’s the free inpatient I’d like to go to. Not sure how long it will take but if I have to go then I have to go. ...

7 days ago

That Was A Bust in Hello

So I drove mom and aunt to the reunion. We were there maybe thirty minutes. My aunt didn’t want to go but Mom was insistent. She said she only knew two people there. While she did her thing I ...

But I don’t like you anymore… Got some…info today and I’ve been in my head since. I reached out to a girl who graduated from group if she’s ever been in an inpatient. She told me her bf is in t...

September 22, 2023

Confused Court For Church in Hello

Today was graduation day for a lot of folks out of mental health court. All the counselors were lined up, the judge stood behind a podium and handed out certificates. I wish I was joking. Befo...

September 22, 2023

Drunk Robots And Abscess Tooth in Hello

Pretty sure it’s abscess. Only problem is the area that hurts is a bridge so it’s three teeth…in front. I don’t want to get it all pulled and look like poor white trash but I have no insurance....

September 20, 2023

Hip To Be ⬛ in Hello

As I’ve mentioned before, I’m the kind of guy who always crosses his legs when he sits. All day I’ve been wanting to cross my right leg over and each time I try pain shoots through the hip where...

September 20, 2023

Body Buzzed in Hello

Went and got my second injection before group today. I swear I get a body high off of it for like an hour. Only me and one other person so they combined two groups today. We were on the other ...

September 20, 2023

12:26 AM in Hello

This is getting old. Been up since 6. Group, ran errands, cooked. Wide. Freakin’. Awake. At least it’s cold in here, FINALLY. 🥶 Feels amazing. If I’m up in another hour I think that left o...

September 19, 2023

Today Was Nice in Hello

Peacock messaged last night asking if I was free for lunch. I replied that I was and a when and where. I’m not going to lie, this morning she said meet at the new Publix on the opposite side of...

September 18, 2023

Right Side Of The Face in Hello

While enjoying my Cajun turkey sandwich for lunch I bit down funny and now my upper teeth hurt. The pain is shooting into the nasal cavities on the right side of my face. Any of my long time re...

Slept on and off throughout the night. I’m showered, shaved, about to take my meds and get some food in me. Today I’m going to take things a bit more seriously instead of floundering in the dee...

My mind is a mess… Mk I feel a bit better. Peeled myself off the couch, showered and got a meal in me. I guess I’m just feeling overwhelmed today. Haven’t gotten much sleep. Now that I’m clea...

September 16, 2023

Interesting in Dreams And Nightmares

Had a dream that there was some street festival going on and the punk band Bad Brains was playing a free gig. I got to me the singer and guitarist. Now only if something cool like that happened...

September 15, 2023

Leftovers For Lunch in Hello

Since Mom has been feeling a lot better she’s been active in chores around the house and cooking. Last night she made some killer fried chicken thighs with corn and cabbage. Today I’m having le...

September 14, 2023

Dear Sweet Relief Of AC! in Hello

Elder bro brought his AC unit. Just turned it on a few minutes ago and it already feels a bit cooler in here. Got the exhaust pipe going out the garage side door. Put some boxes and tacked up...

Was just texting with a friend. I’m craving a big glass of iced pink lemonade. From time to time I get on these kicks where I crave something fruit flavored to drink, be it juice or lemonade or...

September 13, 2023

Bat To The Head in Hello

I’ve had a headache all day. There is a knot in the back of my head like I hit it on something. Temples feel squeezed with pressure. Ice pack here I come.

September 12, 2023

Sick Stomach in Hello

Mom and I went to Longhorn for lunch because we didn’t want to hear the house up anymore than we have to. The French onion soup is sitting on my stomach like a swampy mess. Never again! After ...

September 12, 2023

Be Serious in Hello

I day drank yesterday and spent the rest of the evening sleeping. It’s 3:44 AM and I feel like absolute shit. My chest feels like there is a weight on it, blood pressure is definitely up and I’...

September 10, 2023

Limp Legged in Hello

Conked my shin on the left leg last night. Got a nice goose egg that’s humming with pain now. Owie… I had a really wild dream. D&D game, fighting monsters with friends I haven’t seen in ye...

September 09, 2023

Crippity Crap in Hello

Gotta go to my brother’s tonight for a birthday get together. He’ll be 50 on the 14th. I honestly don’t want to go. I really don’t feel like seeing my cunty cousin (huge bitch) and they’ll be ...

September 09, 2023

Small Town LOL!!! in Hello

Dude… you’re using a hip hop drum machine. SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!. Now…the truth… Honestly.

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