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We cooked out burgers tonight. While they were delicious I feel like upchucking right now. Seriously, it feels like something is clawing at the inside of my stomach.
Also I’d very much love a...
Skin is incredibly dry so I basically lathered myself down head to toe. I’m watching Bong Appetite on Viceland. We can have shows like this on tv but not have weed legalized, ugh! And don’t ge...
The Alabama Senate voted 17 - 6 in favor of medical marijuana. Still has to clear the House. I was jumping for joy till the hard realization hit me: my psychiatrist nor my regular physician wi...
So, I got very clingy and now the fwb says we should just go back to sending stupid and silly memes. No hanging.
It’s nagging me in my head and I keep beating myself up over it to the point I ca...
But I’m taking a break from things for a while.
Burn in my gut right now.
Nachos for dinner and now the jalapenos are not agreeing with me.
I messed up again.
With all that I’ve gone through lately I got very clingy to my FWB. I REALLY didn’t...
Today is the funerals for both cousins. It’s going to be a difficult day.
Thank you everyone whom offered their condokences and asking me if I’m okay.
I am, really. This happens every few month...
My cousin who killed himself yesterday…his mom gave up.
She died in the hospital a little while ago.
Can this week be over already?
My mom is taking it very hard right now.
They grew up together....
My cousin Stevie called my mom’s phone a little before six AM this morning. He went on about getting his mother into an assisted living facility. She’s in her late sixties and in bad health. S...
When you’re bored as hell but don’t feel like doing anything.
I’d like to take a moment and thank everyone for their kind words while I’ve been on this rollercoaster from hell of emotions. I’m n...
Please watch over me…
Csrved my left wrist.
I’m done with life.
Had another interview today.
Not quite sure how it went.
I also managed to pull a muscle in my left shoulder blade rearranging furniture over the last two days.
Saw my regular physician yesterday and got the staples removed. He even told me if I’m feeling down like that come see him. Real cool guy. But now that it’s healing I wanna naw my arm off.
Saw Michelle AND Dr. Gilbert both today.
They wanted me to enter an in-patient facility but I refused.
I know I know!
But money, I’m almost broke.
I just used the last...
Had a mania episode last night.
Mom stayed up and held me till I finally calmed down enough to sleep.
Then I discover this song tonight.
I’m so thankful I have her.
After a morning in the hospital I’ve got five staples in my right wrist.
I’m in a dark place.
A few notes from last entry wanted to know why I was let go.
A rumor got started that I slept on the job and that I’m a pedophile. The sleeping one made me laugh but being called a pedo? No, ju...
Drunk since then..
Carved up both wrist tonight. Fuck ‘Em.
Man, what a Saturday.
Woke up feeling stuffy at 12:30 but still went out for lunch. Made it to the park but the friend I was going to meet up with still wasn’t done with her errands. I came h...
I’m sober on a Friday night/Saturday morning. Normally by now I’d be four Guinness and half a liter of bourbon in cussing the PS4 or watching 90’s rock videos YouTube. Not tonight. Made plans ...
I woke up on the cynical side of the bed this afternoon. Got a full two hours of sleep, go me!
Been a shit show since I got to work. Super tired, I was greeted with the first shift guy bitchin...
All In The Family is on.
Today, Tuesday, I finally saw my counselor. Pushed back once because I had the flu and once again but she had new baby issues. Well, Dr. Gilbert didn’t tell her about...