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December 30, 2015

Alone in Safety Net

Most of the time, being single really doesn’t bother me anymore. I’ve never been in any sort of relationship. I’ve never even been asked out let alone been on a date. And most days, I couldn’t ca...


November 14, 2015

Another purge is coming in Safety Net

So I’ve decided to go incognito on Facebook for awhile. I haven’t decided how long yet. No “sharing” or “liking.” No comments on anything. I’ll still be there looking, but I want to be as invisi...


One of my regular customers at the store tonight came in, showed me her hands and said, “You know you play too much pool when it looks like you’ve jacking off a Smurf. ” A little too vulgar for s...


October 31, 2015

Hot Gates in Safety Net

There is no great thing, to stop and sing Waiting for the rain And this perfect pill, it’s all too much On the edge again Don’t look away Couldn’t help but note a cold disdain In your precious f...


October 27, 2015

Birthdays in Safety Net

Happy birthday brother. I hope you are at peace because our hearts still ache.


There was a time, not so very long ago, that people always commented about me being such a strong person. I never saw it then, but looking back I can see that I was. I had to be. Mostly for my b...


October 23, 2015

ABCs in Safety Net

A- Age: 31 B- Biggest Fear: never getting a chance to live my own life C- Current Time: 9:00 D- Drink you last had: sprite E- Easiest Person To Talk to: strangers that I’ll never see again. ...


October 11, 2015

I give up on people in Safety Net

I love how all of my friends are so wonderfully non-commital. Seriously. If you don’t have the balls to tell me that you don’t want to do something, or that something has come up and you need to...


So today was my grandma’s birthday. She has a big get together every year with her side of the family. Lots of people, lots of food and lots of memories. Today was a big one. Grandma the piano t...


August 26, 2015

Everybody lies in Safety Net

Everybody said this would get easier with time. You’ve been gone a year now, and I miss you more every day. The pain is as bad today as it was a year ago, maybe worse. I close my eyes and see you...


August 04, 2015

Day 2 in Safety Net

A year ago today I got a phone call at work. The doctors said there was nothing else they could do. Mom, dad, and I took turns helping you breathe all night long. I slept in a chair by your side...


One year ago tonight, I played a game with you for the last time. You begged me to stay and finish the game, but I had plans and I went out for supper and a night of drinking with my best friend....


Every night it’s the same. I read until I can’t keep my eyes open any more, turn off the lights, and then I’m awake. How many hours until I fall asleep this time? It’s been two already…all of the...


May 11, 2015

sleep schedule in Safety Net

Sleep continues to elude me. I’ve always been an insomniac, but lately it has been really bad. My mind is just all over the place. We’ve been back from California for a week now. I’m already goi...


May 09, 2015

Can't sleep in Safety Net

I can’t seem to shut my brain off tonight, which is fairly normal for me anymore. Instead of turning on the lights and reading more (I’ve already read over 200 pages tonight), I’ll just waste my ...


January 01, 2015

2014 Year-end Survey in Safety Net

What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before? ~ Worked in a call center, had real friends in the same city as me as an adult, was a pallbearer, wrote an obituary, passed a kidney stone,...


August 05, 2014

30 years in Safety Net

What the fuck am I supposed to do now?


June 05, 2014

Dynamite in Safety Net

I don't burn my bridges, I blow them up. It can be lonely sometimes, but it keeps me from going back to the people and places that are so toxic to me. I'm getting ready to blow another bridge and...


May 29, 2014

People suck in Safety Net

I'm having a week. When I first took this job, I thought a desk job would be a good thing for me, especially for my shoulder. I really haven't noticed any improvement in my shoulder, but then I...


I thought when I opened an account with Prosebox that I may write more than I did the last couple of years on OD. I never felt the need to write towards the end. Obviously, I didn't feel the need...


So one thing I did a lot over at the previous site was song lyrics. Nobody really ever read them (I had an entry counter, I know), but everything I write is really for my benefit first and everyo...


Well the newness continues. Things have ended with my beloved Franz and me. There were just too many miles between us. So today I spent most of my day at a dealership trying to decide whether to...


So with my new blog, comes many other new things. After 29 1/2 years in a small town that I hated (I'm including the years spent in college because I still went home every summer), I got out. I...


February 12, 2014

Out of tune... in Otter Bach's Musings

A cop was walking down the street, and in front of a theater he came across a strange scene. A tuxedo-clad man was repeatedly kicking another man who was down on the sidewalk. "'Ere 'ere, wot's ...


February 05, 2014

It's a new blog! in Otter Bach's Musings

So I'm one of the, probably, many coming over from Open Diary. Prosebox may be simpler, but in the 30 seconds I've been here, I like it better. Mostly I like that I don't have to pay for "chapter...


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