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~ The Drive ~ As I sit in the drivers seat, I look at myself in the mirror and think, “am I really going to do this?” Then I look at the seat beside me and I know that I am going to go through wi...
I am feeling lightheaded. I don’t know if this is real or a dream, but here you are. You are right in front of me. I can hear the tickle of your words in my ear. I can feel your breath on my neck...
Why do the voices in my head keep me up at night? Why do your words torture my thoughts? When will the voices be silenced? When will your promises come true? Why do the thoughts of you haunt my d...
Sitting in the dark Listening to the music I am drowning Drowning in the tsunami of my emotions All I can feel is love and pain The love I have for you my dear And the pain of not Seeing you, ta...
I told you to find someone who loves you enough to drive 5 hours just to spend 5 minutes with you. And while I still believe that is true, I have figured out there is a problem with that. But I b...
The Prison Cell in My Love
Sitting here in my office trying to get my work done. Music is wafting over me bringing out such intense feelings. I have tears rolling down my cheeks as it plays. All of these feelings are tied ...
Painful Thoughts in My Love
Alas, my heart is yearning Yearning for your touch To set my eyes on you in real time What you don’t know is whenever I close my eyes, there you are. You walk through my thoughts and dreams ever...
The Invisible Weight in Shorts
This is something I don’t normally discuss. This is the part of me I keep hidden. This isn’t as easy to write about as the woman I call “my love”. This is one of the hardest things I have ever wr...
The Niles Parallel in My Love
I have been binge watching one of my favorite all time shows. And it brings a lot of similarities to light in my life and my feelings about you my love. I am struck by how much I am like Niles i...
Confirmation in My Love
So, I have been thinking a lot about you my love. But hey, how is that news to anyone?? Anyway, I told you a couple of weeks ago how there are times that I write things to you only to erase them ...
Today was a hard one my love. I haven’t talked to you all day. I miss you something fierce. I hear you had a good day today. I heard you broke down, and that depresses me. It hurts because I coul...
As I lay here this morning in my bed, thoughts of you flow through my head. Thoughts of a life without you in it. Thoughts of a life without the one person I trusted more than anything. I feel li...
Today was a hard one my love. I haven’t talked to you all day. I miss you something fierce. I hear you had a good day today. I heard you broke down, and that depresses me. It hurts because I coul...
So Many People in Shorts
Why is it that so many people think they know what is best for my life? Do this! Don’t do that! Go here! Go there! Don’t fall for her! She is perfect for you! Well, I am sorry if my life doesn’t...
Am I Dreaming? in My Love
Like the song says, “if I’m dreaming please just let me sleep.” I got to spend time with you two times in three days. It was a wonderful feeling. I hated to walk away when we left each other. I c...
Valentine's Day in My Love
Today is my favorite “holiday”, Valentine’s Day. A day of love and loved ones. But in the reality of my life, I can’t be with the one I love. I can’t spend time with you my dear. I can not even ...
When I met the flaxen haired goddess I was thrown for a loop I was in the wrong bed again It’s a game that I have never been able to win I never thought I would meet someone Someone like her So ...
Does longing ever go away? I ask myself this often. What are longings? Longings are something we aren’t getting elsewhere. Food, entertainment, affection, love. Anything can be longed for. A p...
