So, I have been thinking a lot about you my love. But hey, how is that news to anyone?? Anyway, I told you a couple of weeks ago how there are times that I write things to you only to erase them and start over. It is because you deserve the best of everything. You deserve to be treated like the queen you are. To be showered with the finest things in the world. I say that to say this. To me when I read the things I write to you, sometimes it feels like I am just repeating myself. There has to be new ways to express what I want to express. New words I can use, but I always seem to fall back on the same things. That is why I sometimes feel I am not even eloquent enough to tell you the things I want to say. To express these feelings that I have never had about anyone. I wish my love that I could let you in and see how true my feelings are.
And I say this because sometimes I think you think that I am just feeding you a line of BS. That I don’t mean what I am saying. But it is true! There is no gold at the end of my rainbow, there is only you. If I won your heart, it would be like winning the greatest lottery of all time. There is no bull in any of the things I say to you.
I have often told you that I could only give you two things, my heart and soul. Well, I have since come to realize that that isn’t entirely true my love. I can also give you my unconditional love and support, my undying devotion, my time, my friendship and my trust. And all these things I would give freely to you. Some of them I already am.
I am writing this so maybe in some small way it will help you understand me better. Understand how I feel and maybe know that these feelings are no joke. That they are as real as the cute little dimples you have when you light up the room when you smile. My love in my eyes, there will never be anyone more beautiful, smarter, or sexier than you. And even if they are, they will never be you. And that trumps them all.
The last thing I want to say is this. You scare me. And I don’t mean BOO scared. No I mean the thoughts of what are you doing?? Have you lost your damn mind scared!! With all the things going on in our lives, it just really boggles my mind sometimes how I can have these thoughts and feelings for you. No, that is a lie, I have loved you since I first laid eyes on you. Even though I tried to play it off, I never could and the more I learned, the further I fell head over boots for you. To be honest, there have only been 3 women that I have truly loved unconditionally. You are in that group. I have told you this before my love, but I will go to my grave loving you.
So, I’ll leave you with this. I love you to the very depth of my soul. You will always have a place in my heart.
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