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April 14, 2019

A Little Death in Dear love

Dear love, I remember when I thought you might kill me. It happened more than once. The arbitrary lines you would say, soft and with a devilish grin that implied I had saved you from becoming a ...

April 11, 2019

Resistance in Dear love

Dear love, Remember how you used to say that I saw you? That I got you? Oh, baby. Do I got you. I couldn’t see before. Or, well. I could. But I didn’t see the damage you were inflicting. I saw yo...

April 07, 2019

sixteen in poems

“Just talk to someone.” the messenger list of who i’ve been talking to is a problem. i just don’t trust any of them. “You have to trust a couple?” sure. maybe. they’ve got big capital P problems....

April 07, 2019

The Public in Dear love

Dear love, The further away from you I get, the more clear it becomes. The more I talk about what I experienced, the more obvious things get. And I can’t talk about it. You’re clever that way. Yo...

March 27, 2019

Isolation in Dear love

Dear love, you warned me it would be like this. you spoke with knowledge and cleverness and i said i’d be fine. well, i’m not. you were right. i submit. can you make it stop now? i sit on the co...

February 18, 2019

Spirals in Dear love

Dear love, I see your cycles. I see the drowning waters that you churn for me, adrift on a sea of your design. Drown in me, you whisper. Your mouth is an open invitation to suffering. Fall back ...

February 10, 2019

Ghost in Dear love

Dear love, Today you’re the ghost entwined in my soul. I can’t see you or through you or into you, but I can feel your lingering pulling at me. Everyone assures me I walked away for a reason. But...

February 09, 2019

Within in Dear love

Dear love, I still think about how you feel inside of me. In every way you’ve been within me. Your tongue, fingers, cock, soul, heart, love, mind, lies, pain, promises. In the heat of lust I can ...

February 08, 2019

fifteen in poems

once I poured my loneliness into the void where language was my lover

February 08, 2019

A life in Dear love

Dear love, I wanted to build a life with you. I wanted to fold your laundry, make tea for you, and listen to you cooking while I worked on a game in the other room, shouting an idea to you now an...

February 07, 2019

fourteen in poems

i’m tired of this pain you put in me keep it in your own heart; mine is occupied by the scars you left behind.

February 07, 2019

thirteen in poems

tonight is the first night of fear it sits in my stomach and chews away at the intestines reminds me of the love i bear even as i shed my lovers like dreams upon waking it lives on what ifs and c...

February 06, 2019

twelve in poems

the world bears witness to your grief stricken tears, public loss dreams you must kill in exchange for dreams slaughtered. mourn the loss of me create space for yourself to fully feel the void i ...

February 05, 2019

eleven in poems

you drift away. swallowed within the void of your heart glass walls fogged with regret sit between us droplets of promises we’ll never keep memories unmade fade around us we could never save us f...

January 29, 2019

ten in poems

i need you to be in love with me. not love me. be consumed. smile stupidly when you see me. drown me in your need. let me fill you up with all of me. i will pour myself inside of you find a home ...

January 27, 2019

nine in poems

suck on the bones of our decaying remains. consume the marrow swallow our essence let it transform you: body, soul, heart sex. eat of us grow fat on vindication salivate indignation scoop out ou...

January 26, 2019

eight in poems

i want to celebrate this life i’ve had with you. To the towers now toppling the myths unraveling the dreams undiscovered the beauty untouched. Our great city built on in-jokes and broken promise...

January 25, 2019

seven in poems

step into my dreams rescue me from the ocean i nightly drown in blow oxygen from your heart to kindle mine

January 24, 2019

six in poems

i keep the page with your chicken scrawl handwriting. notes for a meeting. name. time. place. a number. that kind of meeting, important Things Get Done and Decided. a meeting that means nothing t...

January 23, 2019

five in poems

i am a stepping stone to your best self designed for your self discovery created for your grand epiphany ears for listening eyes for witnessing hands for comforting heart for loving i am all you ...

January 23, 2019

four in poems

you stripped safety in your need. waking from frightened sleep to your thrust and grunt your weight on my body over and over and over again. i stopped sleeping in our bed, you decried a sign of d...

January 21, 2019

three in poems

help me discover myself in the void of the world i need to hear your voice. an anchor. spreading wings with plucked feathers scattered on the sacred ground where you stand steady, stoic face and...

January 20, 2019

two in poems

i can’t be measured with you. You rip reason from hands and leave behind bits of poems and tea leaves. they promise things without names we won’t name, secretly name, lingering with fear and hesi...

January 19, 2019

one in poems

your eyes on me, not mine; meal to be consumed prey to be hunted creature to be tamed. devour me with hunger’s gaze touch me fingers lined with starvation my flesh, a feast. you were loved wa...

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