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June 10, 2019

Something new in Ruminating

I try to express my feelings in other ways than sitting and crying… finding the words is already hard enough. So I challenge myself to expand my vocab while writing a prose. This last heartbeat ...


May 21, 2019

Here we go... in Ruminating

Im upset that I let my guard down… I fell in love with a man and he turned out to be trash. Two years of my life, love and energy totally wasted. To make matters worse I’m pregnant… 29 and pregna...


April 30, 2019

RIP Mom in Ruminating

So many thoughts today… The John Singleton story hit me harder than I anticipated (RIP). Seeing that he was on life support for a little over a week, reminded me of my experience losing my mom t...


For the past 5 months I could not remember the name of this site! Ugh !! Maybe life was forcing me to live instead of seeking refuge or a distraction in this online journal. This name literally ...


September 20, 2018

All I Wanted Were Flowers in Ruminating

All I wanted were flowers… Roses, Lillie’s, orchid, hydrangeas, daffodils, chrysanthemums, Daisy’s, carnations, buttercup In the form of… Regard, Love, observance, honor, devotion, cheer, dedic...


I want this to be an erotic piece.... It takes a few days for the words to come together as I like them to. My vocab isn’t naturally as colorful as Id like it to be, but I’ll get better. No nasty...


Trying new things… Despite the judgement from those that know me, and don’t know me. I feel like I’ve come to a point in my life where I’m ready to have fun. I wasn’t really a sheltered child, b...


September 03, 2018

I hate holidays in Ruminating

I hate holidays of all kind… Losing a parent is the hardest thing to have to face. I come from a two parent home, where my mom was a homemaker and my dad worked every day. I lost my mom April of ...


So I started to attempt this piece during my week long vacation. I was proud of the first result, but I felt I could make it better. Making multiple entries to track my progress. First time wri...


Today seemed to go by so fast. Working off of three hours of sleep, I managed to be productive without sneaking to my car for a lunch nap. I’m feeling really good. Possibly due to the gratificat...


So I started to attempt this piece during my week long vacation. I was proud of the first result, but I felt I could make it better. Making multiple entries to track my progress. First time wri...


Insomnia has me awake knowing I have work in 4 hours. I intentionally started this piece while on my stay-cation last week. I was able to finish it tonight surprisingly. I’m normally a painter b...


Today was a better day. I’m currently fighting my way out of a depression. It’s funny how my peers think I should be happy, but honestly I haven’t been. I’m thankful for the blessings God has gi...


August 28, 2018

Mastered Regret in Ruminating

The topic of my graduation has come up a lot lately. The week of graduation I was hella depressed and off balance. On one hand I’m very proud of myself for accomplishing a masters degree, it took...


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