Mastered Regret in Ruminating

The topic of my graduation has come up a lot lately. The week of graduation I was hella depressed and off balance. On one hand I’m very proud of myself for accomplishing a masters degree, it took a hard fight. I still feel like I lost more than I gained by doing this. Here I am, I don’t have the most lavish , but I’m comfortable. The independent woman life is cool AF, but it’s also lonely. When you progress in life you lose a lot of friends/family. I didn’t expect to have lose my mom this soon. If she was around this would be much easier.

I wonder how would life be if I waited to go back to school. Maybe I would’ve been able to find someone to love and build with. All those songs that say “success is nothing when you have no one to share it with “ are right. I’m afraid that I’ve missed my chance at love. So I’m here regretful, when I should be celebrating my accomplishment. I haven’t lost hope yet. I’m gonna keep believing that God has someone for me, but he’s just getting me ready.