Diary
by Carmen the Vampire
Entries 108
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nothing much to say
Last night I woke up at 3AM and couldn’t go back to sleep until almost 5AM. I tried to make the best of it. I had something to eat, listened to some podcasts, but I’d rather have been sleeping. T...
Brain zero
Today hasn’t been a good day so far for me, mentally speaking. That’s not something I can control, unfortunately. Not that that means there is nothing I can do to help the situation. Writing, for...
Just ramblings
Ups and downs and ups and downs. Seems like mostly downs lately, although I feel fine now. The medication has been helping me feel less crazy, but it disturbs my sleep. Around 11pm or midnight I ...
wandering strange roads
I quit smoking everything. That’s about the only news. My birds are all set up in their new space. Grey is still getting used to it, but he’s making progress daily. Girl Bird has been enjoying he...
boobies
Day 1 of the juice cleanse is nearly complete. I only have two more “glasses” of juice left (I drink out of disposable red plastic cups) until I meet the recommended amount to drink according to ...
Allimac
I don’t know why I’m writing other than just for the sake of writing, but here I am. Today I went to the store and bought 8 cans of frozen juice and a pitcher in order to do a juice cleanse of so...
Babb
Babb walked down the ramp to hell He smiled quite wickedly A knife flew from his claw-like hand And it stuck in my flesh Screams, they tore from my mouth I cursed Babb and tore the knife out I li...
What the hairball
One of my birds just said that to me while I was trying to think of a title. He is in the other room chewing on a cardboard box. My other bird is in the closet working on a nest for her “eggies”....
page 1, scene 1, 554 words later
What did I do today? Well, I started off by waking up at about 2:00 AM and hanging out with my ridiculously late-streaming online friends for about four hours. That was fun. I got a chance to rec...
this is nice, too
I started writing on OD now that it’s come back. I’m not sure how much I’ll be writing here. Maybe quite a bit. Maybe not much at all. Even though I never really got into the habit of writing her...
I passed
I passed the state insurance exam test and now I can officially start my job next week. Woohoo!
I didn’t ever end up writing an entry after that job interview, but I ended up getting the job as most of you know since you noted me already. :) The job was a week-long class preparing us for ou...
Carmen the Vampire (feeling melancholy)
I’ve just recently lost my job and I’m sitting here at the library after applying for a couple more. Most days I come here or to some other library and apply for at least one or two jobs. I’ve ha...
**********Open Diary relaunch!**********
Well, it looks like OD is finally coming back. This is great news! I’ve tried accessing the website over the past few years in vain until today. They say it will be a few months on the website. I...
Birds
Surprisingly, not a lot has changed since I wrote my last entry. I’m still working at the same company (Comcast), still obsessing over my birds all the time, and still making questionable decisio...
While working...
I’ve been going crazy lately with the stresses of life, so I thought I’d write an entry. In the past, I’ve found that writing almost always makes me feel better about everything, allowing me to p...
girl bird confirmed
Lucky (one of my two African grey parrots) laid an egg the other day inside one of her several cardboard liquor boxes. She wouldn’t leave it alone for almost two hours. I put my hand down by her ...
Looking over my left shoulder as I type this...
It’s just past 1:00 AM. I can tell I’m tired, but I’m so used to being awake all night. That’s a habit I’d like to break at some point. That’s an alcoholic’s schedule. Sleep all day, drink all ni...
Raccoon
As my dad was leaving and we were walking out the door, I saw a raccoon run from the cat food bowl where it was eating off into the yard somewhere. I knew there was one hanging around it the past...
Back for good this time?
I’m back from my sudden hiatus earlier this year. A lot was going on in my life at the time, and writing about it was too much for me. But now I’m living somewhere new, and things have settled do...
Is my brain working?
I just finished writing a note to one of my friends here, and I found that I’d made 4 errors before I went back and corrected it, so I thought I’d write a quick entry just to see if my brain is w...
Some kind of madness
This is really embarrassing, but yesterday I had someone take me to the hospital because I was apparently having an anxiety attack. It was the strangest experience of my life. Honestly, I didn’t ...
Is it cheesy to write New Years resolutions?
It felt good to get some cleaning done, finally, today. I spent the afternoon vacuuming between all but two of the windows in the house. Just the windows in my room are left to do, but I’ve decid...
All over the place
For a long time I’ve been hiding away in my own head, ignoring my thoughts, desires, responsibilities, everything, numbing myself with alcohol and distracting myself with my computer. That’s why ...
Soup and errant thoughts
Hello everyone. It’s been awhile. My mom gave me a crock pot cookbook a few years back that I used a lot at first but let fall by the wayside at some point. I can’t remember why, exactly. But an...
Book Description
This is my personal diary. I’ll try to not write anything offensive, but I guarantee nothing. Nothing, I tell you!