Life, is it worth it?
by Nefas
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The Costs
So, getting drunk was like a reset button. It reminded me about a lot of things I had forgotten to think about and it let me feel free to be me for awhile. Also, like a trip to an amusement park,...
Me, again?
So, here’s a question. Why do I feel so much more like myself when I’m drunk? It’s a quarter after ten pm. I’ve been drinking my vodka and H. Punch. I’m not slamming it down just sorta maintainin...
TODAY
I’m in a state run halfway house/ mental facility now. I haven’t been drunk for 3 years but things have been bad for me lately. I should’ve reached out I guess but it’s so hard when you know nobo...
Another good day
Today, I guess, was the day yesterday was supposed to be. I did really well at my job and I got some really high numbers. I’m naturally hyper and high speed when I’m manic, which is really my pre...
Once upon a time
Once upon a Time my life was complete Filled with love and compassion And devoid of deceit For 270 days, I dreamed in the womb Then the first threads of hatred Walked into the room Torn from sec...
It was a good day until...
So, I’m sitting here waiting to be seen @ the ER. The day started great. I finally adjusted my sleep schedule to my new work schedule, I got some actual rest over my days off and I woke up this ...
Where did it go?
Am I the only one who keeps losing his entries on this site? Maybe it’s my browser or something that I’m supposed to do but don’t know about yet. I’ve already lost three entries-the Rust came bac...
RUST
Let me rust Let me fall and Dissolve into dust Let the worms wriggle Free of their host Let my corpse to rot -give up the ghost Let me fade as if I were never here To be loved To be known I’d rat...
The freedom of ugliness
I think, for guys like me, Korn is the best band ever. I’m a middle aged small town white boy. Born in the 70’s but a teen in the 90’s-which I consider the best decade of my life. Korn is an amaz...
An okay day so far....
Today is a good day so far. I don’t feel ugly or stupid, that’s always a plus. I’m a little disappointed, I wrote a lot of stuff here last night about my past and whatnot-today it’s gone. I guess...
This is me...
Ok so I needed an outlet to get things out of me. I’m not good at talking to people about my personal things. To be honest I don’t feel that anyone really cares anyway but I still need to talk an...
Book Description
My journey through life and it’s ups and downs.