Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018

by Park Row Fallout

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December 31, 2018

13 Seconds

Briefly: Yesterday (December 30th) was an almost perfect day. Joy, family, and accomplishment. Hell, the only way it could have been any better is if my wife deigned to interact in an affection...

December 28, 2018

More Words into the abyss

My Christ I am exhausted. I texted my Wife. I let her know that I couldn’t sleep last night, woke up around 2 a.m. to a night as bright as day, went to the basement, drank the brandy, spilled so...

December 28, 2018

2018's Long Ass Survey

Largely summarized by the following: What was your biggest life lesson this year and what did you learn? It is a lesson that I am still learning and still trying to use in my life… but I lea...

December 27, 2018

How Things Go

I don’t know if it is because of who I am, still with a strong sense of my childhood self inside of me, or if it is because of my previous work environment with the Chinese… but there are still p...

December 26, 2018

Additional Rambling

So… all Private firms have this week off, it seems. My “friends on Facebook Messenger” list is now pretty much everyone from Law School being bored. And why not? Courts aren’t doing shit today...

December 26, 2018

Bollocks and Damn

So, since I couldn’t sleep last night, I am 100% exhausted today. Just sitting at my desk, in pain, fighting the passionate urge to close my eyes and drift off to sleep. That is what I want to ...

December 26, 2018


I’ll write a better entry later but It is currently around 3 a.m. I couldn’t sleep. Wife was out like a light as soon as she hit the bed… didn’t even take any clothes off. For those who are on my...

December 25, 2018

MC and PI

A genuine and enthusiastic Merry Christmas to all. I genuinely hope you are all doing well and enjoying the day. I have realized a strong and unfortunate massive personal flaw. I completely lack ...

December 21, 2018

Mind Explosion

The Congress and Senate of the United States, voted for by individual states which translates into much closer representative government despite extreme gerrymandering, had agreed on a budget to ...

December 20, 2018

Lets Jump Right Into It

I have unrealistic expectations of myself. All month I’ve been working out, watching what I eat and drink, and trying to do well for my body. I’ve lost literally ZERO pounds. Now… technically,...

December 18, 2018

Consider it a Whinge

Why not do more whining, I’m not getting notes anyway, lol. It could be said that my largest problem is how much of my life is lived on-line. But all things considered… that is how things are he...

December 18, 2018

Stealing from

So… my spirit has been in a weird place. I have a house, my wife and I are starting to do well(ish) in counseling, I’m in a job that I like that pays well… that hopefully I won’t lose anytime soo...

December 17, 2018

Twitter Sized Statement

I’m feeling lonely and a bit listless. It happens, especially when living and working in Rural Iowa… but it isn’t a fun place to be. I’m just… feeling a little lonely.

December 17, 2018


I’m torn. I’m happy that next week is Christmas because I certainly need some time off; but I already know that my Christmas “time off” will be much like most of my weekends of late. Hustle, dr...

December 14, 2018

New News

Oh… the News. I think one of the reasons why Weekends are so rejuvenating for me is that I don’t watch the news or read the news at all. That’s what makes the weekends so restful. Immediately L...

December 13, 2018

Two Statements Than Improv

Statement 1: Oh, my wife. This is one of those wonderful experiences where I become a little bit of both of my parents and my Wife becomes the other bit of both my parents. You see, Wife and I ...

December 11, 2018


As some of you may be aware, Mortal Kombat 11 got an Announcement Trailer. For those that are not aware, I present it to you below: Now… the nature of the world On-Line is one of repetition, de...

December 07, 2018

On Fandoms and other Ramblings

Wow. It didn’t take long for fandom as a thing to be turned into a weapon. This isn’t new and it isn’t news but the fact that it is becoming more and more THE STORY of fandom is a tragedy. I ...

December 05, 2018

NSFW Admission

So… consider this one of those “Stupid BS confessions to the void that doesn’t need to be said but I’m saying it anyway” I’m sick of porn. Like… I have a beautiful woman in my life that I’m marr...

Title chosen at random but for those curious about the similar sounding “Unbearable Lightness of Being”, Wikipedia says the following: “Challenging Friedrich Nietzsche’s concept of eternal recurr...

December 04, 2018


UFDA! Today… was a busy, hectic, crazy day. Made worse by my half day yesterday. Don’t get me wrong, the half day yesterday was good! I was in terrible pain, I went home, my Wife showed me deep...

November 30, 2018

NoJoMo 30

NoJoMo 30 Prompt 2: Write a letter to your future self NoJoMo 30 Answer 2: Dear Future Me: Logic dictates that the future will not be as different as one would hope. No flying cars, no food in p...

November 29, 2018

Being a Bit Random

(1) I’m not a math guy. I’m a word guy. So tell me if my math is wrong here. The stars of the Television Show “Friends” were paid $75,000 per episode in season three, $85,000 in season four, $1...

November 29, 2018

NoJoMo 29 but first

So.... I’m a do a NoJoMo but first I wanted to share (1) Wife has been at her parents for most of the week. She and her parents returned to the house last night. Her parents are weird people bu...

November 28, 2018

NoJoMo 28

NoJoMo 28 Prompt 1: “Live and let die”, or ” You live for the fight when that’s all that you’ve got”? NoJoMo 28 Answer 1: Frankly, I live by both and am glad for it. Live and Let Die: everyone sh...

Book Description

Life is not what I had hoped it would be at this point. Growing up, I always thought I would have a house, a wife, a dog, and at least one child by the time I was 34. Well, I turn 34 in 5 months and I can’t even get the house part right. Looking into the Future of Me… all I want in this world is that House and Beginning to Work Towards Adulthood. That is what I want. But working where I am as of January 2018? I don’t see a good path forward. Hopefully, something changes. Hopefully, I can make something happen or something happens for me. Until then, I just have to keep working through the maze… hope I find a little cheese now and then.